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CHAPTER 24 (Hope in the Midst of Uncertainty)
May I hope? hope for this feeling! I like it but I am confused to express my feelings to her.
Did I wrongly harbor feelings for her? does liking it a mistake?
Can't I hope that he can look at me and look at me, not as a close friend or acquaintance, but as the opposite sex.
Loving someone is not easy!...
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"Aren't you pa-pa?" Saying Diana to Rama who looks pensive after surgery, he also did not forget to give the drink he brought.
Rama awoke from his daydream and gazed towards the source of the sound. He saw Diana's presence with a drink in her hand and was thrusting the drink at him. With a lackluster expression, Rama accepted his drink and shifted his seat, letting Diana sit beside him.
"You must still be sad because you couldn't save the patient!, but it wasn't your fault, you tried your best, so don't blame yourself." His words tried to encourage Rama.
Rama smiled faintly hearing the consolation.
"When this is not the first time, but why does my heart always hurt every time I experience it." With a somewhat raucous voice as it restrained his sorrow, Rama was seen still unable to accept it.
"That's natural, because we're human too. We are not perfect, and there are many flaws."
"Right, it's because I'm still lacking a lot." Rama is still trying to blame himself.
Seeing this is not new for Diana, she knows for sure how the tenderness of Rama's heart. He also knew it would be like this if Rama failed to save a patient. Rama would always blame himself.
"You still blame yourself, you're a doctor not a god."
Rama was silent as if confirming Diana's words. He pondered for a moment what he could take from today's lesson.
Rama looked at Diana who was sitting beside him. He smiled sincerely staring at Diana, making Diana who was beside him somewhat embarrassed and awkward at the same time.
"Why?" Ask Rama who looks at him.
"Thank you, I always want to say this every time I see you." Rama said, looking straight at her.
"Why do you always cheer me up at a time like this, thank you.." He said again and looked back at Diana.
Diana smiled faintly, feeling moved, but on one hand she also felt sad to hear it.
"I'm not doing anything, I'm like this because I'm a doctor too. So I know how you feel." Diana replied in a low tone and tried to control her expression.
"I know, but I still feel grateful." Rama said again.
'Please do not smile like that, every time you see you smile makes me sad. - Inner Diana looks unable to see the warmth of Rama who is always directed at her.'
"You why? you sick?" Rama asked looking at Diana's expression that looked unkind.
"Diana." Call Rama again, and resuscitate Diana.
"Ah... What did you say?" Diana replied then who seemed not to hear the words of Rama.
Seeing Diana's expression suddenly turn unkind, Rama fell silent and tried to understand the change in atmosphere.
"I'm sorry.." Rama then said.
Hearing this made Diana who was beside him so confused looking at Rama who suddenly said an apology to him.
