Gone off?

CHAPTER 43 (Different Worlds)

Don't Like me?

A sentence that is quite simple and short it turns out to be a sentence that is painful for someone.

Because of a simple sentence, making Rama sparkle clearly in his mind. He still can't forget his chat with Anjani while in the hospital.

Even though he had shared the problem with Johan, in fact he still thought as soon as he reached the apartment.

Nothing went as well as he hoped and again caused chaos in his mind.

"Why? why don't you come near?" He muttered to think of Anjani who insisted on refusing his presence, even just to be close and familiar.

Probably right, I can't forget you because I still like you. This is really a feeling of like! If so, what should I do! to you who don't want me to come any closer.

Rama seemed to be aware of his feelings that had made him confused. Although he still hesitated about it, but it seemed like it was the answer he had been looking for all this time, that he still could not forget his first love.

She smiled her thin smile with a look of self-pity. Sighing a bit heavy by recalling himself who had been feeling swayed udders do not know what he should do.

Is that really a taste? Or is it just a curiosity about him? What am I supposed to do? I really don't know..

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Love is not just how much you like and want it, but how much you understand it.

"What makes you survive? aren't you tired of being beat up?."

"You think I want this! I don't know what it's gonna be like, either, I just don't know what to do."

Hearing him, made Anjani put on a face of disbelief.

"What a stupid mother? the bastard will never realize, so for what to defend, do you have no principles and leave him, the fool does not deserve to be called a husband or father."

"Enough." Shouted Mom frustrated.

Anjani stared at her mother.

"I never liked you two, for me you are the worst selfish parents and think only of yourself. Today is my graduation day, I'll get out of here and never see you again." Anjani said with determination and left home.

Just a few steps he was about to leave, his hand held by the mother to make him stop his steps and turn towards the mother.

Seeing the scenery that had become his daily life, made Anjani pecak annoyed to look at his father, then threw his mother's hands rough and stepped out of the house again.

"Woi, the son of the unlucky bearer, where are you going. Give me the money." Hold the father to Anjani who wants to come out with a staggering body condition.

"Done, your hands are dirty." The reply looked at the disgust of the father.

"Suck, kids don't know themselves."

Plakk, a slap landed on Anjani's cheek so hard that it made her cheek red and slightly bleed from the corner of her lips. Holding his sore cheek from the slap, he stared intently at his father's face with a look of disdain.

His expression seemed to ignite his father's anger and a blow would land back on him, but was failed by the mother and made the mother who had to take the blow to replace him.

A chaotic and stressful day, added with a gripping atmosphere. The day that should have been a fresh start with the news of his graduation, became a dark day for him.

"Where are you, still good thing I didn't kill, you fucking wife, don't know how to profit."

Preangs..

The loud sound of things stopped the chaos.

And it became the day he was branded as a murderer at the age of 18. Anjani, looks chaotic every time he remembers the bad memories.

*Do I deserve to be happy? for me, happiness is only for those who have never experienced suffering like me.

Our world is clearly different, there is no happy word in the dictionary of my life. I survived only to make amends.

Guilt for myself and for the mother I hated.

Can I be happy! after I killed my parents, is it still appropriate for me, I think God knows that too*.

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Although determined, but no one will know in the future. Despite trying to avoid and trying to stay away even if it was the destiny of God, they would not be able to avoid it.

Feelings will not be able to lie, how much to avoid and avoid it, will never be able to escape if it is destiny for them.

Isn't that sure? because they are bound to a destiny. Whether it's bad or good destiny for them.