I'm a Widow of Ustadz

chapter 41 relapsing disease

The night Rena sat on the edge of the bed she felt very anxious to talk to Luthfi but she knew what to say for fear that Luthfi would be offended.

"Gus" said Rena.

"Yes" asked Luthfi.

"The cow that was sacrificed yesterday is from your company" asked Rena.

"Hmm yes have papah" said Luthfi.

"Oh deserved because it sent Mr. Yasir" said Rena.

"What's up" asked Luthfi.

"There's nothing to ask" said Rena.

"Now you know" said Luthfi.

"Yes Gus" said Rena.

"All right, let's go to sleep" said Luthfi.

"Yes come on" said Rena.

In the morning the santri perform their morning prayers they are all already in the mosque, After finishing the santri immediately run to head towards the dining room.

While Luthfi at this time he will go to the stall to buy coffee, he began to be addicted again to coffee, even though his disease often relapses.

Lutfi quietly went to the stall next to the pesantren, he bought a sachet coffee he really liked the coffee, he was very fond of the coffee,

But Luthfi looked at a mother who was crying there.

Luthfi asked the shop mother who was there.

"Mom why" asked Luthfi looking at the crying mother.

"Udah is ordinary in mah Gus, fighting with her husband" said the mother stall.

"Oh" said Luthfi.

"She's like that continue, said the mother if this continues yes divorced but she is still the same husband" said the shop mother.

"Let me ask you" said Luthfi.

"Yes please" said Ms. Warung.

Luthfi approached the mother, she sat quite far away from the mother.

"What's wrong" asked Luthfi.

"Hah Ustadz is fine" said the mother who immediately wiped her tears.

"There's no telling anyone who knows I can help" Luthfi said.

"Ustadz I had a husband he was very rude to me, before I understood but I let him be long the longer he went to Ustadz, he was getting rough" she said in tears.

"Rude how" asked Luthfi.

"Ustadz rough as say Sia (you in rough Sunda) or natu (eating in rough Sunda), anyway he was very rough Ustadz" said the mother.

"If I think yes, it is obviously hurt if treated like that" said Luthfi.

"Yes Ustadz, I guess what I should be like" the mother asked Luthfi.

Luthfi smiled she was afraid of mispronouncing.

"Mom I can't give you advice, it's just that maybe now it's up to mom, I don't want to interfere with mom's problems, I don't want to, because of this good ma'am bad her husband then it is still a priest for mother, I can not possibly ask mother to separate if mother still wants to be with her husband mother, I can not ask mother, actually, women with men are different, like this woman can be directed as long as the priest is strong, just strong, but a husband is very difficult to direct because he is the family coconut should he be the one who provides a good example for his wife and child" said Luthfi.

"Yes ustadz I also have a four-year-old child I do not want him to follow in the footsteps of his father" said the mother.

"If I suggest to the mother's child a little mother just point at the right one, but if the mother's husband, but if the mother, the mother's husband, I think it would be difficult my advice Mom just consider this a trial mother listen but do not put in the heart, mother just listen to me know that gradually she will be bored really, really, unless you have a husband who is abusive in physical form like kdrt, I suggest immediately leave Mom because the man if you have played physically will continue, but if in the speech is still understood, yes, because gini ma'am if to the abusive mother must be to someone else is also rude, just pray that someone will remind him" said Luthfi.

"Yes Ustadz but I often hurt" said the mother.

"Mothers also have a hidden attitude, for example before marriage is romantic and after marriage is not romantic anymore, because they think that after being obtained they do not need to do that again, for example, because they know that his partner is already his or hers there or not the romance then our partner will remain with us right" said Luthfi.

"Yes Ustadz thank you" said the mother.

"Mother be patient, Allaah is all that expands the human heart so we will not know when a human being can change if it is the will of Allah then nothing will be impossible" luthfi.

"Well Ustadz I'm sorry to thank you" said the mother who immediately returned home.

Lutfi smiled she did not want to like that to Rena later what else a woman's heart is very soft.

"I'm not very grateful if I do that to Rena" Luthfi murmured.

Rena looking for her husband, she saw Luthfi who is now walking towards the boarding gate.

"From where Gus Luthfi was early in the morning to the shop, my mind started to feel bad" Rena murmured.

She approached her husband, Luthfi, who realized that he had hidden the sachetan coffee behind his back.

"What are you hiding" asked Rena.

"Nothing" said Luthfi.

"Nothing" said Luthfi.

Rena took Luthfi's hand that was behind her back.

"That's coffee again" said Rena smiling.

"Let me drink this plis" said Luthfi.

"Your gums have been drinking a lot of coffee" said Rena.

"As if I want this once" said Luthfi.

"Yes well" said Rena resigned.

Rena let it be because to ban it Rena will not be able to.

"I'm sorry last night I saw the news, there's your news on social media" Rena said.

"You know" asked Luthfi.

"Yes I know I see" said Rena.

"It's okay to leave it alone" said Luthfi.

"But Gus must be because of me yes you enter the news like this, sorry I don't know Gus I think it will not be this bad, I'm ashamed Gus, what else there is to comment on what is not said all this is my fault" said Rena.

"Why is it your fault" asked Luthfi.

"Yes proof they said you went to this boarding school because of me, you wanted to make me happy so you came here and let your company go" Rena said.

"Who says I'm going to gag his mouth" luthfi growled.

"They Gus I'm not good what else there is mamah you are also there" said Rena.

"Mamah commented what he was" asked Luthfi angrily if she remembered that she had done that to him.

"There's nothing he's just responding to" Rena said.

"Darling I don't blame you, I came here because of my will not because I want to make you happy, yes, I wanted to celebrate Eid al-Adha here so that you are not lonely in the city but I do not blame you, I also do not involve you" said Luthfi.

"But still Gus I was wrong" said Rena.

"No you're not wrong let this be my problem you don't think about it" said Luthfi.

"But I'm afraid it's all my fault" Rena said.

"No, I won't involve you" said Luthfi.

"Yes thank you" said Rena.

they eat together after eating Luthfi brewing coffee and drinking it alone in the room, while Rena is now teaching the santri son who will participate in the qasidah competition.

"All right, I'll teach you the song" said Rena.

"But Ning I don't know how to hit him" said santri putra.

"I'm helping you here" said Rena.

Rena taught him that Luthfi is in his room right now, he's pretty stressed about it all what else the mastermind is his own mother.

"What am I supposed to do is not sin if I go against my mother" muttered Luthfi.

He saw his phone now on Sunday he had nothing to do, because Sunday santri free so his time teachers to rest.

Luthfi finished up her coffee until she lay on the bed because she was so dizzy now.

"I'm so stressed out how I'm going to get it all back" Luthfi murmured.

But suddenly Luthfi's stomach hurt, his stomach was very sick like something was twisting his stomach.

"Astaghfirullah why relapse again now" said Luthfi holding his stomach that feels very sick.

He could not say what else his stomach really hurt, He grimaced in pain because his stomach continued to sound.

"Astaghfirullah why is this sick" muttered Luthfi.

Innalilahi wa Inna ilaihi Raji..

Only that sentence that Luthfi could say he was in a lot of pain, so he if the recurrence of his pain he never spoke to anyone, he would only confine himself in the room alone.

Luthfi does not want to trouble others.

"Hold Bismillah I can" muttered Luthfi.

Luthfi saw the medicine box he used to often keep stock of drugs as a guard for him if his pain relapses again.

But it's a pity that it doesn't exist now because Luthfi never keeps any more drugs.

Even Luthfi hasn't bought a cure for her.

"Why am I this stupid" muttered Luthfi.

Luthfi sat her body on the floor and she felt a tremendous amount of pain.