Angel In Poetry

No Longer Can Survive

After a three-day hospital stay, Alya was allowed to go home, there was no serious illness, Alya was only warned to keep the meal hours and not be too tired. Mama and Papah have been home since dawn because there is a meeting schedule and can not be represented. Only Kevin takes care of all the administration and Alya's return.

Finished with Alya's belongings and medicine, Kevin sat down on a chair and faced Alya who was sitting on the edge of the bed

" Dear, I'm back in Bandung today"

" Isn't it Saturday?"

" Monday I have an important meeting with a guest from Hong Kong, I have given orders to my secretary, if in this week I do not receive any guests or meetings, but last night he called me he said this guest from a company that was advancing and offering cooperation, no one dared to make a decision in terms of cooperation other than the leader. I told you to step down next week, but the guest will be in Indonesia tomorrow and only have Monday for us to hold meetings and cooperation. And before Monday of course me and some managers and division heads tomorrow have to hold a meeting first"

" ooh"

" It's okay, baby?"

" It's okay, Alya is healthy"

Kevin clasped Alya's hand, Alya felt there was something different from Kevin's treatment this time, every going Kevin was always treating him this way, but not this deep.

" Ka, Alya would like to say thank you, as long as Alya in the care of kaka never left Alya except to eat. Kaka even brought his clothes and equipment here to stay and look after Alya. All the needs of Alya kaka take care of until it is finished, all the needs of Alya kaka fulfill, Alya is very grateful to you"

Kevin kissed Alya's fingers again

" Why thank you, it usually is, hehehe"

Alya blushed

" It is usually very good, but Alya is not in a state of pain, so the help of kaka can still Alya a trivial, hehehe".

" I love you no matter how you treat me. As long as you're willing to learn to appreciate and love me"

Heeyy, sounding so flat, I caught the tone of your voice

" Are you Kevin?"

Alya brought her face closer to Kevin

" What does kaka mean?"

Kevin nodded

" I don't know until when you can learn to do that Alya, until now I'm still with this uncertainty".

" Why are you still talking about this? we've been together, especially what I asked for, Alya has fulfilled right?"

" Yes, you've filled it somehow. It's Alya, we go home, I have to get ready to go to the airport"

" Alya drove kaka to the airport?"

" No, let the driver take me. Get well soon my dear, don't eat late, don't be too cape, don't forget to rest"

" Yes too"

" Yes, I'm going to continue to be passionate about work, for the future, and I still want that future to be us"

Alya smiled, this time Alya brought Kevin's hand to her lips and kissed him

" May all be smooth, kaka always given health and ease"

Kevin stroked Alya's hair

" Nice well my dear"

" Well, is Kaka coming here next week?"

Kevin looked at Alya in surprise

" Tumben asked that, usually never, does he still expect me to come again? hehe"

Alya bowed down, how bad I have been all this time never asked that to him who has been very good to me, who has given me a happy sense of comfort, selfless comfort.

" Alya wait, of course"

" Hmm, looks like I'm going to have a surprise"

" Alya just want to go for a walk, right kaka said, Alya too busy and forget that Alya's body and soul also need rest"

Kevin nodded

Since getting out of the hospital Alya began to keep his diet again, enough rest. No longer want to be treated in the hospital with an inpus needle that must stab his hand. Opens chat in WhatsApp group

" I'm finally in chapter 3"

" Kaya Alya will soon be racing Ga"

" When do you go? from yesterday the introduction hasn't been sorted out"

" I really want to move forward, I don't know maybe my luck is still in the ration of romance, not yet in the ration of career, makeup Alya, hahha"

Alya smiled and started to reply to Roni

" Sorry yes, I will have a successful career and success in romance"

" Have you been on Afkar's phone?"

" Not yet, but it looks like I'm starting to fall in love with Kevin's kindness"

" Woooow finally after a year and a half you can just fall in love, ckckck, I hope I don't meet your rich lover lo".

" What is Al?"

" Right Ga, since I was treated in the hospital yesterday, I feel the attention and kindness"

" He was kind and cared about you from the past, you were blindfolded and ears"

" The heart is also not"

" Yes that's important Ron"

" Haaiii, I missed you, after dinner last night, what's the news?"

" Alya is in love with Kevin Syl"

" It's good, so you can forget about Afkar"

" Where can you know it's in love, you can do it anyway, baperan"

" I started to remember him and started to miss him, I wanted to punch him but embarrassed, for all my life I never got to know him first"

" Ciyeee, I miss you, yes chat Al first, let her be happy"

" What would it be if I first chatted him"

" Hmm all right"

" Same as it is, hahahah"

" I'm ashamed"

" I'm so good to Al, do I need to chat Kevin and say I miss"

" Hahahaha, bad Roni, already have two girls, now want to add one guy"

And chatan was more and more with content that is increasingly not quality.

Saturday afternoon, Kevin why haven't you called me yet? is he busy and can't come?. Alya did not let go of the phone in her grasp as she waited for news of Kevin. Can't wait to finally open the phonenbook and press the call button when the keyboard displays the name Ka Kevin.

Tiiit,, tiit

" Ashloraikum"

" Greetings waalaikum, where's Kevin?"

" I'm sorry baby, I'm still meeting, I'll tell ya"

" Yes ka, Assalamualaikum"

" Greetings waalaikum"

Clik.

A meeting? is it saturday? how important is the meeting on this holiday?. Alya breaks herself. Ka Kevin is excited too, he said to our future. Alya started to smile on her own, opened the gallery and looked at the photo of her with Kevin. All the photos in the gallery are just photos of the two of them and their friends, with no photos from their past. This is a photo of them eating in Malioboro in a lesehan with a street singer, there is another photo of them in a mall when Alya bought a dress to eat dinner with Kevin's parents. This is also one photo taken when Alya was invited to the beach, taken by one visitor who was near them. Kevin hugs Alya from behind and Alya who laughs loosely because Kevin occasionally tickles her from behind. Heey, this is a photo Alya took by accident, Kevin who is seriously driving a car with sharp eyes forward, your dignified face and charisma is too charming. When he realized that Kevin laughed and asked them to take a selfie, he said he was too fierce to be on the side of a cute girl like me with a serious face fose so. You are handsome ka, I have long acknowledged that, but why have I only recently started to admire.

Thiiit

" Ashloraikum to Kevin"

" Greetings waalaikum, sorry I had a sudden meeting, outside work hours anyway, but it was important"

" Why are you?"

Silent

" Alya, I'm leaving for Hong Kong"

" How many days?"

" I don't know, but it won't be a minute"

" sthat mean?"

" My company has established cooperation with the company that I told you about yesterday, we are carrying out a big project, I have been in talks with important divisions, I have, and everyone referred me to handle the project right there"

" When did you get to?"

Silent.

" Are you seriously going?"

" Yes, it's my responsibility as a leader".

" If you're Kevin's leaving who's taking over at the kaka company?"

" Om Yuda, before I was here he was appointed papah"

" ooh"

" Dear, sorry we had lunch first, after this we still continue meeting"

" Yes ka"

" Dear do not forget to eat yes, do not sleep late at night, assalamualaikum"

" Waalaikum salam ka"

Clik.

Why am I not feeling well? Will Kevin go far away and not know when?

Kevin hung up his phone feeling sad, I'm sorry Alya, I have to go. Whether or not there is this big project I have to go. I must have a good reason for our separation, so that we can face the questions of our parents, this is what you've been waiting for a long time, I'm the one who's gone, it is not your Afkar that you still love. For what reason should my body be destroyed here to die in vain without being able to have your heart.

Time that has not been on my side, silent in the circle of waiting, I must finish the memories that we make so as not to hurt me more deeply later.

For a lover who never missed me

I don't think I'll be the same as you feel.

As much as possible is done and given.

I dropped my heart where I started.

The choice now is still to wait?

Or should I go and forget?

And waiting is too long even I know the answer.

To go and forget, however devastated I may be, but by going so far at least you will not see me in real pain . I can say I'm fine.

Ever since reading the chat on your phone yesterday I've been more aware

I love the most, I love myself and I force love. You are not happy with me, you still choose your happiness by waiting for him to call you again. I've been putting you in jail all this time? am I the one who tied you to my death bond? until you no longer want to have dreams, you will only live this life with what has been outlined. I can't help but blame myself for your grief, you love your lover more than I am your lover whom you don't consider.

I don't even know how strong after I leave our story, will I be as strong as Afkar who no longer contacts you? or am I weak and still begging you to love? For sure I have to go so that we no longer linger in this cipher of yours. So that you and I don't get blamed for those who so want us to be together.

Our parents who already fully believe that we are lovers will start life with what they ask for. I'm sorry for not being able to see you again, not being able to say this straight away like when Afkar took you off with his pain that was somehow at the limit of where it was, though you didn't tell me that night Afkar met you and you spent the night in the park with your sedu sedan and your cry that wasn't fake. Because me?

This setback is my first, hopefully no longer followed by my next setback, I do not want to come back to us, no matter how devastated I feel, can not destroy my future. I will be serious in my career, at least I will take refuge for that reason if in a long time I do not also get a replacement for you. Your treatment hurt me even though it wasn't wrong, I don't even know who to blame, maybe it's all true to each other's will.

I don't want to leave the boxes with my sad story now for the future, lingering in prolonged anguish, I don't want to bring tears on the way.

Not all feelings have to be picked up by the figure we dream of. I was already unable to wait and was too familiar with the time then I was crushed into dust.

I went Alya, bringing about the collapse of the heart.

I have to go fast so as not to get too lost.

So I can still know which place I'm going.

Unlike your lover who left without a definite purpose, oh yes I forgot to tell you that he is now in one city in Kalimantan, precisely in Banjarmasin, he works as a car grab driver. You're not serious about looking for Alya, I can easily find her, but since you never asked me, let me keep it to myself. Maybe you'll see each other again.