I Hate You With All My Heart

Reza's Feelings

Seeing his wife lying almost helpless, really scared Reza.

Since Cem was taken to the hospital, he never left Cem's side. Grasping the woman's hand.

He stopped praying and feeling guilty.

If only he had heard his father's message well. If only that day had been here

and his mother didn't call, so she could see a message from her father.

......

When he was abroad, his mother often called and discussed the girl named Cempaka.

Never end the story about Cempaka every time he calls.

Good girl, innocent, sincere, hard work and others, Mama explained.

How great the desire of his mother raised Cempaka to be his daughter.

But Reza certainly doesn't want to be interested in such a woman.

And he knew that Romi liked the girl. Because he had seen Romi's posts on many shows with the girl behind him.

Even though the girl didn't seem to notice it.

Graduating High School abroad, Reza continued his studies there.

Despite being asked by his mother to return, Reza still does not want to deal directly with the family.

Yes, even if he is abroad. But still in touch by phone with Dini's family.

After learning that Dini tried to kill herself because Reza left.

Reza felt guilty for the girl.

The affection he had spent for approximately 2 years for Dini, in an instant disappeared turned into guilt, resentment, hate, burdened.

Because of the mental problems experienced, Dini had to do treatment and all the costs Reza bore. Even to calm her down, Reza often has to play a show still in love with Dini.

In that difficult time, Reza met with Anita. 2 years to know each other and become friends and the next 2 years to establish a relationship as a couple.

At first, Anita did not mind the guilt that Reza bore against Dini. As a friend, he could only encourage her, he thought.

After being in a relationship, hearing her lover declare love to another woman despite only pretending to make Anita riled up.

Because in fact the woman had indeed been loved by Reza or was still loved.

Anita always hesitates about Reza's feelings.

Long lasting, Reza prefers her guilt over her love for Anita. Reza wants to give Anita time to think about their relationship.

Unexpectedly, Anita instead asked her family to go propose to Reza's house or rather propose to Romi.

Reza certainly felt angry, disappointed with Anita's decision.

Many times trying to convince Anita not to marry Romi, many times also Anita forced Reza to give up all relations with Dini.

Reza surrender. Was it a mistake to give up? I don't know, Reza doesn't know.

At the wedding Romi and Anita Reza only saw her from afar.

Actually, Reza was a little surprised to see Romi willing to accept Anita's proposal.

Finally decided to return home after completing his S2, in order to help his Papa in the company or wherever he is needed later.

In addition to missing his parents and home, there is also a thing that is awaited Reza, meeting Cempaka who is an idol in the eyes of his parents.

Despite having promised that he no longer wanted to like plain and nice girls, Reza could not erase the curiosity about Cempaka.

Clearly, their first meeting in the house had already comforted Reza. He tasted the delicious cuisine of Cem and his funny, rather careless and easily colonized behavior made Reza even more interested.

On the other hand also has a swift and deft character.

Once knowing he is Dini's sister, in addition to the scandal his Papa made Reza again remind himself that this girl will be the same as Dini. Warning sirens sounded in his head, but not in his heart.

Although after scolding her about Dini and the scandal made there guilt, for blaming Cempaka for Dini's actions that had absolutely nothing to do with Cem.

The reason for agreeing to the marriage, in addition to helping his father, may be unnoticed Reza has long been interested in the girl.

Convincing her to hate a girl like Cem only made her think more about it.

Three weeks of getting to know Cempaka who has grown up, independent, deft, loving and hardworking, makes sure of his decision.

That he wanted to make her his wife and would love her like a woman. Even though it had to take a slow step and forget its vow.

"heart wants what it wants" defended himself who broke his vow.

The incident of Panik Cempaka's attack, the more convinced he, that he wanted to keep Cempaka for the rest of his life.

He even cried, giving artificial breath when the ambulance had not yet arrived.

Even in the hospital, when Cem was unconscious for a long time he cried and begged the doctor to save his wife.

He waited for more than 10 hours. But his wife was not aware.

The doctor said he was okay. But he still asked the doctor to check it periodically.

Reza informs the house people about the situation of Cempaka. He could only apologize and feel sorry.

His mother tried to tell him to calm down, so that he could toughen up to accompany Cempaka.

Feeling tired, Reza rested her head on a mattress beside Cempaka's body, while her hand held his wife's hand.

He doesn't want to wake up later, Cem alone.

He woke up when he felt a caress in his head. He quickly got up and saw Cem's face.

"You're sober? I'll call the doctor."

Cem who saw the worried face of her husband, squeezed softly Reza's hand which had been holding on since.

"I'm fine, just a little dizzy," she said softly with a smile.

Cempaka raised both hands, as if to be hugged.

Reza hugged his wife who was still lying down. He doesn't care even if he's uncomfortable.

"mas, must be really scared. Sorry dad!"

Cempaka remembers, when the first people at home saw her panic attack,

Her mother-in-law cried unstoppably, feeling guilty for closing the window of her room the first night she stayed in the magnificent house.

"Why are you apologizing. I should have." Cem then patted gently on Reza's back, accidentally shedding Reza's tears.

"Are you sure it's okay?" speak slowly because his breathing began to be disturbed because of the position they embraced.

The conscious Cempaka then let go of his embrace. "Yes, I'm okay. Rest will be better."

Reza nodded, and Cem fell asleep again.

He told his family that Cempaka had come to his senses and continued his rest.

At 1pm. They were allowed to go home. Reza plans to stop the honeymoon activities that should be 1 week only to 3 days.

But Cempaka still wants to play. They decided to continue their honeymoon.

Walking towards the hotel room, Cempaka wrapped her arms around Reza's waist, and Reza supported her body by tightly hugging Cempaka's shoulders and arms.

For some reason after seeing Reza's worried face in the hospital, there was a warm feeling flowing inside Cempaka's chest.

Not nervousness or a racing heart. Or something that makes her face red. There was something more when he saw Reza's gaze at the hospital earlier.

Arriving in the room, Reza sat Cem on the sofa. He knelt before Cem so that their faces were level.

"Want me a drink?"

shakes Cempaka and hugs Reza.

"why?" ask reza

"hemp? nothing, just a hug."

Cempaka enjoyed the hug. It feels so different. Her feelings were warm, and felt full in her heart. It was as if something was making him feel relieved.

Somewhat long hugging, Cem let go of his embrace and wrapped his hand around Reza's shoulder.

Then she kissed her husband.

Reza kissed Cempaka on the forehead.

Without speaking, they looked into each other's eyes.

Reza began to kiss his wife's lips.

*connect.........