Angel In Poetry

Starting the Struggle

A black robe with a single strand of hanging ties

Always longing to quickly be able to put on my body and head.

And lately I've been imagining it, with you by your side, my lover.

Alya shuts down the buju diary app on her phone. Huuh, quite tiring as well as today's graduation event, accompanied by ka Kevin who can proudly wear the title of master behind his name, his heart was touched when his parents embraced Kevin with a feeling of haru. This is the result of Kevin's hard work after passing the bachelor for 4 years and post-graduate for 2.5 years. And after this the burden of the company will really be on his shoulders. At the age of 24 years is still too young, but om Hadi strongly entrust this task to him because he knows Kevin is always wise in taking a stand. If only they knew how cute his son was when begging Alya's heart, maybe Kevin's name would be directly crossed from the list of heirs of the company. But of course the maturity belongs to the treasure and the throne, for love just let Kevib endure polishing his childishness.

After eating the synagogue together, Alya asked to be escorted home immediately, not because he was tired, usually he also held all day in the crowd, but because of dizziness to hear questions about their relationship

" How does it go, baby?".

" A month later we will be giving thanks as well as the appointment of Kevin as the leader of the company, dear can be present right?"

" After graduation, go to Bandung, right?"

" We've prepared a house for you to stay in, or Alya can choose her own later"

And hundreds of more questions were thrown from the mouth of Aunt Risma, but for Alya it was not a question, but a statement, because even though none of Alya answered, he had his own answer

" Your aunt is getting along well and familiar, aunt is very happy to see it"

" Later if Kevin can not pick up Alya at the thanksgiving event, let the aunt who picked up, not only Alya, but the whole family"

" After graduation do not have to think about looking for work, it could be Kevin's assistant, or if you want Kevin try to open a new office specifically for Alya who holds"

" Oh yes, aunty has visited the house of one friend there is an exotic view of the city of Bandung from a distance and flickering lights that light up at night in the area of Dago Pakar, Indonesia, it was pretty cool to build a house there. In the area, most houses adopt the resort or villa style so that residents will feel like a vacation every day.  How nice it would be if Alya could stay there"

Alya just smiled, the longer I didn't feel rich with them, but it just felt weird.

Alya whispered to Kevin as the two old men walked in front of them

" Ka, Alya's dizzy, coming home"

Kevin nodded

" Dizziness with mom's talk"

laughing and wrapping his hands around Alya's waist.

Om Hadi and Aunt Risma looked back because they heard Kevin laughing, they smiled at the familiarity of the two lovebirds.

Aunty Risma poking om Hadi.

" Pah, mom can't wait to download the ghost"

" Yes ma, soon, again loading, whaaaha"

This time Alya and Kevin are looking at it, but we think they are, they are.

Departing in a different car, returning home in a different car.

Om Hadi and Aunt Risma return home in Kevin's black sports car, while Kevin escorts Alya in his silver car

" Alya, just take a break, I'll pick you up later in the afternoon"

" Yes ka, exhausted ashar too, right?"

" Whatever, if still cape night is also okay, tomorrow morning is also okay"

" Don't ka, tomorrow morning Alya has entered the office again, the late permission"

" Oh yeah, papa's mom is taking us along".

" Whataa?"

Alya who already wanted to open the car door because it would come out immediately canceled her intention, the car door was closed again

" What's so surprised?"

" Why did you send Alya home?"

" Can't you?"

" It's not so, do not be bothered, sebenrnya without kaka between also Alya dare himself, this is even ushered in the same om and aunt"

" They want all your friends he said"

" Ka, they're not planning anything anymore, are they?"

" Why think so?"

" Alya was just in case not to get stuck"

" Alya, why feel framed, can't"

" What it's already like"

" I'm sorry Alya if you feel that way"

Alya fell silent, hopefully there is no new story, I will end this.

" Well, when you're ready, let me know, I'll pick you up"

" Yes Alya go in first, Assalamualaikum"

" Greetings waalaikum".

Kevin looked at Alya who walked into his house Alya even heard my parents just wanted to go to your house so worried, you really don't want this to continue? you really don't want to be with me, it wouldn't be good if everything was done with coercion. Kevin passed from Alya's boarding house to go home. Alya turned her body hearing the sound of the car leaving her boarding house. Ka, please don't do anything else, tell your parents this we can't continue. Alya will end it and then we have to talk alone, don't follow our parents again.

Sent message

" Ka, where else?"

10 Minutes, 20 minutes.

Phonecall

" Ashloraikum"

" Greetings waalaikum, sorry I was outside, not hearing, where dear?"

" At ka's boarding house, Alya wants to be home soon"

" Same with Pandu?"

" Eehhh, yes"

" Be careful, baby, have you had lunch?"

" It's been you"

" When you get to the news later"

" Where is this Afkar?"

" It's still outside, maybe an hour back from the office"

" ooh"

" Why baby?"

" It's nothing, miss it"

" I'm video calling for a second"

" Yes ka"

Clique

Video call

A vast place is precisely the outdoors, where many lined up large cars and heavy equipment are in operation

" I'm sorry if the sound is not clear"

" What's that over there?"

" Observing"

Seen Afkar is wearing a helmet-shaped hat project v - guard safety with yellow, wearing a jacket or more like a vest safety vest project scot combine with the same color, there's a nametag hanging in his vest bag. Under the sun Afkar's eyes occasionally dim due to exposure, even drops of sweat were seen from behind the camera and wipe with tissue

Alya smiled, the weight of your work is

" Be careful, take care of your health, don't forget to rest"

" Yes my dear"

" Happy work you, Assalamualaikum"

" Greetings waalaikum, emuah"

" Dear ka Afkar"

Alya waved her hand.

Clik.

For a moment, I lay down and looked at the sky of the room. I love you Afkar and I entrust the future with you, give me strength for this.

Opening again the gallery application on his camera, smiling to see that there is already a large collection of photos of the two of them, from selfies that are deliberate, pretend to be unintentional and the face of Afkar who is indeed in his picture with stealth, furtively, a shady face that always calms him. Smell the phone screen as if the face was real. Zooming in on one photo featuring Afkar very closely, palpating his eyebrows, his nose, his cheeks, his mouth. Ka, all of you I loved a long time ago, and I never wanted this smiling face to be as sad as my friends say, I had to finish my other story, I want this smile to be with me until the end of our lives.

Putting the phone on his chest and closed, Afkar's shadow filled his mind, until he fell asleep and deepened, finally falling asleep in a dream.

Judika, however,,

Alya was shocked and shocked

Ka Kevin's

" The Assalamualaikum ka"

" Greetings waalaikum, how's Alya, what time can I pick up?"

Alya glanced at the clock on the wall, half 4

" May you, Alya pray first"

" Yes, me too, I'll go straight there"

" Yes ka"

" Ashloraikum"

" Greetings waalaikum"

Clique

An hour later I was asleep. Come down to take a shower and pray soon, Kevin will pick her up and drive her home.

The bell rang, Yanti's voice called out to her

" Alya,, you know,,,"

" Yes".

Alya stood in front of the glass for a bit, combing her hair and picking up her little backpack that already contained her purse, cell phone, powder and lipstick. Get down the stairs and step forward towards the door

" A to Kevin"

Kevin was sitting on the terrace and facing the street

" Are you ready?"

" Already, where om and auntie said to accompany Alya"

" They left the same way an hour ago"

" Lho? why not together?"

" They use my car, if we leave with that, yes"

Kevin pointed at Alya's white car

" Ka, they're not planning anything, are they?"

Kevin stared fixedly at Alya, you are too scared, for what? if they planned something, it would be for the good.

" I don't know, which car key is Alya?

This time Kevin didn't want to argue anymore.

Alya handed over the car keys taken from her backpack, Kevin took Alya's hand and opened the car door. Slowly running the car

" A, don't you know?"

" What about?"

" Our parents' plan"

Kevin nodded

" Yes already"

Alya turned her face to the left side looking at the road from the windowpanes, her mind was like a glare and was preparing herself in case something would happen after this.

After traveling for 4 hours they entered a large yard and parked Kevin's black car.

" Go in the ka"

" Alya for a minute."

" What's wrong?"

Kevin returned the look of Alya who looked anxious, yes since they started the journey earlier until he was at his parents' house, Kevin saw Alya really in anxiety, no jokes, no jokes, there is no comment about the car in front of the road is too slow, there is no scolding that is always noisy with congestion.

" We don't know what they've been talking about in there, but whatever it is I hope you're not doing something that makes our relationship bad. And one thing, I never told my parents our problems, let it be our secret, because I still want to fight well, it won't destroy someone else you still love"

Alya just looked at Kevin with incomprehension.

" We just go in here, Alya's been very curious to know what's going to happen after this"

His tone that began to rise made Kevin a little sultry. They walked towards the door with an uneasy feeling

" Ashloraikum"

" Greetings waalaikum"

Already gathered sitting parents in the living room, there are also some cakes and snacks on the table with glasses of drinks that are partly not fully filled anymore. Alya and Kevin kissed the hands of four people who were waiting for their arrival

" Have you eaten Alya?"

Aunt Risma asked Alya who was sitting next to her mother

" It's the same aunt as Kevin"

" Oh yes"

Light chatter began to be heard in that simple living room. Every now and then Alya pulled out his phone from behind a backpack, then put it again, briefly pulled out again, seen pressing something and put it again. All can be caught by Kevin, you are telling me that it has arrived Alya? how about you just let me know that we are in the middle of our parents now.

Huuh said what the hell is this, can I stay for a while, I want to ngabarin ka Afkar, can not wait to immediately remove the phone and type a message

" Assalamualaikum ka, Alya just arrived"

Put the phone in the bag and feel the phone vibrate

" Greetings dear, can I call?".

" Later yes first, this is still taught to talk to mama and papah"

Cell phone back in

Cell phone vibrates

" Yes, if you're done with the phone, baby, Emuah"

" Okee, dear ka Afkar".

Cellphone saved.

Glancing at Kevin, why look around? I'm sorry, just a moment ago chat was as dear as I was in front of Kevin, but the promise is not chat in front of Kevin ka he himself, not me, and it seems I never agreed and agreed to it.

Chat ceased

" Alya, how many months are left?"

Aunty Risma turned to Alya who had since bothered herself with the concealment of her phone

" This is just an aunt's internship, after the internship will be new thesis, hopefully not until another year and a half can graduate"

" Well good that, let us quickly carry it out huh de Siska?"

Aunt Risma looked at her with a smile, and she returned that smile

Heeeyyy for a second,,

" Do what aunt?"

Let me ask you a silly question, but I have to be sure that this isn't about the matchmaking anymore. Aunt Risma laughs

" Yes carry out your marriage, aunt even want it faster than that, if possible next month yes next month, hehehe"

Alya looked at Kevin with a murderous look

Kaka already knows this, right? kaka asked for this, right? kaka is the one who really smooths this plan, right? While Kevin looked at his mama with a sad look, why are we talking about it now, no longer ma, I am struggling in my way, I don't want Alya who I'm trying to love me to hate me.

" I'm sorry aunt, but our relationship isn't what auntie imagined"

The four old men looked at him with different gazes, while Kevin immediately stood up and approached Alya

" Maybe we can talk both up front"

Alya shook her head

" Alya wants to talk here"

Kevin's getting nervous

" Alya, please let's go out for a second"

" Alya wants to be here"

Mama felt very uncomfortable and started to be able to read what Alya would say after this

" Alya, Kevin's right, you can talk outside first"

Alya was silent, but still could not accept it

" Ma, Alya has to talk to everyone, not just Ka Kevin".

" Alya,,"

Mama began to hold back emotions and aunt Risma who felt she was the cause of the situation became tense like this immediately mediated.

" Kevin, let Alya be here, maybe there's something she wants to tell you, please baby"

Alya exhaled as if gathering strength, while Kevin did not return to his seat back instead sitting next to Alya and made Alya close his seat again near mama, Kevin increasingly feels that the situation is very bad, Alya please take care of your attitude and speech, take care of the feelings of my parents and your parents, Alya, I don't care about my feelings that you haven't cared about in a long time, but please care about my parents right now

" Sorry aunt, om. We cannot continue this relationship"

Silence, all are still waiting for its continuation

" We don't love each other"

Aunt Risma looked at Kevin, just Kevin as if asking for an explanation, what does Alya mean to us?

" How come, you guys are so familiar and happy?" aunt Risma asked in confusion

Kevin is still worried about Alya's mouth which is always original and sometimes very uncontrolled

" Alya just considers ka Kevin as brother and sister, Alya can not change her aunt"

Silent again

" Will it be very good, it will change over time"

" It's been a long time, and it's still like this"

This time Kevin was very impatient and immediately clasped Alya's hand

" We'll go out for a minute Alya"

Kevin stood up and still holding Alya's hand made him inevitably stand up and step behind Kevin

" Alya, please watch your talk"

Alya looked at Kevin

" Keep talking Alya? can you keep Alya's feelings?"

" There's certainly nothing they should take care of with your feelings, because they don't know what's behind our story?"

" Then Alya tell me everything"

Kevin took his hand off

" If you tell me now, we're really in danger of separating"

" Yes, Alya is tired like this"

Kevin leaned against the wall.

" Alya, just do as you please now, just talk as you want your tongue to say, I'm no longer able, I give up"

Alya looked at Kevin and leaned against the wall next to Kevin

" Why not go in? do Alya. I'm just waiting for my parents here."

Alya was silent

" Please Alya, I've been this way for a long time, it won't be too bad for me even though it will never be good. Do it now, then my parents will come out and we'll go straight home. Thanks for everything"

Kevin walked slowly to his car, followed by Alya

" Why follow me?"

" Where is Kevin going?"

" I waited in the car, and even my presence did not affect your decision"

Alya pulled Kevin's hand but immediately put it away gently

" Don't worry, about my company still cooperating with your papah company and Pandu company will still run well, I won't mix it with our personal problems, and the car, and the car, it will still be yours, as a gift and proof I once had true love"

" A, Ka,,,"

" Even if I'm not ready, but I still pray for your happiness".

Kevin waved at Pa Budi who from earlier sat on a wooden bench near the guava tree and played his cellphone, Budi approached

" Yes sir?"

" Open the door, I'm going in"

Pa Budi presses a button on his remote, Kevin opens the door and intends to enter but Alya blocks him

" Why avoid this?"

" Dodging what? I've been away for a long time but I don't know myself"

" A, ka,,"

" Come in and talk about Alya, I'm waiting for my parents here, greetings to your mama and papah"

" Greetings alone, come not with greetings, go home with greetings also"

" Well, but later, I'll come to them, after you finish with my parents"

" Yes"

Alya was still standing in front of the open car door, Kevin was already sitting but Alya was still standing in front of him

" You scared? should I tell him? all right, I will tell you all about me, you and Afkar with my version, about my patience, about my stupidity, about my worthlessness, about your indifference and for all my efforts to improve you unnecessarily, about my worthlessness, about your indifference, I'm so sincere in doing and giving it away"

" All right, Alya"

Alya turned around and walked slowly towards the inside of the house. He saw four people still in his position.

" Where's kevin?"

Papah saw Alya enter himself asking him

" Ka Kevin's waiting in the car"

Om Hadi and aunt Risma look at each other, do not want the situation increasingly uncomfortable om Hadi take a stand

" Maybe we'll talk about this later, then please leave first"

" Ee, where's it going?"

Mama stood up

" Tonight stay at the place Lusi used to be, was tired of attending the graduation ceremony"

" Yes"

Aunt Risma looked at Alya

" Thank you Alya was willing to accompany Kevin earlier"

" Yes Aunt".

Alya kisses Aunt Risma's and Hadi's hands

" Assalamualaikum

"Greetings waalaikum"

The sound of cars leaving the yard is a sign that tonight there will be a trial and it will certainly be full of emotions.

" Alya, we need to talk"

Alya sat on the sofa and sipped the warm tea that was in front of her

Open the phone and open the gallery app

Ka, accompany me, strengthen me, help me, pray for me, I am fighting for us, alone tonight.

" Please ma, Alya is ready"

Put the backpack next to her and hold her phone, hold me ka, this is for you.