Help Me My Husband

Disappointment That Exists

Alcenna did not lie down, she did not perform the prayer. He took ablution water, then performed the isha prayer.

He offered a prayer. "O Allah, O Lord, . If this is best for your servant. Do not let my love for Your servant make You jealous. Give me the best in your opinion, not the best in my opinion ... Aamiins.

Alcenna folded up the mukena and the prayer mat, then went up to the bed. Hugging the bolster pillow, his memories returned to the past. He was still wearing a white-gray uniform.

***

Today is the day Ardhan took his diploma. He invites Alcenna to meet and she invites him to meet at the house of Alcenna's adoptive sister.

"What's wrong?" ask the young girl when she met.

"There's something I want to talk to Alcen about, don't get me wrong. There are things I can't tell you right now and I want to be alone!" ardhan said firmly.

"meaning?" ask Alcenna confused. How the girl wants to misunderstand while not understanding what happened and the man wants.

"I want us to break up for now" he replied without feeling wrong. Without any burden. Without thinking of Alcenna's heart.

"There's another woman?" alcenna asked me there was no burden. Only, that sentence came to pass.

Alcenna asked only in confusion. For two years, nothing had put them at odds. Even if their love is only monkey love.

"If you don't hesitate, there are no other women for now either later! I graduated, I want to go back to my town." Their age is one year different.

Since Alcenna was just silent she continued her words, "Later if we were fooled we would meet again." He said while looking straight ahead. Alcenna doesn't know what she's thinking.

Like Ardhan who decided without burden, Alcenna took his decision for granted. Without crying like soap opera children ABG alay. Then they agreed to separate on Ardhan's graduation day.

After the new school year Alcenna continued school. He never heard from Ardhan. Alcenna is busy studying with singles. Someone came but he gave me no hope.

Alcenna just wants to focus on school, not wanting to disappoint her parents, if not graduated.

A year passed without much hindrance to the cheerful girl. When the day of her graduation came, as she was about to go home with a good friend, Marya was her name. Alcenna saw a figure that she had almost forgotten this year. Lean next to a car in the parking lot of his school.

"Isn't that your ex?" whispered Marya.

"Earbst ...." Alcenna simply replied with a thud.

"Is there anything he suddenly shows up, would you like to invite your young married friend time? That's a tuh... by dowry a car." Marya teases her best friend.

"Whisper ahhh," replied Alcenna feigning sewot. She knows Marya does like nosy, too.

The distance between the two friends was getting closer to where Ardhan was standing. Suddenly Marya fell asleep after they got near her. "You want to pick up the bride?" he said he was carrying Ardhan. Alcenna saw Ardhan nodding casually.

"Kan .. what I said, you want to be a bride in a moment," Marya said with a wink at Alcenna. Marya's bottom line is always nosy and outspoken. But Alcenna was grateful to be able to melt the atmosphere.

He extended a hand to Marya. "How are you?" tanyakanya.

"My news is good, the news beside me seems to be bad" he said, shaking Ardhan's hand.

"The basis of the riotous prick," said Alcenna as she pulled her best friend's hair a little hard. Marya was suffocating as if in pain. Blinking his eyes back. A sweet smile appeared on Marya's lips.

"How are you doing, Alcen?" he told Alcenna inside.

"Well ..." replied Alcenna normally.

Feeling that it will eventually become a mosquito repellent, Marya said, "I am first. One message, don't forget to invite me to dinner at your wedding!" Then he fled quickly without waiting for one of them to make a sound.

"Basic ...." Alcenna.

"For a long time no one's mad when I pick you up?" Alcenna saw Ardhan smiling confidently.

"No." I'm Alcenna frankly.

In his heart Alcenna thought to herself, "Whether she has been looking for info or indeed is so confident. So sure I'm still alone."

Ardhan pulled Alcenna's hand and opened the front door, then gently pushed Alcenna's body and gave the code to enter. Alcenna said so.

After he drove his car. "What do you want to eat?" he asked Alcenna who was silent. Alcenna ran out of words to start the conversation.

"Whatever," Alcenna replied while still turning her face to Ardhan.

"Yes." Yeah."

"Yes already then. The talk is not so bad," he said half the protest.

"For thrush," replied Alcenna.

Alcenna was still in disbelief, like a dream in broad daylight. It was only yesterday that he was told to forget, but he was standing bravely and now sits beside Alcenna.

He turned his car around and parked it at one of the cafes in the city of Alcenna.

In the cafe he ordered a beef steak and a chocolate special milkshake and he ordered 2 servings. Alcenna is not much picky food especially food that belongs to the expensive category. They waited for orders to arrive while chatting.

"Now you're just getting pretty." He opened the conversation by praising Alcenna.

"Yes donk, heartbreak can't make us late and become like zombies!" alcenna said with a spicy tone.

"Your lips are still as hot as they used to be?" he said as he ruffled Alcenna's bangs. His old habits that did not disappear.

"Feel feelings my lips sweet, if spicy must have been drinking your water when deciding me at that time." Alcenna recalled, it didn't feel like there was much protest at the time.

"Yes, a little surprised me at that time, why at that time you did not argue much and like taking it for granted. Why not a lot of protests hmmm??" He squeezed Alcenna's small, slightly pointed nose.

"Lazy storm. Some people also no longer want why should also defend it," said Alcenna still casually.

"Would you not, if we start this relationship all over again, more seriously?" His attitude remained without much seduction.

Alcenna looked into Ardhan's eyeball. Alcenna realized she still likes him just like she used to. Nothing has changed.

Alcenna did not want to keep the image that she wanted to sell expensively, pretending to reject it. Don't want to punish him. In fact this year no one could replace him in Alcenna's heart.

Alcenna flinched when a hand pulled her bangs. Ahhh it turns out that he is daydreaming, which is more embarrassing he daydreams blatantly staring at Ardhan.

"You?" reset Ardhan.

"You sure of your heart?" ask Alcenna to make sure more.

"Now we're done and I've started working on a freighter. As ABK anyway, I'm an oiler."

"Oilers?" ask Alcenna not understand.

"The boiler is an oilman, so it's my job to record the fuel and lubricant intake and output or to report if there are any abnormalities on the ship. Now let's not talk about the ship, let's talk about our relationship."

"Mar__" greeting depends because the order came and the waiter asks permission to put the dish.

"Excuse me, brother ... Bang," said the waiter while placing an order.

"Yes, thank you" said Alcenna. Pramusaji nodded and left them.

Then after that Alcenna continued, "Let's try, if the heart there sure doesn't find another." Alcenna responded normally.

Ardhan just smiled, maybe he understood Alcenna was still upset. How Alcenna was not upset, suddenly decided and then suddenly wanted to reconnect the strands of love that were broken, and foolishly Alcenna still liked it and accepted it. Yes the name is also the taste, who can refuse.

"Don't be that indifferent, let's eat first. Hopefully after fullness is gone." Alcenna and Ardhan began to eat the dishes. Alcenna ate while occasionally glancing at him. "Hmmm it turns out that the more mature he gets, the more dashing he gets," said Alcenna

Then everything goes like running water.

***

Now, the girl's tears flowed. While still tightly, Alcenna hugged the bolster even tighter, as she buried her face behind the pillow bolster. Even though he tried to accept it, the disappointment remained.

"Why did this happen, twice I accepted it twice I rejected it. What does all this mean. Oh my God .. My heart really hurts. I was like a stupid girl, "she muttered in her tears.

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Goodbye my first love ... both of me .. may be love to my tiger .. hope auto ngakak while crying too.