Angel In Poetry

Mom, I'm Waiting for your Rest

Leaning your back on the edge of the bed with your eyes closed, palpate what will happen afterwards. I must state the circumstances for a farewell by departing from your life. Ending a relationship that we dream of will be anchored to marriage, but it runs aground after a long journey that will feel unfair. Too much of the power of our love then leads you to the meeting, we are able to last as long and as sick as it is,

but this is the destiny for our journey.

Thereafter,

Will I be a bird that flies with one wing, that crosses the clouds but with pain bears the weight of sorrow.

Or shiver with the darkness of the night

accompanied by a starless moon in the constellation Scorpio with your favorite form of scorpion, which is able to accompany a lonely soul even without beauty.

Your loss left me not knowing where to go, with whom and what to do.

Or will I be a sun that lacks light, which has no warmth even though it is able to illuminate

Even I, who lost half my life, may still be able to stand up, but the soul carried you away.

Without you my lover,

My poems will be wordless.I let you go freely without being bound, the one I love but have to leave.

Slowly opening their eyes and looking at their photo yesterday at the airport as Afkar drove Alya at the airport, no. I won't be able to survive with this, she's my Alya. Right said Arga, I am a man without effort, only my feelings are trying, but my attitude is not. Kahl got up and got out of the room. The middle-aged woman he loved and respected was still very deftly poking spices to cook their lunch menu.

" Mommy, what are you doing?"

" It's making seasonings, want to cook your favorite soy sauce chicken"

Mom's hand is still poking some kitchen spices.

" Mom, can I talk?"

Mother nodded

" Yes, what's up, son?"

Afkar grabbed a chair in the kitchen and sat down near the mother who was still busy making condiments.

" I asked for permission again mom, will you give my blessing to marry Alya or not?"

Mother walks and washes her hands in the sink then dries it with a napkin hanging over it. Afkar stood up and took the chair back to his mother

" Sit here ma'am"

A body that is not as strong as it used to be in his youth makes the mother slightly slowly shift the legs of the chair

" Mom's legs these days are often sore, arthritic"

" Don't go out at night mom"

" Yes, I've avoided that"

Mom sat down next to Afkar and looked at her son.

" How's Afkar?"

" I can't stay and hide like this ma'am, I have to take a stand"

" All mom leave it to you"

Afkar.

" I will not go forward except with the blessing of my mother"

Mother was silent and looked at Afkar's very pleading face.

" You love him, right"

" So mom"

" If I don't approve of you how?"

" I will be going to Yogya soon, I will take responsibility and resign well. I don't want to hang him like this, he's been waiting too long, and when we find each other I can't give you what we've dreamed of for a long time, at least I'll let it go with prayer and kindness. Wishing this was a good farewell and I'd be honest with her parents this was fate, not because I was off the hook"

" Can you do that?"

" We've been in a very long time in a situation that makes us sad and suffer, maybe this is the last point, I'm sure Alya will be strong"

" Are you strong?"

" I don't know ma'am, it won't be possible for us to fight against fate, all this time we can live a hard day and very sick with fortitude because we are friends with destiny, may after this our fortitude still be granted protection, which is clear I will return to Banjarmasin, I must go through my days again, and perhaps with a purpose and prayer that is no longer the same"

" Are you disappointed?"

" I'm more convinced that mother's blessing is the most precious thing for my life, if there is no blessing as much as any effort to make my family happy will feel empty ma'am"

" You're shaking it?"

" I'll convince Alya of the clairvoyance"

" Why do you only answer with Alya's feelings? you're protecting her so much, maybe not being with you she'd be better than you were yesterday?"

" Mom, I look better when I part with him just from the eye, ma'am, I can indeed be much more equal, more powerful and material. But for what if I don't have someone I care so much about, someone who is the purpose of my life, for what I endure as long as it closes my eyes and my heart to another woman, if not to wait for my love to return with its path and destiny. I who sit every night praying good things for him, longing for the times that have passed, waiting for encounters that somehow, sometimes the whispers of evil flashed many times, I did not give up this farewell and suffering. My soul is sometimes lost, released through the rites of work and freed my uncontrolled emotions mastering it. Many years made us mature and still survive to continue to pray for each other. We do not part with hatred, we part with the belief that we still love each other and that will be a burden in our age"

" You haven't done a little prick"

" I'd say it if he'd found someone better than me, but I still pray that I'm more deserving of him because I'm struggling to keep myself strong for him right now"

I'm sorry I lied mom, how can I try and be nice and act like it, I've been promising all this time to try to resolve my feelings for her, but still can't ma'am. Even just now I imagine I left without him I've been ruined like this. And his best friend told him that Kevin was coming, Mom, he was going to pick up Alya and maybe he'll go far away soon, I'm really going to lose him this time. My beloved, look at the selfishness of my love that drives you away but wants you

I was trying to move but my heart was still left behind .

" When are you going to yogya to see him?"

Afkar was still downcast, trying to hide his deepest sadness. Can't your heart soften ma'am, she's someone I can tell you how else I can tell her beauty, her beauty, her agility, while my lips are in the key to tell it, my eyes are closed with the past to see again her beauty , my hands are tied to write down all the causes of my love that will not run out with writing, gaze or speech.

" After this I will look for the ticket ma'am, soon it will be better, even if it is to end. I don't want to make him wait any longer with my decision to leave him, I hope very soon he will be able to get someone better and take good care of him, as good as I've kept it all this time with my prayers"

Afkar stood up and left the mother who was still looking at Afkar's back that passed from him.

I'm your mother, son, I understand how you're feeling right now.

" Afkaaar"

Afkar turned and turned to face his mother

" Where are you going?"

" Want to go to the room to pick up your phone, I'll book a ticket to yogya"

" How many tickets did you order?"

" One"

" Make mom a message too"

Afkar shook his head

" Don't worry mom, I'll be able to deal with it, I'll be strong, mom's here, just give me a do'a, everything will be fine, all will be fine, and again I will all book tickets to Banjarmasin after I finish talking about this with his parents. I am not going back to Jakarta. I will have a new day in Banjarmasin starting the day after tomorrow"

Mother stood up and patted Afkar's back which was much higher than her tiny body

" We eat first, later you will not feel mother's cooking"

Afkar nodded.

" Smile son, you have to eat a lot, because later you will have a lot of business in Yogya to take care of your wedding"

Afkar looked at the confused mother

" Mom went to Yogya, to propose to her beautiful daughter-in-law, Alyana".

Everything that was held in Afkar's eyes and heart collapsed as well, Afkar fell prostrate and kissed the mother's feet. No words came out of his mouth, only tears, only tears. The water that fell from her eyes this time was not the same as her tears two years ago when she asked her mother for permission to go to Banjarmasin because she wanted to forget her past with Alya. This time it was tears of gratitude and happiness.

" Naak, I approve of you"

" Mom, thank you"

Afkar still with his novelty, no longer want to think anything, anyone, after the blessing of mother said, I will be strong. It will be much stronger than when I tried to let you go, when I persevered for what I asked but did not believe.

" If you don't stop like this, how can you continue cooking? should we go to Afkar? hehee"

Afkar got up from his position and hugged his mother

" Thank you ma'am, always protect me with your prayers and mother's blessing"

" Of course, call your daughter-in-law, tell her you'll propose to her soon"

Afkar smiled and nodded

" She's a nice, tough lady, mom"

" I believe in your choices, son"

" He's not what Mia imagined"

" Yes"

Afkar was still looking at his mother.

She's not as bad as Mia's sister thinks, but she's often mean to me, silly Alya, I hope she doesn't make a fuss when mom comes to meet and propose to her.

Tiiit, thiit,

" The Assalamualaikum ka"

" Walaikum hail angel, what are you doing?"

" Just had a meeting, and Alya just answered the boss's question like the one Afkar taught you last night, hehehe"

" Oh yeah, waah how about I cancel it yeah"

Silent

" Yes"

" If darling gets fired, just enroll in my office, I'd be happy to accept the secretary as cute as you love"

" Ka, don't joke, Alya doesn't want to lose her job"

" I told you, just work in my office"

" Alya doesn't want to have a fierce boss"

" I won't be fierce anymore"

" Why?"

" I've always been fierce because I often baper alone"

" Baper why?"

" My sadness is too high in waiting for my love to come back".

" Hehe"

" Moreover, she will come not as a lover anymore, but as a sholeh wife"

" Due ka?"

" Tomorrow I will come with my mother to propose to my lover and make her queen in my house"

" Yes"

" Yes, I have blessed us dear"

" Yes,,,"

" Dear why are you?"

" It feels like fainting"

" Don't faint, later if I have said kabul Ijab, I will give as much artificial breath as possible"

" Hahhaha, don't make Alya ngakak in the office yes brother"

" Well, tomorrow morning I leave with my mom, where am I going? at your parents' house or at the Pandu?"

" Ka Pandu only, kasian brother and mother have to travel 3 more hours"

" I don't know the address"

" Some one will pick me up"

" Okay, baby, prepare for my arrival"

" It's not Alya, it's the brother who has to mentally prepare, hehehe"

" Do' will I yes dear"

" Yes ka, Alya will always pray for Alya's cute future husband"

" Hmmm, lie to the last sentence"

" Hehehe, this time to be honest"

" Yes, I want to get ready, happy work, baby"

" Yes, thanks for the good news ka, Alya also want to ask permission not to enter the office tomorrow"

" Yes, same greetings om and aunty yes"

" Greetings are also the same mother, from the son-in-law of the world's greatest piece"

" That's sweet, yeah. Assalamualaikum"

" Waalaikum ka"

" Emuah".

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Phone call

" Afkar Assalamualaikum"

" Waalaikum salam Arga"

" How"

" Thank God my parents finally bless us, tomorrow I'm going to Yogya"

" Thank God, I don't have to bother helping you anymore"

" Chaa".

" I'll book a ticket for tomorrow, see you in Yogya, oh yes at your house?"

" Yes"

" Yes Arga, thank you for everything, there are so many things I'll talk to you about tomorrow"

" Okay, we'll meet up at Bowo's, I can take the kids"

" Yes, thank you, I want to be ready first, sorry to bother you"

" I'm used to being distracted by you two"

" Hehehe. Assalamualaikum Arga"

" Greetings waalaikum"

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