I'm Afraid of Falling in Love

When to attend a wedding, when to receive guests at the wedding ?

Marriage and marriage are not a race. Nor who gets the match first will be the winner. I think a soul mate is like finding a diamond diamond that if not rubbed will lose its branches.

- Blue-Eye

Maybe it's true that we're not really friends. The proof is that I never saw you again. It was my fault that I cut off the meeting because of boredom. It was my fault for breaking my promise so many times. I'm happy here too. Looking at memories as mere pieces of past happiness, with you.

It looks like I will be the most upset writer after writing long enough quotes in my daily diary. Right this year we're one year lost contact. There is no news and no news to each other. Can I say hello even if I just ask?

It feels so happy when we can still be together. Ah yes the offender is always there. I said from this high cliff. Do I miss being able to meet again?

Ting

He said he wanted to go to Jogja

I seem to expect too much. It was not a message from him.

*She's joy

When's?

Next week

Sip tar where you want to meet?

The one near the station is*

Oh if it's just pick up at the station, later I show you the cheapest lodging but okay facilities how?

Oh, siip if that.

My spirit is back on fire. Looks like coming home from this cliff I have to go to the new market first to give souvenirs to Joy. Fortunately, there were also friends who moved tasks. Yes, joy moved the task from bandung to jogja from his office somehow until when.

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“Home back ta?”

“Not yet ma still in heaven.” Reply origin.

His son has arrived home kok asked already home or not yet anyway. Allaah just ask tumben remember to go home so in the word child durhaka kayak bang toyib. Hah is ready to go to the condition of Joy hunt until.

After taking a shower, I dressed up and tried to dress up. Even if you just put on lipstick and powder. Can it be called dandan? Ah better get ready quickly, because soon it's 11.

“Completed.” I said cheerfully after finishing the use of pashmina on my head.

I looked at myself in the mirror again.

“When do I marry ya?” ask me for my reflection in the mirror.

“Hush Wedding Gems, marriage only does not exist.” Errata.

Tok

“Ta it's something new tuh.”

“Iya ma bentar.”

“Come spirit ta.”

I headed to the living room and saw Dari with Adrian chatting with Mama. Adrian seemed to look at me with an ughh look I wanted to punch him. Risi was also seen that way.

“Wihh no Fun Gem nih.”

“Makin' more beautiful, hijab too. Stay married just ta, uh but the candidate already exists not yet.”

Adrian half-mocked me at the end of his sentence, and Tari immediately nudged his arm. I just stared at him the most, yes he was the most annoying.

“Heh ian kan Permata is not married because his soul mate is still in secret tau.”

“Halah use secret secret all the evidence where huu.” I glared at him.

“Freely glared at narrowed eyes so.” I smashed my lips in annoyance.

“Already why be a storm anyway.”

“Ta, have you contacted Joy?”

I checked my phone and showed Joy's last message to the two of them. Dari decides to wait for Joy, fearing that Joy and I will stray later because they do not know the bride's house.

“Ta, you fat ya?” adrian is starting again.

“Surely because of that guys don't want.” The original conclusion, I thought.

I did not reply to her words this time and pretended to be busy with a cell phone.

“Halah is also busy with olshop or open instagram.”

Errrr, I'm losing my patience now.

“Ak-“

“What he chats with me kok.” Suddenly, Joy was at the door holding her phone and looking hard at Adrian.

Adrian's? Just putting on that annoying plain grin.

“Ehehe Joy how are you?” Adrian say hay to Joy, hugs like that.

“Good yan, you how are you?”

“OK Joy, which is not good it tuh.” Adrian pointed at me with his eyes on Joy.

“Gem?”

“She looked well. Even I'm surprised she's hijab now huh. Thank God for ta.” Joy smiled at me which made me clumsy.

“Yeh good anyway but he still so jones.”

I pointed my index finger at Adrian.

“Heh I'm not jones ya already told you his soul mate-“

“Still in Allah's secret it.” I glanced at his words.

I asked for help Dance who looked awry. Want my furniture scared of her boyfriend getting angry, their bucini.

“Already, have left now yuk already hounded noon nih already have an appointment again nih.” Joy finally mediated my argument with Adrian.

We say goodbye to my mother first. And began to set out with me in the bonfire of Joy and Dance in the bonceng of Adrian.

“Be careful yes Joy not to bikn why-wet tuh jones one.” Adrian before advancing the motor. I was the one who was about to punch him just so he punched the air because he ran away.

“Ish yes Adrian it emang nyebelin really ya.” Narrator.

“Udahlah yuk departure.” I followed him and sat on his side.

“Em can't ask you something?”

“What Joy is not surprised by the wind fast.”

“By tanya gak?” Joy raised the volume of her voice.

“Ask what Joy.” Reply with a loud voice.

“You really don't have a girlfriend now?”

This was my first meeting with Joy after not seeing each other for a long time. Joy who after High School decided to work made the intensity of meeting us so rare. Unlike me, Tari, and Adrian who often meet to just hang out. It's only natural that he doesn't know my love story.

“Emm ta.” Her screams made me wake up from the daydream.

“Eh yes, no Joy, no end.”

“What's the end?”

“Nothing is just yes, it used to be fitting SMP often dating.”

“It was Joy.”

“He who has hijrah.”

“Not so too.”

“Set how Permata.”

“No how-gimana hehe.”

And along the way we talked about many things. Starting from my writing hobby now also his work is getting denser. Naturally now Joy's position has risen as a supervisor not an ordinary employee, so yes it will be more busy.

Joy is one of my Junior High friends who is still actively related or in touch with other friends. I, Tari, Adrian, Nina who knows where I am now was once friendly. Added with Joy who joined since opening together first after leaving school that made me become familiar with him.

Joy's humorous side sometimes shows up when I get together with my gang. But Joy is still Joy who is difficult to guess the way her mind is. It used to be that when I graduated Junior High School, I was thought to be going to the same High School as me. He eventually chose to go into vocational. Even so, we still support each other.

Dari and Adrian were waiting at the entrance of the invitation building. This time one of my Junior High friends named Rina is married to our Junior High School upperclassman. True yes, that soul mate no one ever knows.

My Junior High School class brother was once famous handsome. Who would have thought it could be subdued by Rina who always speaks haphazardly and always indifferently whatever. It seemed strange that the upperclassman who looked rapid and regularly coupled with Rina who had never noticed her appearance.

“Log yu.” Take the Dance that directly holds me.

I was flabbergasted, the wedding was really fancy. The concept of gold is also rose which is applied to make me stunned and envious. I feel like getting married quickly. The question with who?

And whoa see the bride who is so elegant with pastel wedding clothes, plus hijab and tiara that adds to her beauty. Eliminate my thoughts about Rina being so haphazard earlier. Lina who now looked completely, mature and graceful.

“Barakallah yes rin.” We splashed for a moment.

“Still yes, in wait for the invitation.” Lina with her sweet smile made me melt, it was fitting that the dreamy upperclassman was lured to her.

“Unexpected marriage table first.” I joked to her who was repaid with a bitterness and looked at her husband lovingly.

“Only want to wait for a jewel that jones who knows when the wedding is. Waiting for his soul mate to appear he said.” Sambar Adrian who made Dance pinch her hand slowly.

“Aww, what the hell ay.”

“Udah deh yan don't start.” Again Joy is over.

“You never change.” Said Rina who made us realize.

Oops we're still on the guarantee. I'll curse Adrian later. Fortunately, we didn't ruin the wedding. If that had happened I would have made Adrian a duckling. I hurriedly left first followed by the others. Shame to fight in the mopaminan.

“No surprise yes tar, Rina already married first.” I said after sitting down to enjoy the meal.

“The name is also mate ta, no one knows. Can quickly also late.”

“I include which ones are ya tar?” tanyaku who is fun stirring the whipped noodles.

“You are not late, but it has not been found.”

“Toh I also don't know if I will be dating Adrian or not.”

“In the end, humans can only pray and try, the rest we leave to the creator.”

“Iya true tar.”

“Eh but tar, you do not want to marry young is the same Adrian.”

“Who would not want to marry. Smeua ornag also want?” I nodded in disgust.

“But that's it, Adrian is still busy with his mountaineering hobby. And I, you know, I was busy with my college and my organization.”

“Iyasih tar, we are still young to embrace many-many activities for life experience.”

“Appaan nih discuss life experience all.” Adrian and Joy are shown carrying two bowls of zupa-zupa.

“Still Joy.” I said after receiving a bowl of zupa-zupa from Joy.

“Cie very attention Joy, do-don't.”

“Don't be nice nih zupa-zupanya and restaurant you want to make this menu also yes Joy.” Sambark.

Adrian looks upset. I cheered because I could make Adrian upset. The fun was just a moment away.

“Hi you are here too.” Suddenly I don't know where the man who has been bothering me lately is here.

They were all staring at me with familiar gazes? I just shrugged my shoulders not knowing. Before he could answer the man's words, he had already drifted away on his friend's call.

“Introduction yes.” We nodded like robots.

After he left, Adrian turned my chair to face him. He gave his intimidation look to me.

Then, leaning in with questions of no importance is also the babble of origin. Said he was my girlfriend, my crush, even an affair. Ish base he's a leaky bucket and a rombeng can when talking. Especially when it comes to guys who are close to me sellau so, note it first.

“Opaan the hell yan, I don't know.”

“Ah don't lie to me about the proof that she has you.”

“Who is ta, who is.”

Adrian and his future really drained patience. Honestly answered in a lie, answer a lie in fear of sin. It is true that I do not know the man, he means not yet officially acquaintance. Meet by chance. So what should I really explain if that's the case.

“Udah deh urusin aja your relationship do not take care of people.”

I merengos go out of the building, make a ride pitam mulu anyway his behavior. I'm sorry if those words were a little harsh on the ear. I don't really mean to say that either. It's just that it's not a secret if Adrian sometimes does need to be taught a lesson.

“Ta kok angry anyway wait dong.”

Adrian was after me. Likewise with Dance and Joy who rushed to follow Adrian. I'm staying put to go from there. Already lazy.

“Ta, sorry dong.” Adrian intercepted me and held my arm while I was in the parking lot. I looked at him with a look asking what was wrong.

“Gue.. Sorry doesn't mean that. I just want you to be happy.”

“Iya yan, yes I'm just upset kok.”

“Udah you come home with Joy again.” I just nodded and followed in his footsteps from behind.

“Ta I'm afraid.”

“Fear why?”

“Fear lo failed move on.”

“Bhahahaha.” My laughter cracked for a moment.

“Loh why even laugh?” tanyanya's confused.

“Lo wants me to be happy. Yes I'm happy with still alone and calm down.”

I patted her on the shoulder and approached Joy, who was already pushing her bike.

Maybe that's one of them, not not being able to move on. It's just that opening the heart after being hurt is not that easy. Especially now after following rohis in High School. But, I don't know until when my defense is yan, I can only pray to be found with the right person.

I waved to Adrian and Tari. Relax, I'll make sure I'm happy.

“Ta can go to my house first. There is a sodara who requested this file and can not be delayed.”

“The plan was to come home from here we met, but he went home to take.”

I just nodded behind his back which he definitely could not see. I smiled and realized my stupidity.

”Iya may, I am free kok origin in between until home only.”

“oke.”