HOLY LOVE ALESHA

Chapter Twelve

You make my tears too often

You never knew the depth of my love

Don't want me much don't you repeat

Hurt me as you like

I am not a man who does not think

You did that to me repeatedly

If love is honest with me

Leave me here without your smile

If love her I try to understand

Too often you break my heart

You came to her I never knew

You leave me when I need you

Love is not like this as long as I know

But I am weak because of my love for you

If love is honest with me

Leave me here without your smile

If love her I try to understand

Maybe you're not the true love of my life…

(THE LYRICS OF THE SONG IF LOVE HIM)

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Azril entered his room and did not see Alesha. He's looking for Alesha's whereabouts. Azril looked at Alesha's tightly shut room door, she knocked on it.

"Lesha, open the door. You have to eat"

Alesha in the temple room did not hear. He was tired of fighting.

"Lesha, I know you heard. Open the door, or I'll break it"

Lesha still did not answer, she was still sitting at the bedside.

"I count to three, if you don't open it, I'll definitely break it"

"One. two.. "Azril Speak. When he was about to break down with his body, Alesha opened the door making Azril's balance disappear and he fell down.

Alesha wanted to help Azril stand up.He stretched out his hand. Azril deliberately pulled Lesha's hand so hard that she fell on Azril's body.

"Oh my sister" said Lesha, because Azril hugged her body.

Azril pura did not hear, he further tightened his embrace.

"Sister Azril, I said freelin... "

"Let Brother Azril hold you for a moment" Azril said and placed his head on the recess of Alesha's neck.

"I really miss the smell of your body this Lesha. I used to hug you and breathe this fragrance of your body. "

Azril kissed Alesha's neck. Realizing that Alesha pushed Azril's body and let go of her embrace. Alesha came out of her room leaving Azril.

"What I do. Why I want him. I want to keep hugging and touching her scent body"

Alesha sat in the living room while watching. Azril who came out of the room immediately sat beside Alesha.

"I'm sorry, Azril... "

"I'm sorry for what." Alesha replied without looking at Azril.

"Because sister often makes you cry "

"No, that's a risk I'm willing to take, because I'm accepting this marriage"

"Relax brother, I will end soon.And brother Azril can marry sister's boyfriend immediately. I just asked for a little patience Azril" said Alesha cutting off Azril

"Listen to Lesha, Azril did not ask you to end this marriage immediately. "

"So she wants Azril... "

The phone in Azril's pants pocket rang. He did not answer Alesha's question, he immediately picked up his phone.

"Dear, I'll be there soon. You wait yeah. You want me to buy you something for lunch. Don't forget to take the medicine"

Azril turned off his cell phone. And immediately stood up leaving Alesha without saying anything.

Azril came out in neat and selfless clothes leaving Alesha.

Alesha looked at Azril's departure in disappointment, she held her chest tightened by holding back her cries. As she could not hold it anymore, Alesha finally screamed.

"You're a bad brother. Why do you always make my heart hurt and why can't I take this love away. God help me forget my love for her" cried Alesha as she smacked her chest.

Alesha cried shed all her regrets. He was tired and fell asleep on the couch.

Alesha wakes up and sees a clock on the wall that shows eight o'clock at night. He walked into the kitchen and drank a glass of water. His stomach hurt because it was not filled. But his appetite is not there. And Alesha was also lazy to order food.

Alesha entered the room and took her ulcer medicine. He tried to lay his body back down.

"You really have changed brother. You would never want to leave me alone if I were sick like this. You will definitely hug my body and accompany me to sleep. But it's all I may never feel again, there's another woman who's now getting your full attention. I may have been too hopeful, seeing your attitude change this morning. I forgot, surely it's all you do just because there's a mother's father.Alright, from today, this second, I'll never expect you to come back the way you used to. I don't want to get hurt any deeper, I'm gonna try to bury this love. I will try to escape your love... "

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In the morning with a pale face Alesha still wanted to go to work. He pura did not see Azril who was sitting at the dining table.

"Lesha. do you want to go to work"

"Yes.. "

"You still look pale, you shouldn't have permission first"

"I'm fine, I'm still strong"

"Breakfast first, I made toast with your favorite peanut butter"

"Thank you, "said Alesha and wanted to leave the apartment. But his wrist was on Azril's hold

"Why are you angry with Azril's brother"

"No. "Alesha said briefly. Azril walked over to Lesha

"Body you feel hot, now also Brother Azril asked you to go back to the room, you still have to rest "said Azril pulled Alesha's hand towards the room.

Alesha jerked her hand, until it slipped out of Azril's hand.

"Don't pretend to pay attention to Haykal Azril Ansa. I won't be affected anymore"

"What do you mean, Lesha "

"I can take care of myself.I want to be sick, even die, don't you care anymore. You better watch your woman."

"Gosh Lesha I remember now, you were angry because I stayed yesterday.I apologize for having to leave you. I think you're healthy enough to wake up. Tiara is sick, so I have to accompany her. Tiara is alone here. Her mother's father is far away"

"Do you think I'm not alone in this city, do I still have a mother's father or husband with me"

Alesha left Azril alone. He hurried away leaving Azril, his tears had already begun to drip.

"Lesha. listen first" said Azril pulling Alesha's hand so that his body turned to face Azril.

"I'm sorry Lesha. I thought you were cured, 'If I knew you were still sick, there was no way I could have left you. Did you not eat all night"

"Don't pretend to pay attention to me brother. Because I could be misinterpreting it. I'm expecting another sister. Don't shake my mind that immediately wants to end all this. Act like yesterday before your father came. I will try to forget my love for my sister. Don't make me hurt any more with fake attention, Azril. I'll tell your father to end this fake marriage soon, we'll meet in court. Brother don't be afraid, I won't make things difficult. I beg for mercy from brother, enough already brother hurt this heart.Do not until I do stupid things because of the wounds and heartache that continue to give brother"

Alesha wiped her tears and walked away leaving Azril who was fixated on hearing Alesha's words.

"Alesha you misunderstood. I know I was wrong to leave you yesterday. But I'm not pretending to be concerned.I'm really worried. Though I want to mend our relationship, I intend to start from the beginning of our marriage. I want us to run the household like a decent household. I didn't expect Alesha to have given you such a deep wound. I never meant to make you hurt like this "

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