First Wife Heart Wound

Bereft

Ilham was still staring at the room where his son was, his tears still continued to drip. Regrets came over and over, the flashbacks of his actions doubting the child again flashed through his mind.

Even a thousand words of apology that always spoken from his lips were unable to dampen his fear. Inspiration is afraid of losing the child that has been awaited, if time can be replayed Inspiration will never do that stupidity.

Now regret was useless, when his quarrel with the wife again crossed into his mind.

"Do what you want to do! But remember you'll regret it all, when this child I bear is your son and when you lose him too!" the amel speech that Ilham thought of as the last wind, just because the amel was angry. But now, when his eyes saw the child he had been waiting for so long was rolling and was struggling between life and death, his heart throbbed with pain.

Inspiration does not step even from outside the room where waiting for the child. His eyes still continued to stare into the room, until the voice of the most familiar person slightly averted his eyes.

"Assynnya!" hanum said along with Sakha who also said hello.

Bu Suryo stood up from his seat and rushed to hug Hanum, no doubt Bu Suryo also needed someone who was able to strengthen him.

Inspiration stared at Hanum mellowly, even the remaining tears were still able to see Hanum.

"What really happened Ma?" ask Hanum.

Bu Suryo shook his head slowly, he also did not know what was really happening. He only received a call saying that his son and daughter-in-law had an accident but for the details, Bu Suryo also did not know.

Hanum moved after the arms of his former mother-in-law were released, and then Hanum moved to kiss the former father-in-law's hand with reverence.

"What's strong?" hanum said.

Mr. Suryo nodded. "Yes, you too?" he answered while stroking the head of his former son-in-law. "You yourself how are you, what about your womb?"

"Alhamdulillah Hanum healthy Pa, content of Hanum as well."

Again Mr. Suryo nodded, then his gaze fell on the figure who came along with Hanum. "Who is Num?"

Hanum turned his head, "That's Bang Sakha Pa, just happened to be Hanum and Bang Sakha were discussing cooperation. When Hanum saw the news of the accident and finally Bang Sakha who drove Hanum here as Mother requested."

Sakha came forward to introduce herself. "I'm Sakha Abimana." said Sakha as she reached out with an introductory sign.

Mr. Suryo folded his forehead, trying to remember who the man who was now shaking hands with this. Even his name was no stranger to his hearing.

"Abimana Sakha!" repeat Mr. Suryo.

Sakha smiled affirmingly, "It seems like I've heard this name. But I forgot a little?" said Mr. Suryo.

Sakha smiled again, "I am the son of the late Hendra Abimana, the owner of Abimana Grub Pak" Sakha said.

"Ah yes I just remembered, thank you for bringing Hanum here."

"Together sir with pleasure."

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Hanum stepped up his legs, to approach the inspiration still faithful standing behind the glass room that separated him from the child he was waiting for.

"Mass?" hanum's gentle greeting distracts Inspiration.

"Hm!" he answered while staring back at the incubator room.

"How are you doing and how are you?"

"I'm good, I don't know about him! Now he's fighting there alone!" show Inspiration.

"May your child be healthy quickly, then what about the state of the amel?"

"I don't know, the doctor said that Amel had not been conscious after the accident and we were still waiting!"

"Hm, I hope it's true!" say Inspiration while shedding tears.

Hanum's heart felt a little pain when he saw Ilham in a state of slump. Undeniably lived together for five years with Inspiration, making Hanum know how bad his ex-husband now. In the past Ilham could cry when hanum was sick or injured. So when he saw Inspiration like this, Hanum knew very well that he was really hurt.

"Who are you coming with?" Inspiration asked but his eyes did not move in the slightest, from the space in front of him.

"So Hanum delivered Bang Sakha, Mas!"

Inspiration tightened his fist as Hanum mentioned the name of another man. But Ilham could not do anything either, because he realized he was no one else in Hanum's life.

"Oh."

"Mas already eaten?"

Inspiration shakes, let alone to eat. Drinking also feels like choking. "I'm not hungry after making sure my son's okay."

Hanum's heart ached a little when Ilham called the child my son, then what will his son be? although Hanum did not expect from Ilham but now she is also pregnant with her child. Hanum nodded, "Well Mas, then I'll go back to accompany mama there?" Hanum turned around before his tears trickled down his cheeks.

Sakha who saw Hanum was not okay immediately rushed to him, Sakha covered Hanum's path. The tears really fell without anyone knowing.

"You're gapapa?"

Hanum rubbed his tears and smiled, "I'm good Bang!"

"Yes let's sit you must be tired, don't stand too much!" sakha said as she pointed to the seat.

"Yes, Bang thank you."

Ilham had a glimpse of how his attention to his ex-wife. Upset of course! But again, Inspiration has no right to be angry or jealous. He now realized there was another heart that now seized his attention.

Hanum sat not far from the two inspired parents. They are both waiting for the doctor who is still in the examination room.

"What about Amel Ma?" ask Hanum.

Ms. Suryo stared at Hanum, "Amel will soon be transferred to the ICU room after that we go there huh Num!"

"Yes Ma, Hanum also wants to know how amel is now!"

Afterwards they waited in silence, not a single tone of voice. Each was engrossed in his own thoughts! Likewise with inspiration.

Her eyes never came out to look at the doctors, who were trying to save her son.

After waiting for two hours, the doctor inside the incubator came out. Everyone stood up, including Ilham who had stood up and was anxious to wait for the good news to be delivered by the doctor.

"How's Doc doing with my son?" the question slid from Ilham's lips, as he saw Dr. Ramli coming out of his son's nursery.

Dr. Ramli took a deep breath and breathed out tired. "We've tried our best sir!" he said pausing sentences. "But God has other wills, as I said, the hope for his life is very thin and I can only speak, may the Father of the family be sincere!"

As if struck by lightning Ilham heard the words of Dr. Ramli, "But how can Doc, did not the doctor say will try?" ask Inspiration angrily.

"We have been very trying sir, back again life and death is only in the hands of Allah SWT."

Ilham's legs were weak, he fell down and cried roaring. His hopes, his desires, are now lost. Inspiration regretted but his lips did not say anything just sobs that continuously sounded.

Hanum also sobbed, unable to see how fragile Ilham was now. Everyone was crying and the little baby that had just been born.

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