I Hate You With All My Heart

The Past of Reza and Cempaka

For some people, past memories are something that they want to erase and not remember anymore, as well as according to Reza.

And for some others, past memories are something precious that they hope to keep in their hearts, and are always imprinted, sad or happy is part of life according to Cempaka.

"is this really Eca's sister?" ask again.

And sure enough, even though one of his memories with Cempaka was not something that he had forgotten, Cempaka unintentionally forgot along with other memories.

"Cempy?" Reza called back.

Unknowingly, the girl immediately hugged Reza.

"Sir Eca, why did you say? Kak Dini is crying because she lives in Kak Eca.m," said Cem who does not know the problem or the true romance story between Dini and Reza.

Hearing Dini's name, Reza felt angry and upset. And let go of Cempaka's embrace from his body.

Then he held onto the girl's shoulder tightly.

"Back, Cempy. Never bring an Early name or discuss anything about Dini. And you must forget that I have ever had contact with Him or even with your family. You're like blood-sucking leeches who can't escape my life." His eyes stared intently at the girl who knew nothing and was furious.

Like being struck by lightning, he could only dumbfounded and his mind was empty. The man who used to date his cousin was a cute and nice guy.

Every time he came to play at his aunt's house, he would have time to play with Cempy, as Reza called the girl.

At 6 years old, it was far enough for her to look at Reza like her sister. He was always amused by Reza's jokes back then.

You could say, Reza is one of the good memories of his past. And everything changed after Reza left, which she knew, Reza appeared to Dini and Dini attempted suicide.

For that reason, her aunt left her in the orphanage, her reason for treating Dini. In the meantime, he kept trying on his own.

For a girl who feels abandoned, the entertainment of a Reza, a man who does not know his past is a joy. Joking with him, without pity for his past.

Blood-sucking leech, that's what he said for his family. Wh why? how come?

In room.

Reza saw the position of the bracelet change. He kept the bracelet not because he still loved the girl named Dini, but a reminder that he should no longer deal with a girl like her, at least that's what he said for himself.

Dini is Reza's first love. He was very happy and liked the good, simple nature of Early. She was so in love with Dini, that she felt good to be around the Dini family. His mother and his cousin. Dini's father had long gone out of nowhere.

Simple life, natural and makeshift makeup, that makes him fall in love with Dini. They dated for almost 2 years.

For some reason, the last year began to change.

Reza saw, a luxurious school bag that should be out of Early reach he could buy. He trusted Dini a lot but eventually He asked that and Early's answer was usually "don't meddle anyway I didn't ask you to," or "that's Mom's mistress."

During the courtship, Reza never asked Dini to do anything indecent. Because he was taught to keep the honor of a woman.

For him, Dini became the foundation of feelings and happiness was enough at that time. Friends joking and chatting. The difference is that they will spend more time on the status of lovers.

Early changes are increasingly visible, they rarely meet or just talk.

At that time Reza also began to rarely meet with the family Dini.

One day, due to suspicion Reza trailing Dini who wants to go home first because not feeling well, the reason.

But, it turns out that she changed into more sexy and expensive clothes. Afterwards, some of his wealthy friends picked him up by car. Because their school is an elite school and Dini got a scholarship.

He followed Dini up to the nightclub. He waited for Dini to come out, at about 2 am, finally he came out drunk and in the male bin, instead of going home to the hotel.

Reza's blood had already begun to boil, "what did the girl do?" her mind.

When he got out of the hotel, Reza saw Dini back in uniform again.

Reza really hopes that everything he sees is not Dini, not the girl he loves.

Reza was very tired and stressed, so after school she decided to ask Dini.

Then Dini just became angry.

"oohh..so you follow me, you don't believe me?" said angry.

"How am I supposed to trust you again, after what I saw last night this morning?" sahut Reza

"So what are you doing? are you selling yourself to be worthy? did I ever ask you to look fancy? why do you care so much about people's assumptions? I like you for who you are. The more you try with your luxury goods, the more you stay away from me." It was clear that Reza was getting angry.

"Aaahhh, so do you think I'm getting unworthy of you? well you're right, but which woman would want and like to see her flaws in the same man she likes?" ask Dini.

"Din, I don't need you to wear fancy stuff, I don't need you to look fancy. I've been quite happy with our feelings," while reaching for Early's hand.

"Lies, you lie, you don't love me.

You know what men say out there when I say my boyfriend never kisses me? they say you don't love me.

Because if men fall in love they must be turbulent and want to touch their lover. But you, you never even held my hand for more than 5 seconds. We're just talking like regular friends." Dini got angry and she brushed Reza's hand away.

"Do you know how hard I try not to think dirty time next to you? when I touch your hand longer, I'm afraid to do something that's not the same as you. Do you know how many times I have dreamed of you? And tomorrow I'm afraid to meet you. Afraid of what I think. Once I touch your hand, I'll imagine more. And I wouldn't want to admit to something that doesn't value you as a woman" explains Reza.

Feeling tired, Reza then leaves the girl.

"If you've never felt loved by me, then there's no point in us continuing this relationship" Reza said as he walked away from the girl.

Angry, disappointed, then Reza looking for a man who was with Early that night. Sure enough, the man was still their schoolmate. That night, Reza was furious, what filthy thoughts he had put into Early's mind. Even in knowing Dini has also been using illegal drugs.

Angry, upset, helpless after knowing the girl he loved changed like that, Then he beat the man to death.

Because of that he was almost in prison, but because it happened that the victim's family did not want to make charges, finally Reza did 6 months of social service and fines.

Reza cut all ties with Dini. At first he did not want to leave Dini. But he himself was in a state of instability and depression so he decided to split up.

Shortly after, Early Mother called Reza and begged him to help Dini who is now in the hospital for attempting suicide after being decided by Reza.

Even until now Reza still pays the cost of treatment Dini mentally treated. Because her mother would always reverse the words as if this was all Reza's fault.

*Before you are taken to the hospital*

"Sister, eat first" Cem thrust the plate at his cousin.

"No, bring Reza here. How could he just leave me?" he slammed the plate from Cem's hand.

A few days later, Cem found his brother taking 1 bottle of sleeping pills. He also shouted to call his aunt, after which his brother was taken to the Hospital.

A few weeks later, they were in front of the orphanage.

"Sorry auntie well, auntie has to take care of your sister, so aunt can't take care of Cem too" said her aunt stroking the innocent boy's head.

"but aunt would have picked up Cem if brother Dini already healed, right?" ask the little girl.

"Sorry aunt, Cem" then the woman left the little girl.

#Back to the present

Next day.

"Sir Eca, can't you talk to Cempy for a second?" ask Cem, who met Reza in the living room.

Then Reza pulled the girl's hand violently. He held his wrist tightly. Because remembering she is part of her life Early.

But Cem just kept quiet, even though his wrist hurt. Reza asked the girl to speak in the back garden.

"Why are you in this house? what are you looking for in this house? What did you ask me to do? heh?" asked while holding Cem's shoulder tightly.

"Sir Eca, sakiit" then he loosened his grip "answered" Reza added.

"i, I just want to ask you what happened. After breaking up from Brother, sister Dini at the Hospital kept my aunt in the orphanage" replied Cem.

"For now, I will believe your word.

but you have to stop calling me Eca, it's a call that pisses me off, remember your family" Reza replied.

Although I do not understand why Reza can change like that, for now Cempaka just obeyed the words of his Young Master.

*connect.....