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CHAPTER 48 (Happiness For Anjani)

You said I should be happy. Live freely and as I do. But you left before you saw everything. To give me new wounds, guilt and suffering for me.

Is happiness worth it to me? if so, how, I also want to laugh, smile with a carefree expression and joke with his joy.

I should be reborn! that way maybe I can feel the same way as them, who live freely with nothing to worry about.

Now, I don't know what I'm doing, all this time I just run in no direction, dodge as far as the view and dodge everything.

Looking at the children who were smiling cheerfully and cheerfully, I realized one thing, if I used to be supposed to do something like that, even if it was just a little.

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Until the afternoon they were in the orphanage, sharing happiness and joy in the children of the orphanage.

Seeing the children who remain cheerful and carefree like no burden, even though they have lost their parents and family, it is because they met the right people and were in the right place for them.

Every time he saw that cheerfulness, Anjani looked rather envious of them. He thinks they are more fortunate than him, because at least there are adults who love them.

"I am so grateful to Ms. Anjani who has come to visit and give us help, mother's support means so much to us." Say sincerely Ms. Kasih, as the caretaker of Pertiwi orphanage.

"Yes, I'm happy too." Reply Anjani.

"Thank you to Leah for coming back here again, giving hope and support to the children."

"Yes, mom. Sorry because I just came now, because I do not have the courage to come here, considering I have not succeeded before, but after I met with Ms. Anjani, I did not have the courage to come here, I can so proudly meet the mother again and the children of the parlour." Lea explained the reason he never came after leaving the orphanage, considering there was nothing he did after coming out of the orphanage for the first time.

"It's okay, what's important is that you stay healthy. That's all it makes me happy to see it." Reply Bu Kasih smiled kindly at Lea.

"Then I and Ms. Anjani say goodbye, I hope that the mother and the children stay healthy and we can meet again on another occasion" Pamit Lea said.

"Yes, you too, take care of your health. I am very grateful to you and also to Anjani's mother who has come to this simple orphanage." Said Bu Kasih feeling moved by the presence of Lea and Anjani.

Beside them, Anjani looked at them with a foreign expression. A sight very foreign to him. Because he never had such a heartwarming moment.

What a colorless life.

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Sometimes we have to look at new things, so we will know about new things that are full of colors and challenges. Staring at the beautiful rainbow in the free nature.

In the gloom of his heart, in the sadness and wounds in his heart, was there at least happiness for him.

Life is expressionless and cold in all things, very deadly in its satin, no life and very bland. In fact, every day gives an expression that shows as if not enjoying his life.

Throw away all the things that are colorful in his life by covering it in the gray of his heart. Will the day he can feel the word happy happen, maybe he should answer it himself.

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At exactly 22:00, both arrived at the apartment. After making a quite tiring but also happy journey, both Anjani and Lea returned with a feeling of a little satisfaction and relief, especially for Lea who was finally able to return to where she came from.

"Thank you, ma'am, you've been accompanying me to my orphanage first and have also given help to the orphanage." Lea said as soon as she arrived in front of her apartment.

"Yes, thank you for taking me there. Come in, it's night." Anjani Pinta.

"Okay, then I'll say goodbye." Pamit Lea entered her apartment which turned out to be right in front of Anjani's apartment.

Until Lea went inside, Anjani was still silently sculpting with expressions that could not be interpreted. It looks serious and full of question marks.

Turn around later and step slowly towards her apartment.