I'm Afraid of Falling in Love

Meaning of Friend 2

For me a friend is like reciprocity, if he is good I will also be good, otherwise I cannot deny that I can still do good too.

- Blue-Eye

“Teteh where to go?” I asked when we were sitting on the train.

Sitting next to strangers has been my habit since I got on the train a year ago. Maybe it is this silent nature that has become ingrained in my life, can not stop talking if there are people sitting close to each other.

Especially now that I know him. His name is Risma, a student who is one class with, but different campuses and majors. He went to university which I vaguely remember. He's a year above me, maybe that's what makes us familiar.

“Cicalengka. You?”

“Rancaekek.”

I looked at the window. The flickering night lights amaze me. The feeling of fear and annoyance just disappeared. It's my first time getting on a train this late. On returning to the station twenty minutes long, Teh Risma kept her promise to buy me a ticket, thank goodness so I didn't have to do any theater.

We chatted about college to fill the boredom and void of time. And all that time we didn't know each other's purpose. Indeed yes same woman if you have continued talking as if forgetting something else

.

“You daily by train?”

“Newly this time anyway take the night train. Tetap?”

“Every day anyway.”

“It's common to mean home at night.”

“Yes that way, coming home the next morning must work at the puskesmas. For marriage capital.” Whisper while giggling. I was following giggling.

The marriage? I haven't thought about going there since college and not being close to anyone. I'm 19 now, I shouldn't have thought of that.

Marriage and all its troubles.

“Teteh the good already there are candidates, lah I am still single.” I laughed a little at the end of the sentence, I was just joking.

“Do not dong, later there is also kok.”

“Hehe yes tea.”

Next our chat was chatter-ngaler-ngidul, here and there. I told you that two girls who are already familiar will definitely talk about many things, including us. Though we just knew, but somehow so lightly I shared the story with him.

Tonight, not as cold as usual. The car air conditioner also seems to cool. The stars and the flickering lights on the window showered my admiration on my way home tonight. I'm happy, my heart is warm. There's a story I'm gonna write on the day after I get home.

“Introduction yes tea.” My goal of going home has arrived.

“Be careful on the road ya.”

“Teteh also be careful, find a crowded place.” He nodded and moved according to my advice. The destination of Teh Risma is the last destination of train passengers, it is natural that I worry that she is female and alone.

“Dahh.” I waved to the window where Risma Tea was sitting for the last time. I feel like the universe is deliberately meeting us both.

Tomorrow, I don't know if I want to guess. If still found, of course, I am happy because there are friends chatting during the trip. Otherwise, don't worry my life's been a pleasure alone all this time.

***

“Come spirit gems.” A Deni cheered me as he passed my desk before returning to his desk, I turned to a Deni who had walked to his desk, “thank you a Deni.” Sincerely said.

I stared at the small pile of cloth on my desk, this time it was still a pocket but a bobble pocket 1. First I kept the largest sheet of cloth to put at the base. In the middle there is a rectangular pattern. I took a smaller piece of cloth to be placed on the bottom side of the rectangular box pattern.I sewed the part that has been characterized.

The pattern on it I did the same thing.

“You are helped?” Pandu suddenly sat in front of me. I shook my head at the sign I didn't need her help this time. Instead of leaving, she was propping up her chin looking at me.

I'm the one who is trying to expel him, “no work is?” she shook. I can't do much. It's up to dial ah to stay there until you go home. Must be focus jewel.

“I know your mobile number.” Said Pandu while I was doing sewing work from Ms. Nining.

I frowned in wonder, when did I give my number to Pandu. Feelings never. Don't think about it, he's just making up stories maybe. Don't ruin my happy morning.

Pandu not only stopped until it turned out, he pulled out his phone and showed me the number on his phone. If he knows my number, why?

“What?”

He put his phone in his jacket pocket back, “but don't dare to chat first.” Brother, I want to laugh for a moment.

Men who like to approach women like Pandu do not dare to chat first. Ah cemen, my mind is happy to know that fact as it seems. As much as I can I hold my laughter so as not to explode in front of the guide.

“If you want to laugh yes laugh, your laugh is sweet.” Suddenly my laughter stopped.

It's not shame or if she's smiling sweetly. The guide and the fight is indeed the champion, do not respond. I continued my activities again, not caring about what the guide did.

Checkered

I looked at Pandu who was now staring at his phone. He showed me the results of his shots. “Look pretty right?” said Pandu who now keeps his phone away from me who want to seize it.

“Delete!” my word which he has not ignored at all.

“Gak ah, want me to keep it as a memento.” He smiled at jail.

I really don't like that sick smile of his, trying not to care about the pandu's distraction anymore. Bodo be very careful with the photo, I will take care of it later. Now she is busy sewing.

Slingshot

My feet stopped regulating the gas. Watching the engine die, is this machine broken? I looked around who was just as disappointed as I was.

“Yah dead not yet mgejahit.” Complain Pandu, staring at the pile of cloth in front of him.

“The electric bu is off?” ask someone who knows who I don't know.

Ms. Nining checked outside. He was chatting with the security guard. It looks like, the power's down. How else would you like?

Ms. Nining is back in. “It looks like this time the course is in liburkan only. The power is off, so automatically we can not continue the course.” Obviously Ms. Nining.

“Not just this school really, it looks like one of the same savings is power off. Said the Guardam gardunya there is an improvement.” Further.

I sighed, how could I catch up with me like this. I was having fun sewing. Even power outages should be who's to blame now.

“Yey holiday.” I don't know who was screaming happily. I'm obviously starting to clean things up.

“So eat-eat.” I forgot about it, do I have to come?

We went outside, why here too the electricity is off right, the engine can not be turned on. We gathered in front of the course. Tea Rein forced me to come along. I was worried, I wanted to come but was afraid to be late to campus later.

It was 9 o'clock, I thought. Anyway dzuhur straight back home do not mess around anymore. Where am I going to play. “Where is tea?” ask Rein Tea how many times.

I looked at the friends who were sitting on the bike. “A long time right?” he asked back hehe.

“Not really, most dzuhur also already home.”

‘Oudah deh.” But who am I?

The new Poppy Tea looked at us in confusion. “Kok? Where are you going?”

“You eat tea, come with.” Tea Rein replied and brought Poppy Tea.

Poppy tea looks at me, “You coming?” i'm nodding.

“Come tea.” I followed the others to bring Poppy Tea.

“Don't know the place.”

“Whose eyes are you the same?”

I smiled stupidly, “don't know tea.”

“Yaudah same with aja.” Nice tea, I'm smiling to myself.

“Ayo.”

“Eh yes.”

Finally me and Teh Poppy who is the new kid in sip b come to eat. Kinda keki also actually, do not know all. So shy, but usually shy.

“This where?” ask Poppy Tea as we pass the crossroads.

“Straight tea, follow that motor.” I replied while pointing at the motor in front of us. I know it's one of my class mates in sip b, a Deni.

Actually I don't know where Tea Rein's house is, it's just that I do know the way to the area. My aunt lives there, so it's not a foreign area either. Just don't know exactly where Tea Rein lives.

***

“You cook anything?” ask the Titan Tea sitting near me. Me and Teh Poppy just come along they don't want to comment, maish just awkward it feels.

“You ate pete dong.” The man on my side commented.

“You kale and sambel dong.” Titan tea with the woman who did not wear the veil finally asked Rein Tea for a piece of paper. The two of them wrote down a list of his menu after charging us a dues.

Just this time I joined all the members of sip b, awkward but funny anyway they humble. Not discriminating, most only Pak Guru who always they jahili. “There is a new child this dong introduction, we have not been acquainted.” Pandu Say.

Me and Tea Poppy are lyrically intertwined. “Come introduction first dong.” Pandu again told us to get acquainted. I invited Poppy Tea first to introduce myself.

Poppy tea stares at friends in sip b awkwardly, “aduh so shy in the face so.” A moment of laughter echoed after negating the speech of Poppy Tea.

“I'm Poppy, not moving the hell actually. Day should take care of children so usually only morning.” Clearly Poppy Tea made them all nod. Now it's my turn, but why am I so nervous when so many pairs of eyes look at me.

I'm clumsy. “I Blue Gem, call aja Permata. Nice to meet you guys.” Trying to smile sweetly, my mouth feels dry.

“Why move?” questions that may be on the minds of friends sip b.

“I..”

“There is business hehe..” I smiled crisply, it is hard to tell the truth to them. Though just to say, ‘I have afternoon lecture’ it feels my tongue is too muddy.

“That's yes.” The guide broke the silence that occurred.

“Then we say we first want to buy ingredients.” We all nodded as Rein Tea and Titan Tea left.

“Teh Poppy later return nebeng until crossroad yes.” I said while the other friends were busy with their own business.

“Oh can kok.” I breathe a sigh of relief, there is no need to be afraid to go home alone now.

“This Gem Mr. Teacher nanyain.” Pandu spoke aloud once to the point that everyone turned their heads towards me and Pandu.

“Nit?” beoku, I'm being a lola like this.

“Yes she asked you where you live.” Take a walk while smiling for yourself. I became suspicious of him.

“My father?” Lah, why did I follow the others call him father anyway. I curse the lips that can't be controlled.

“If it is the same Mr. Teacher it must be hard, like this Mr. Teacher he asked tuh.” Shouted Pandu while pointing at me.

Master turned to me, “was hew what?” sahannya slow. Laughter instantly echoed on the terrace of the Tea Rein house this afternoon.

I was confused, what were they laughing at?

“Sttt don't be noisy, Mama is sleeping.” Tea Rein came to us laughing. Tea Rein has come home from the stall like him.

I looked at those who were still laughing, though not as loud as before. They still laugh. I was really confused by their tinkah. Pandu shuffled closer to me who was like a fool now.

“You know not if Mr Teacher is wise?”

“Budi?”

“Budek little, hahaha.” Pandu laughed again even now he was holding his stomach. He laughed too much like that.

Poppy tea rose, “we go to the kitchen yuk, help others.” Bring Poppy Tea.

Right also rather than laughing indistinctly here I better help them cook, even though it can only help a little at least I am not a fool who watches a show of laughter is not clear.

***

“Teh Titanium.” Call me when we're cutting kale.

“Iya?”

“Guru sir why? How can you laugh that way?” the question that had been stuck in my head I finally addressed to someone as well.

Titan Tea was very visible trying to hold back laughter, “he did not know the children like to tease him. Hahaha.” Without being able to prevent the laughter also came out from the mouth of Titan Tea.

“Apardon, how ya explain it.” Titan's tea scratched the back of his hood.

“The children were very happy to goga Mr. Teacher because he was lacking hearing.” I looked at him not understanding.

“Gini if we ask slowly the answer is like not connect.”

“For example, when Pandu asked you to meet him, he answered something else. That's what makes children happy to tease Mr. Master.” Didn't she? Kind of pity too.

“I'm not strong deh.” Adu Teh Tini who was now holding her stomach also did not stop laughing.

“Pak Guru that yes if asked the same man the answer is like ngawur but if the same woman can connect.” Further. Could that be?

“Times anyway?” manya curious.

“Just ask if you don't believe.”

For the sake of proving that I rushed out together with Tini Tea and Titan Tea. We approached Master who was sitting quietly, ignoring the laughter of his friends. Teh Tini approached Master.

“Pak Guru anyone want to know?” said Teh Tini who is now pulling me closer towards Master.

I stare at Teh Tini confused, “tanya try.”

“Pak Teacher which person?”

“Sini.” Huh huh? Not long did the laughter echo. This time I laughed, when I asked which person the answer was here.

Pandu approached Pak Guru, “Pak Guru he asked Pak Guru which person?” said a loud palanquin right near the ears of Mr. Teacher.

Mr. Master looked at me, “Oh, rancaekek.” The answer.

“Tuh Rancaekek.” Pandu Say. I heard Pandu need not be answered again.

“Different yes if the girl is mah.” A Deni joined in this conversation.

“Try you ask war.” A Deni told the tall man sitting next to him to ask Master.

“Pak Master what are you doing?”

“Course.” Laughter came back. I even shed tears this time.

Rather than stomach ache from laughing I resigned myself to return to the kitchen. I passed Mama Tea Rein who happened to have woken up, I smiled awkwardly at her. It was so shameful to be caught laughing.