I'm a Widow of Ustadz

chapter 118 The Regrets of the Dead in the past

This afternoon maybe at four in the afternoon Rena just woke up from her sleep she looked at Luthfi who was there tidying up her book.

"Abi" said Rena.

"Have gone to sleep" asked Luthfi.

"Yes, I forgot my Ashar prayer" said Rena.

"Just do it now" said Luthfi.

"All right" said Rena.

But when Rena was going to enter the bathroom she just remembered she had not made food for the guests who would come.

"Astaghfirullah Abi I forgot not to cook" said Rena panicked she immediately walked towards the kitchen on the lower floor.

"Umi" said Luthfi who only shook his head.

Rena saw a lot of food boxes in her living room that were being sorted out by Yadna and Adiba.

"Children" said Rena.

"Umi" said Yadna.

"Astaghfirullah Umi overslept when he forgot to make food" said Rena.

"What's wrong Umi, Abi who has ordered this food" said Yadna.

"Thank God" Rena muttered staring at her room whose door was open.

"You are indeed very creepy Abi" muttered Rena smiling.

Rena directly performed her Ashar prayer she was very happy now she finally could rest.

Rena has also registered Waffi to the Abah pesantren in the village.

Rena thought that Waffi would be fine there, what else would be so many things that would make Waffi very happy there.

"May all this go smoothly" Rena murmured.

While on the other hand Mayang is waiting at home with Nanda and Faiz because Gladys and her husband will go to Rena's house which is now holding a tahlilan event.

Mayang looked at Nanda who was like her antagonist, what else was seen from the look of her face that was like she did not like in humans.

"Faiz is like your hospital" asked Mayang.

"Alhamdulillah Nek went well" said Faiz.

"Did your Abi ever come there" asked Mayang.

"No he's very busy" Faiz said.

"Trust Faiz that your parents are very dear to you" said Mayang.

"No, Nek, your son is very stingy, I borrowed money from them but never gave it, but if there is money I will change" Nanda said.

"Thinking positively, their children are not you so do not think like yes" said Mayang.

"It's Grandma now that I think that Umi and Abi don't love me" Faiz said.

"Why so, they love you so much so stay away from such thoughts I'm very angry if you do that" Mayang said.

"Yes Nek" said Faiz.

Mayang remembers the events of the past when he was eager to take Faiz from Luthfi and Rena.

Flashback 23 years ago.

One year while Mayang in prison, the end of his Mayang can also come out of the iron bars.

Mayang builds his business back he will live alone because like his Herman will return on Sofi.

Mayang started his business from the beginning he wanted to be rich and successful what else now Mayang has no one else but Gladys who is in the boarding school.

But one fact makes Mayang back arrogant, Mayang just found out that Faiz the son who adopted Luthfi was the son of Gladys and Abimana ex-husband Rena first.

Mayang was very angry at Gladys who was very stupid what else Gladys had a child without Mayang's knowledge or even Herman who was still his Papah.

The news was Mayang with from Herman, when Mayang will visit Herman to the Mayang hospital to get the news.

"Eat it so people do not have to see in his prison for long" said Mayang laughs Herman.

"What's your problem, you're an ex-con" Herman said.

"But I'm only one year" said Mayang.

"Then, did you come just to do this to me" asked Herman.

"Yes I'm gonna do this to you I hate you so much what else you'd prefer him over me, Herman I really hate what else when you take all my property and from now on I've sued for your divorce, I'll be done all by myself" said Mayang.

"Darling listen to me, man, when I kidnapped Rena I heard that Rena told Faiz that the child that Rena raised was the son of Gladys I did not believe in it but at that time I saw Gladys' stomach grow up and he vomited throwing up, I heard him swearing that the baby was torturing him" Herman said.

"Right" asked Mayang in surprise.

Herman still very clearly remembered the words of Rena and him back in the warehouse.

Rena was in the brackets she just remembered she had taken Faiz and now there was no Faiz there.

"Where is Faiz" asked Rena.

"Faiz? who?" ask Herman.

"My baby is where she is" asked Rena.

"Oh that noisy baby, I threw him out" Herman said.

"What throw away, Dad, what you guys have gi la is my son and it should be your grandson" said Rena.

"But I don't have any grandchildren, it's not a child you'll be a grandchild from where it is" Herman said.

"It was the son of Gladys" explained Rena.

Herman was surprised he was immediately surprised to hear that.

"He's your grandson because the baby is a descendant of Gladys and Gladys is your son" Rena said.

"Hahahaha" Herman laughed out loud that he thought that Rena was joking and he could not believe that Gladys had no husband.

"Don't lie Rena don't lie to me, I really don't like that where maybe Gladys has a child and he just got out of school and you guys took him to boarding school" Herman said.

"Don't worry" said Herman.

"I don't worry if I don't believe just ask Gladys" said Rena trying to fight him deliberately do that so that he is not considered weak by the person.

"I told you not to lie because I don't like it when someone is lying" Herman said.

"It's up to me because I'm not too busy to lie" Rena said.

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Herman regretted not believing Rena's words but now he just remembered that Rena was right to say the truth.

"I even matched Gladys' hair and the baby's hair turned out to be the same result, That kid's our grandson our son Gladys I'm sorry I didn't believe in Rena I didn't care for Gladys I left Gladys alone without my monitoring, until that poor boy became like that, God, what sin did I make that made my Gladys become like that, I was angry at the man who had done this to Gladys I wanted so badly to have noah the man" growled Herman.

"What" asked Mayang surprised he did not know that Gladys would be like that.

"You know Luthfi and Rena were even willing to hide Gladys out of fear that someone else would know that Gladys was pregnant, my other son saved our son, even they also put Gladys into the pesantren, they want Gladys to repent of what Gladys has done" said Herman.

Mayang sat down weakly when he heard all that,.

"I'm ashamed Mayang, we are old even busy thinking about the treasure while our children are getting a disaster, you and I are busy fighting over the treasure, I'm ashamed Mayang is very very embarrassed" said Herman.

Mayang looked at Herman who was now sad.

"Faiz my grandson" asked Mayang.

"Yes" said Herman.

Mayang immediately left from there leaving Herman who is now in the police station, Mayang headed straight towards Rena and Luthfi's house.

Rena already had Yadna, and Faiz had a year.

Mayang immediately came there he would immediately take Faiz when he saw Faiz who was in the yard of his son's house.

Mayang held Faiz but unfortunately Faiz cried it made Luthfi immediately come there.

Because Faiz is used to playing outside especially now Faiz has just been able to walk.

"Well, let Faiz go" said Luthfi.

"He's my grandson" Mayang said.

"Yes I know and it's a pity that you just found out, I got custody to take care of Faiz so please don't ever make me report Mamah to the police station for kidnapping" luthfi.

"But I want my grandson" Mayang said.

"You can come here anytime, I won't ban it but never take Faiz" Luthfi said.

Mayang released Faiz from his embrace, the little baby immediately ran towards Luthfi who was currently scared when he saw Mayang.

"I'm sorry" Mayang said.

Flash back off

Mayang smiled when he remembered that, he could never forgive himself, since Mayang often came to the Luthfi house and took care of Faiz and Yadna.

It is true that the word "After sorrow there will be life", and it is evident to Rena and Luthfi that they feel it.

Even in the Qur'an it is explained..

It is in the letter of Al Imran verse 154

Which means:" . "Then after you have been struck by sorrow, He has lowered your security (in the form of) drowsiness which includes a group of you, while a group of others have been worried by themselves; they think the unrighteousness of Allah as they suppose. They said, "Is there anything we can do about this?" Say (Muhammad), "Verily, all these things are in the hand of Allah." They hide in their hearts what they do not tell you. They said, "If there were anything we could do about this, we would not be killed (defeated) here." Say (Muhammad), "Even though you are in your house, those who have been appointed shall be slain (also) to the place where they are slain." Allah (does so) to test what is in your chest and to cleanse what is in your heart. And Allah is Knowing of the heart."

There is also in the Quran the letter of Alam Nasyrah verse 4

which means“Verily with the tribulation there is ease.”

 For example, the misfortune that befalls someone. He is called a disaster but at the same time as the evildoer of his sins. Sometimes the disaster is thought to bring sadness and turmoil alone. At the same time, Allah is pleased to give much good and much reward.

Sometimes we will only complain when we get a disaster when we have to be grateful, it could be a sinner for it but it could also be a reprimand for sins that we have done before.

It is impossible if there is no way in every disaster we experience, even in the Quran the letter of Nasyrah is proven if there are two verses that are repeated.

Each difficulty is accompanied by two conveniences at once

It is understood from the presence of repeated editors about “yusran” which means the number of more than one. Some salaf said, by Allah it is impossible for a narrowness to overcome two spaciousnesses at once.

So how do we want to be happy??

The answer is only one: worship..

Allah says “... Do it earnestly (deals) others.” [Quran Surat: Alam Nasyrah verse 7]

That is welcome obedience and worship next. Worship is the main door in achieving true happiness. Every thing that leads you to worship also leads to happiness.

Ibn Taymiyyah said, “Whoever desires true happiness then multiply worship.”

It is also important to appreciate your free time.

God says:

“Then when you're done (of something business).” [Quran Surat: Alam Nasyrah verse 6]

This verse implies, it is not appropriate for a Muslim to be lulled with the void of time. The Prophet also said: “There are two blessings that most humans are satisfied with, namely health and empty time”.

It is important to use the time..

This writing is not just to be read hopefully the author or reader can also perform the worship that is right.

Because our time is not long and what we will wait for other than death.

Life is not to wait for happiness not to wait for wealth but the world to collect our supplies in the hereafter.

Hopefully we can practice this science, hopefully we can obey again on the right path.

More trials will come later, so we must prepare ourselves so that we can face the rigors of this world.

Pray and ask only Allah, never hope in humans because the truth of his hope in humans it will only cause injury.

So expect from it to be with Allah.

The author does not intend to lecture or patronize because this is how, as much science as we have if not shared it will be useless.

Remember to practice and share..

The author is also not a pious person not a saint but only a sinner who wants to repent in the midst of the onslaught of sinners who always invite to obedience.