Angel In Poetry

Two Great Men

Rainbow Shop, January

Oh, how are we closing? but some cars are still parked

" Ka, why is the writing closed?"

Afkar turned off Pandu's car engine and turned his eyes to the main door which to reach him had to be climbed seven steps first

" Yes yes, try Bowo's phone baby"

Alya wiped the phone from her little bag

" About Al Assalamualaikum"

" Greetings waalaikum, Wo is it closed? he said tonight we'd like to gather at the sin"

" Enter Al, deliberately closed to the public, our special event"

" huh? who made this idea?"

" Go in, talk inside"

" Yes Wo, we're in"

Afkar looked at his girlfriend

" Why?"

" Said our special event, enter yuk ka"

Alya and Afkar climbed the stairs and opened the shop's glass door.

" Welcome to the bride"

Alya laughed looking at the friends who were already sitting waiting for her.

" What the hell, who shut down Bowo's shop"

" Arga Al, he said this tavern was rented exclusively tonight"

Alya patted Arga's shoulder

" Not changed lo Ga, hahhaa"

Afkar pulled out a chair and sat down next to Alya.

" What to drink?"

Alya chuckles

" In addition to the shop in the lid of Arga, the owner is also in Arga rental huh? finally you grant my request Ga, want to hire Bowo all the same shop"

Bowo pouted as he walked into the pantry room

" If you don't, I won't want it this way"

Arga laughed at the nagging Bowo.

A pack of red cigarettes was offered to Afkar

" Afkar Cigarettes"

Afkar smiled

" I still survive not smoking"

" Unless your wife does it"

Alya looked at Roni annoyed

" I'll be Sholehah's wife, won't I?"

He looked at the man beside him who nodded

" God willing"

A variety of coffee drinks, tea, juice and dinner menu are available at a large table with a capacity of 8 people.

" We ate first yes, we're hungry"

Enjoying dinner with quality jokes and more un-mouthed. Afkar smiled at their familiarity that had not changed, but from them this had succeeded in becoming an important person, but the joke was still the same when they were young.

" Ka Afkar, if Alya is brought to Banjarmasin not too long yes, sometimes you come here, we will definitely miss"

Sylvia asked with hope

Afkar nodded

" When Alya wants, I'll let her go home"

Alya looked at Afkar with a smile

" Thank you, ka"

" Both my dear"

Tiit, WhatsApp messages coming in

" Alya Assalamualaikum, is he busy?"

Ka Kevin's.

" Greetings waalaikum ka, this is gathering friends in Bowo shop, same ka Afkar too"

" I happen to call, I want to talk to Afkar"

Alya glanced at Afkar who had now finished his meal.

" Ka, Kevin's talking"

Afkar choked, by the way? is he already in Indonesia? or is it already in Yogya?.

While the other friend looked at me, what would Kevin talk about? everything is so tense like this. Afkar nodded

" Can"

Wuiiihh, cool answer Afkar.

Alya directly typed the message and sent it

" Yes, I can"

Tiit, video call

" Ashloraikum to Kevin"

" Waalaikum greetings Alya, rame exclaimed at gathering"

" Yes, by chance"

What coincidences? indeed planned.

Alya slightly turned the camera position towards her friends

" Hi Arga, how's the company?"

" Well Kevin, maybe sometimes I need to also learn from you who have gone International"

" Maybe, sometime we talk seriously, I'm ready for us to study together"

" Hey Ka Kevin?" Sylvia's lamb was greeted with a Kevin smile

" Sylvia, greetings to Mr Agus? healthy?"

" Healthy ka"

" What about beautiful Lee? the doll's delivery has arrived, right?"

" Lee was so happy, thank you uncle Kevin said, hehehe"

" Together, may you be the son of Sholehah"

" Thank you ka"

Roni waved

" Roni, how's the showroom?"

" Yes, just achieve every month the target"

" Yes nyampe it if he promoted to girls with his cool pretentious style"

Sylvia laughed at Roni who was becoming a playboy

" That's my luck Syl"

" If there is an opportunity to open in Hong Kong Ron, we cooperate"

" Hmm, maybe it's the idea"

" If there's a serious plan, just call me, ready to help"

" Thank you Kevin"

" Hey, I'm not in court?"

Bowo's bongsor body is crammed between Roni and Arga

" Well, I'm sorry I didn't get on camera anyway, I didn't say hello"

" Body kebedean, can not enter lo Wo"

Arga shifted his position because Bowo's body right made him feel on the city bus because it was squeezed.

" How are you? what new menu haven't I tried yet?"

" There are two menus, if you come back here, stop by, anyway the latest variant is limited edition, not yet in Hong Kong, hahaha"

" Yes, I will have plans to go home, but do not know whether to stop by Yogya or not"

And this time the camera is pointing at Afkar.

Silent, the two looked at each other. This is the first time they can see each other's faces, although in fact it is the second, they are the only ones who are not aware of when in a small minimarket of chocolate seizure.

Afkar looks a little awkward, and so does Kevin, even if they try as casually as possible. Alya herself felt a little uneasy. One man who was full in my day and one man who was always full of my heart.

" Afkar Assalamualaikum"

" Greetings to Kevin"

" How are you?"

" Okay, Alhamdulillah"

" Eemm, can we talk together, maybe not on a video call"

Afkar looked at Alya for approval, the camera moved to Alya's face

" Will Kevin call?"

" Yes, if Afkar doesn't mind"

Alya turned his head and accompanied Afkar's nod

" Yes, ka Afkar is ready"

" Okay, hang up Alya's phone first"

" Yes ka"

Clik.

Alya and Afkar looked at her, Alya invited Afkar to sit further away from his friends

" We're here, brother"

Afkar nodded

Various feelings were stirring his head, what did Kevin want to talk about? is he gonna ask me to leave Alya?

Tiit, phone call

" Yes ka"

" Can I borrow Afkar for a minute?"

" Hm"

" Alya, believe me I won't make trouble or mess up your relationship, like I promised you yesterday I wanted to give her a message to take care of you"

" Alya trusts you, just a minute"

Alya gave her phone to the hand of Afkar who was waiting restlessly.

Alya stood up and slowly walked towards her waiting table of friends no less agitated

" Al, why is he calling Afkar?"

" Al, Kevin doesn't want your relationship to fall apart, right?"

Alya shook her head

" Ka Kevin is a very good person, ka Afkar must know that there are people who are so caring for his lover".

All fell silent and looked at Afkar who was sitting receiving a phone call from his ex-lover.

" She, uh,,"

" Yes"

" Have you proposed to Alya?"

" Yes, it was noon"

" Happy Afkar, you are the one"

Silent

" I want to tell you a little?"

" Yes, I heard it".

I heard a long breath

" Four years ago I was introduced to a beautiful, funny, adorable and silly girl"

That's my boyfriend Kevin.

" We were betrothed afterwards, I don't think it'll be that serious. For days I strengthened my heart to meet him because of the insistence of my parents. One afternoon I met him at his hostel. We talked in the little shop in front of the hostel, he ordered avocado juice, he did like it like he liked chocolate juice and coffee, you know?"

" Yes"

" That day I asked him and reminded him that we were in a match, I asked for his opinion. He just said he didn't understand why our parents had this idea. I asked if she had a boyfriend? he said no, I asked again, why not? do you have or do not exist? or is there something you're waiting for? he didn't answer just smile"

Afkar glanced at Alya who was sitting with his friends

" Yes, right. At that time I did not give it certainty"

" I then gave him a statement, if I was going to be serious about this relationship, I asked him to learn to love me too, he again did not answer, he said, I thought at that time he did not concentrate because he just received a call from his best friend Arga for dinner with other friends, it turns out I was wrong, he did not answer because he did not want to try with me at that time"

" He's still waiting for me"

Afkar, don't be so sniffy.

" Three days after I came back to see him, I decided to go to Bandung for three days, my parents opened a new branch there, and then the company will turn to me after I finish post-graduate. That day I asked him for certainty, although still the same answer is not clear, but less make me dare to start this seriously, he replied he would try it even though not sure. That day was the beginning of our long story, maybe it could be said it was our anniversary, whether now he still remembers or has forgotten that date, which I certainly never forget.

I went to Bandung with a very happy feeling, I already have a lover, since seeing him first at his parents' house at Pandu's wedding I've liked him even though we were actually proud since childhood, I've always loved him, then parting ways after we moved in once our parents gave me this amazing idea I was so grateful, at least I didn't have to say anything to tell her I wanted her to be my lover"

" I've heard this from Alya"

Afkar began to dislike this conversation, he began to feel that in the ending he would be blamed for being late to express feelings for Alya even though it was true.

" Alright, I believe Alya will tell you all right about me"

Afkar gulps.

" As I recall, he told me you were a good man and as a complement to all my bones"

" Not so Afkar, I'm not a complement, it's me who is full of lack in his eyes"

" No, everything we dreamed of, that we aspired to have given him so easily, you perfected his dream Kevin, I who was struggling and gasping just gave him hope and love"

" Do you think so? can you be next to the woman you love while her mouth is always talking about another man? his heart always misses about his other lover? I was not considered at all and I made myself seem unresponsive. I just kept on making her into a new woman, not your woman, but my woman, I almost succeeded with her attitude and behavior, her style of speech, her manners, her looks, everything could almost make her an Alyaku, not your Alyamu, I want to make her my queen, but you made her your angel first"

" Not only did you change her behavior, you also managed to change her attitude from loving me to loving you"

" No Afkar, never could. I used to believe my love would be able to give light to even blind eyes. Although my longing has not been caught, although my love is not yet considered, but I will survive on all the feelings that I have been treated. I'm still learning to wait patiently for him to have the same misses for me. Back then, I could only kiss her without kissing, hug her without hugging, even give her all the feelings without her feeling.

sometimes we travel and tell stories like lovers, eat together, sit in the garden together, enjoy the night of the week under the full moon, but I am your heart that tucked through my body. Many times we even fought because of my jealousy towards you"

" I am not among you, what makes you jealous, should I be angry with the circumstances of yesterday when he became my lover but you instead fondle him with your material and power"

" It's not so, it's true that I once hugged her, I kissed her hands, I wiped her tears, I stroked her hair, I even kissed her red cheeks, but I couldn't touch her, he still just wants me to be you, I'm like a surrogate role, never really at heart"

" Don't tell me your affection in front of me"

" Is something wrong? you forgot she was my boyfriend too? sometimes let me forget he also has another love, rather he loves another man, I'm just a figure player"

" I got knocked out, you won it"

" No heart, I have made my pride and my soul was broken to keep him with me, he is with me Afkar, not with you, but why am I the loser? you're still his priority, not mine. How stupid am I? He was too good at making my heart hurt quickly, I treated patiently and maturely, tomorrow happened again and so on. It's not his fault, I love him too much. And Alya was never under any power and material as you mentioned, she never asked me for any material, nor did she ever ask me to give her any help, I took care of him in my own way, sending those I trusted to watch over him and making sure no one else could hurt him. He only asked me one, asked that I go and let you guys be together, after that far I certainly can't and won't, who are you Afkar? who is so high in his heart? who cast me out so blatantly. I'm very sick Afkar. Even after parting ways with you, one day you preached, I became scruffy, my eyes were covered with a darkness of jealousy. I created it, why did I get killed by it? his heart was made to love you

Alya is a poem that flies like a seagull every day that I go through, and I am a reader who does not know punctuation so I have trouble spelling characters, he said, it wasn't his fault when I sometimes had to pause because my sight and soul hurt to continue the story. My brain and my heart are sometimes not very good at working together, whether this is true happiness, or my imagination is too well-trained to make it up, just by seeing him smile my heart will come back strong and not need a glass for me to reflect can still this continue? Or do I have no choice but to fight for it? And then my brain always grumbles, can you be happy that way? Then my heart always answered, I was always happy to share the day with him Even though I did not share my heart.

Falling in love will always be a happy feeling, if hurting is not his fault but my fault which is very ambitious, hoping me and him will be us. My hope is not easy for him to realize, because he has not wanted to be aware of it, or never wanted to be, my hope is still hanging because the answer is to have someone he has to defend. I was ruined because I loved her with such great love, did I waste time on this, did I have to finish and let her go? And my heart goes back to saying, I can still fight not let. I was stubborn and didn't want to stop chasing him. I still have a chance his heart is willing to have, pursuing the possibilities that could exist after this

Time that has not been on my side, silent in the circle of waiting, I must finish the memories we made so as not to hurt me more deeply later.

She's a lover who never missed me

I don't think I'll be the same as he feels.

As much as possible is done and given.

I dropped my heart where I started.

The choice is still to wait?

Or should I go and forget?

And waiting is too long even I know the answer.

To go and forget, however devastated I may be, but by going so far at least he will not see me in actual pain . I can say I'm fine.

I ended up leaving him, without giving any message or cue before, sounding not like a knight huh? but I did it to keep his feelings. How can I stoicly leave if she cries? not because of love, but because she had to be as aware after that there was no longer me. This setback is my first, hopefully no longer followed by my next setback, I do not want to come back to us, no matter how devastated I feel, can not destroy my future. I will be serious in my career, at least I will take refuge for that reason if in a long time I do not also get a replacement, the treatment hurt me even though it is not wrong, I do not even know who to blame, I do not even know who to blame, maybe everything is true of their own will.

I don't want to leave the boxes with my sad story now for the future, lingering in prolonged anguish, I don't want to bring tears on the way.

Not all feelings have to be picked up by the figure we dream of. I was already unable to wait and was too familiar with the time then I was crushed into dust.

I went with the collapse of the heart.

I have to go fast so as not to get too lost.

So I can still know which place I'm going"

" A minute, about the car. Can Alya return it?"

" I won't accept it, without diminishing my respect for you who are now even able to buy him a private plane, let the car be there"

" So Alya will always remember you?"

I heard the question so cynical.

" It's up to Alya to judge what it is for, if you forbid it to wear, it could be to give it to aunty or Tasya"

Afkar breathed out his breath

" What exactly is your purpose in telling this"

" Good, I'm waiting for this question. I've told you a little bit of as much as has happened with my feelings and Alya's heart. If I tell you all maybe your heart can't hold it"

" Much Kevin's story?"

Kevin laughed

" Hopefully Alya will be sweet so that your emotions can stabilize Afkar. Okay, I'll answer your question. The point is I once loved him so much, beyond my pride. If now you have her even marry her I am so willing and feel my burden reduced, I have told the man who will be responsible for her life and death. If you hurt her, I can do and repeat more good than I did yesterday"

" For that you don't have to remind me, I'll take care of him".

" Not only looking after him, give him the most comfortable place, either for his body or his soul, he has been tired for too long, whether there is still how much more power because yesterday was very drained because of you. I'd never be willing if Alya wasn't happy with the guy she was fighting for and got me kicked out, she was tired"

" It's tired because of me or because you've always kept him from going away from you"

" Maybe because of the two of us. But I always try to make her sweet face laugh when she tears my eyes to miss you. I wiped his tears because you were Afkar"

" Kein, that,,,"

Silent

" We never met, but we were made to compete, whether it is actually among us who are the winners, we even both admit defeat. But today I proposed to her and I'm going to marry her. And it's over"

" That's why I want to talk to you"

" I thank you for taking care of her and giving her all the protection when I was far away"

" I don't expect anything in return for that except the happiness of the woman I once loved so dearly"

Afkar turned back to Alya who was now enjoying his coffee.

" I've loved her for the past six years, and will continue to love her at all my ages"

" I've been calm like this Afkar, all this time if I can be honest I'm often angry with you, because you are someone who holds my lover's heart to love me. But sometimes I also think, maybe you'll think the same about me"

" Hmm, I think so too"

" Afkar again, give him happiness, never hurt him, I won't be able to accept if one moment I hear him unhappy".

" I promise you that"

" Thank you"

" We won't meet?"

" I don't know, I'm going home for a few days to introduce my girlfriend to my parents, whether I can or not I can go to Yogya. Honestly Afkar, I want to once again be able to see Alya and embrace her, she's an amazing woman who once gave me the most unbearable and sad grief-stricken I've ever gotten from anyone else"

Silent

" When are you going home?"

" Maybe next week"

" As a sign between us there is no longer a feeling of blame let alone revenge. And as a sign of my gratitude for the kindness you once did to my lover, I myself will accompany Alya to meet you in Jakarta"

" Afkaaar, is this true?"

" I'm always serious about what I say"

" I'll wait for your promise. Alright we've been talking for too long, Alya must be impatient waiting for you, he's too rash"

" Yes, I will continue to give her as much kindness as I can"

" Happy Afkar, may you be a family Sakinah mawaddah warrahmah and blessed with children who are sholeh and sholeh"

" The same do'a for you Kevin"

" Ashloraikum"

" Greetings waalaikum"

Clik.

Afkar stood up and slowly walked towards the big table, silent for fear of what would happen after the conversation of two men who had once fought for a woman. Afkar approached Alya

" Want to play two songs for me, baby?"

Alya smiled, as she was not angry. Back to being my old ka Afkar. Alya nodded

" Wo, where's my guitar?"

While Bowo entered one room Afkar looked at his lover's friends one by one

" Thank you all for taking care of Alya and loving her. Whatever needs Alya can you meet, while I who is recognized as her lover can do nothing but give her tears"

" It's okay Afkar, even though he's very troublesome, we love him, hehehe"

" Thank you Ron. And Arga, I don't know how to thank you, we always bother you, but you're always willing to help even if it's not sincere, hehehe"

Arga laughed

" I'm always sincere, forget it, hahhaa"

" Sylvia, thank you for accompanying Alya, listening to all the chatter"

" It's okay, it's natural for one friend to happen to his best friend, right?"

Bowo came to pick up Alya's guitar

" And you're Bowo, thank you for providing Alya with a safe place in this tavern, when I was so worried about her, whether she was safe and where to kick her bike, and where to get rid of it, there are you guys who are always there for him. I can't pay it back, really. I only pray that you will be happy"

" Amiin, both Afkar".

" And you my dear, thank you for enduring this long in my absence, when you have received so much sufficiency from those who are not me, things you can accept without having to feel wrong or bound without me that do not give you comfort and existence for the time of energy and heart"

Alya nodded, What did Ka Kevin talk about just now and made ka Afkar become like this?.