Gone off?

CHAPTER 50 (One Step)

The morning that seemed different to someone, he seemed to look happier than the day before.

Right, Rama looks happy after the meeting with Anjani this morning. Although it was a short walk and seemed fast, at least it was a bit of a relief for him who had seemed difficult to approach an Anjani.

"There's a happy thing, Doc!" The chirps of one of Rama's colleagues who saw him exuded a happy facial expression.

"Yes," answered Rama then with a smile looking at his colleague.

"Well, what is it! sharing dong?"

"For which it cannot be divided." Rama said again.

"Well, I'm curious." Knock his partner again.

Rama did not answer, he just smiled at his colleague by leaving a question mark for the colleague.

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One step, one step at a time to achieve what he expected, at a feeling that has not necessarily direction and without its owner.

Although until this moment he was still doubtful of his own feelings, but he who was shy ventured to find the answer.

Although the courage takes a long time, which is less than 15 years. However, he who is now faced with two things will feel, release or start with a new one. In his first love he has waited for more than 15 years, or in the woman he has been close to.

Therefore, he does not want to be swayed to his own feelings and can hurt the feelings of one of the two.

Every time he remembered what he had done so far, at least made him think and regret, because all this time he could not be firm on his own feelings.

I am guilty, of myself, and of someone who has paid attention to me. I asked if this was love? What I have done is wrong and useless! I. just want to be by the side of someone who has managed to knock on this long-empty heart.

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"Dad, why did you give Anjani a school graduation photo journal! and how did you know I kept his journal?" Rama asked various questions to his father that he met after returning from the hospital.

"You came here just to ask me about this?" Reply father.

"Yes, I was wondering if I meant to give it to Anjani."

"Dad doesn't mean anything, I happened to accidentally see a graduation journal in your drawer when I came to your room, and there were two of them, so yeah.. I love one to him." Obviously father.

"Then it was just that! then the question of the sentence at the end of the journal? did you write it?" Ask Rama again.

"Fate? aha! is there something wrong with that word?.." Ask dad back.

"It seems like the sentence was a little disturbing Anjani, he asked me earlier, so I came here and asked my father about the meaning of the sentence."

"Indeed the father wrote it, but I also had no other intention after writing it, only after seeing the expressions and sentences that your friend wrote in his bio somewhat attracted the attention of father, so well.. I just write to encourage him." Honest dad.

"Dad's not lying, is he?"

"Make what you lie to, you know people recently."

"But.well, why did you do this? give a journal and also write that sentence at the end of the journal? don't you know Anjani that well?..."

"Once you know, maybe I did it to help you."

Rama scrunched his forehead a sign of not understanding the meaning of his father.

"Isn't she the girl you like?" Say father again.

Rama instantly widened his eyes, after hearing the words of his father.

"She's a girl who doesn't express as much as you said before, and looks uninspired too, I see her as if she's not enjoying her life, as if life is asking, so cold and gloomy." Said the father expressing the figure of Anjani that he saw some time ago.

"You must have a little trouble approaching it, because that's why I helped you, well, even though I'm not sure it will work either."

"Why are you sure I like it? I never knew about Anjani! I never told you about this either?"

"High your eyes that say it all, and it's not because of that, until this moment you have a hard time opening your heart to a woman?"

Rama was fixated, his eyeballs were shaking and his expression was slightly frozen. He didn't know what to answer because his tongue was locked.

"Dad supports all your decisions, do what makes you happy." Said the father while patting his son's shoulder warmly to encourage.

Hearing this, made Rama moved and wanted to cry, but he held it all his strength so that his tears did not spill by directly sighing long.

Although he had only met Anjani once, Rama never thought his father would guess him correctly, as if he was aware of the feelings that had made him in doubt.

"I used to love it in school, but I don't know how I feel now." Rama Seru.

"You're in a dilemma about Diana? If you are, walkin will surely meet the answer."

"Don't you feel weird about me like this!" Rama looked at his father's face.

"Dad was a little surprised that you still harbored feelings for your first love, if Joh. ahem. that's no problem, it's out of our control anyway, I really hope this time you have to be more assertive about your own feelings."

Rama nodded in understanding and tried to digest the input from his father.

The father and son who were talking in one of the private rooms turned out to be very interesting from Sahila, who was, brother Rama who had been surprised to see his father and brother who chatted intensely in the workspace owned by his father.

"Father same sister again chat what the hell? how serious is it!" His murmur looked towards his father's study.

"Don't go to the coffee, let you help your mama prepare dinner." Sahut mama Farah responds to Sahila's babble.

"I was curious to know ma, abis from earlier was not out-going, almost 30 minutes you know."

"Let's just say, it's your brother's business with your father, mendingan you help mama just now."

Sahila who was still curious could only mengedumel annoyed, while occasionally glancing towards the room owned by her father.