I Accept You What It Is

With all the decisions....

I was so happy to hear that, because this is what I expected of her, I wanted to make her pregnant, so that I could marry her, she said, but suddenly I was thinking of the crazy woman I married this morning, I was again faced with a very confusing position, what if Jeny found out that I was married, how could I possibly accept myself to marry her, but what if I don't marry Jeny, then what about a real child ?"

Oh my God how this is, I thought.

But I can't show my turmoil to her, Jeny is not an actor who deliberately snatched me from Nela, but Nela is also not a woman who grabbed it from people, let alone Nela is a crazy woman, and also it does not know that I have impregnated other women and indeed I love the woman I have hamili, but if you do know, maybe it is not too dizzy to think about it, he said, because Nela could not think sane, well her name is also a crazy woman, I was right in a very confusing position, hopefully everything was completed in accordance with what I expected.

Honestly, at that time I was so very happy, but I did not know what to do, while the woman I loved so much, so expect my responsibility because I had impregnated her, but that's what I expected of him, the boy who was really the boy I really hoped for, because that's the only way that I can unite with him, but I was so stupid why I wanted to accept an offer from Nela's father, while I knew that the woman I married was a mad woman, aka a mad woman.

Oh my God how this is, but in that instant I convinced myself, that I would marry Jeny at any rate immediately, but I was also happy, the way Jeny welcomed me, she said, it makes me feel like I am so missed by him.

I don't know what he was thinking at the time, but I was happy, because just that time, he was happy with my arrival, but usually he hated me so much and was always rude to me every time I visited him, even if I had been nice to him, I wouldn't have made him feel hurt, because I love him so much.

I always felt like I wanted to be with him, even though I knew I didn't want to be, I was a depraved man, because I always forced him to serve me, like a married couple, sometimes I thought, sometimes, if I was one of the most cruel men who hurt my cousin's sister, but how else, love does not see what and who, if love is attached, love is attached, the goats also taste brown.

I promised to marry her immediately, and I would tell my mama, if I was going to marry Jeny and have impregnated Jeny, I don't care whether you like it or not, for sure he will be furious, because I have impregnated his beloved nephew.

After that I decided to go home to tell my mother that I was going to marry Jeny, besides I also miss my mother a lot, even though my mother knows that I am not a good child, because I always denied her wishes, but my mother did not know that I loved her very much.

On the way home, I kept thinking about how if Jeny wouldn't accept me, if she knew I was married, my mind was a mess at the time, but at once I realized in front of me there was a car that was going so fast that I could not control the steering of my car, and a collision happened, next I don't know what's going on with me. It turned out that I was koma for a few months, and Alhamdulillah Allah still loves me, until in the end I married Jeny, a woman I love very much, I am happy to be married to Jeny, but I also will not forget the figure of Nela, the woman I married first, especially after her father died all her father's possessions were passed on to me, including my responsibility to look after and care for Nela as her father intended.

I always pay attention to Jeny and Nela, although sometimes I have more time with Jeny and my children, because Nela I have hired someone who takes care of her very well, but still every two weeks I visited him, and Alhamdulillah Nela's situation slightly improved, he never again raged like a madman, but yes more calm, more calm, because I always give him routine treatment.

But honestly, even though it has started to improve, I have never paid him like a married couple, because I did not love him at all, it's just that I was given a will to look after and care for him, but there was once he wanted me to embrace him, and with my sense of kasian, I hugged him, so he immortalized him in a piece of photo, and that's the photo he sent, to me and seen by Jeny, that's where Jeny first suspected me of my gestures, if only Nela hadn't sent the photo, Jeny might not have known at all, because I kept this secret very closely.

Honestly, I was very upset with Nela at that time, but for what reason I was angry with Nela, her name was also crazy, instead of solving problems, even adding problems, even adding problems, it could be later the disease will recur as usual.

But I promise in me, if I'm going to tell Jeny the truth, I don't care what happens if Jeny finds out about this, I'd be willing if if Jeny wants to punish me with any punishment, as long as not to ask for separation from me, because I can't if I have to be away from him and the children, he said, because they are the most important part of my life.

Flash ON's.

I was shocked to hear Jeny say to me, when she found out that I had other women besides her, when it could be said that Nela was only the status of a wife on paper, because indeed I married her at all because my goal was only to make Jeny happy, only Jeny the woman I love so much, it's up to people to judge what about me, which I must have done all that stupidity, he said, for the sake of making Jeny happy is just Jeny and my son.

Although what Jeny said to me was so painful, that I could not say anything else, to me it was natural, because this was originally from my dishonesty to her, he deserves to say that, and he deserves to punish me.

"Darling, you want to know who Nela is ?"

Ask my wife Jeny.

"I don't care who the woman is named Nela, I know or don't know, it's the same?'' It makes no difference, anyways what you care about me, does not change anything.'' Jeny replied flatly to her husband.

"Darling, come on. Don't make me feel more guilty, I don't want to see you like this". Am I too bad before your eyes ?'' I care so much about you, even so much, I love you so much, please understand."

Typhoon tried to persuade his wife, in various ways.

"Lord, I want us to end this marriage immediately, I don't want to share your love with another woman." Jeny replied, and it made Typhoon feel worried.

"Don't say it baby, I can't be away from you and the kids, I love you so much.

Typhoon looked at his wife, with a hopeful look.

"If you love me and your children, you cannot turn away from us. You can betray me and the children, there's nothing better right now than a separation between us. Jeny replied in a flat tone, as if there was no sense of pity at all, although it was clear that tears were flowing down her cheeks.

"No, I won't be parting from you !" Okay I'll take you to see Nela, so you know who Nela is the woman you consider the recipient of some of my love.

"Well what are you gonna do after I meet Nela ?" Ask Jeny on the Typhoon.

"I just want you to know who Nela really is !" After that I leave all my decisions to you, I will accept all those decisions ".  Typhoon answered his wife, although he had to accept the harsh reality even from Jeny, because there is nothing he can do at this time, everything is indeed a mistake of his own, all of it is a mistake of his own, if only he had been honest then, everything would not have been like this.

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I'm sorry that this slow, because of my busy life in the real world, makes me late to connect a story that should not have been broken all this time, but I'm very grateful, I'm, because you are still faithful to stop by and encourage me, even though only a few of them, may the good you give, will be reciprocated with kindness multiplied again.

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