Angel In Poetry

Relinquished

Already 2 hours in front of the laptop, Alya's spirit is extraordinary to face something big named Sripsi, yesterday when facing the guidance lecturer and consulted, lecturers in charge of accompanying and providing academic consultation to students during the lecture period, including preparing a study plan and giving consideration in choosing courses and the number of credits to be taken, according to the development of student studies. Alya applied to apply for the thesis, and through various considerations finally her application was approved next semester, which means only a month away. Alya also began browsing looking for what can be submitted for the title of the script, Doing the thesis certainly requires great intentions and a spirit that should not be extinguished. Ideas that are really interesting have a big influence in helping to maintain intention and passion. Submitted titles are usually not just one and are sorted by priority. Each of the submitted titles also includes a background. Additional data will adjust.

After submitting the title there will certainly be a possibility, accepted or rejected, if the title is rejected, then it must submit a re-title. If the title is accepted, the next step is to contact the thesis supervisor to then begin the creation of pre-scriptions.

Alya stood up from her seat in the room, walked up to the balcony upstairs and looked down, it was already 8pm, it was fitting that my stomach was hungry. I'll just buy some fried rice up ahead. Alya went into the room and put on Afkar's jacket, before putting on the jacket she kissed, when you weren't by my side I could feel your presence. Replace the shorts with long jeans, take a piece of paper money and put it in the pocket of the back jeans. Grab the motor keys on a small table and pocket the cell phone. Get down from the stairs, pick up a helmet under the stairs and walk to the yard. Just starting the motor matic, a greeting made him surprised

" Ashloraikum"

" Greetings waalaikum"

Alya turned towards the greeters. His hands suddenly shook, his body almost staggering

" Where is this night going ?"

" Want to eat"

" I happen to want to eat too, we're together"

Alya nodded.

" Where to eat?"

" Fried rice in front".

" A motorbike ride or walk?"

Alya was silent

" just walk by"

" Of course, if you walk, that's the key bike first"

Alya pulled the key from the motor and put it in the back pocket of her pants.

The two walked slowly to the front of the complex to find dinner

" How are you?"

" Good, you?"

" good"

" How do you get the script? can"

" Yes, just approved"

" Hope everything is good"

" When did you come?"

" Just now, go find a hotel and come here"

What kind of conversation is this, I miss Alya, I want to hug you, drown your head in my chest, kiss your fingers, look at your sparkling eyeballs, laughing at the blushing red cheeks that would come suddenly if I said a compliment, you are the most beautiful sculpture of the perfect sculptor, even now to touch your hand I cannot.

Ka Afkar, don't give me such a strange conversation, how can this extraordinary presence only be filled with simple questions and answers. I want to hug you, lean on your shoulder, I want to drown my whole body in your arms, give me strength if my choice is wrong, allow me with confidence.

" Where do we eat?"

Alya's steps stopped, have they arrived??

Aakkhh, I'm in a daze, why forget that I came here to find food

" It's up to you"

" Said you were eating fried rice?"

Alya nodded, yes I forgot about eating fried rice, but what difference now, eat anything can be swallowed? will it taste different?

Afkar let Alya sit on a bench while he walked towards a stall that provides fried rice, for a while he was sitting next to Alya, no words, talks, each busy with his monologue.

A woman came with a tray containing 2 servings of fried rice and 2 cups of warm tea.

Afkar took one plate of rice and placed it on Alya's lap, then took another 1 plate and placed it next to him.

" We're eating Alya"

Alya nodded and slowly began to put rice into his mouth, why is this tasteless, why is this bland, why is there no taste like this, can I swallow? can I enjoy it?

Glancing to the side, Afkar had not even put rice at all into his mouth, from earlier seen only stirring on one side, does he feel like me?.

Afkar felt noticed turning to Alya, Alya was shocked because he was caught glancing, quickly returning his face towards his plate. Afkar smiled, you are still the same Alya

" Alya, it seems that even until dawn we will not finish spending this plate of rice if we are too busy with our thoughts"

This time Alya looked perfectly

" So how?"

" Speak"

" Just go"

" I can't talk until you talk"

Alya placed the plate next to him, as well as Afkar, facing each other, still silently.

Speaking of Alya, there's too much I've been waiting for from your story.

Bruo

Alya hugged Afkar and shed her tears, without speaking, just a continuous sobbing. Afkar returned Alya's embrace

" Cry, get it all out, I'm here"

Afkar stroked Alya's hair, smelled the hair buds and inhaled deeply

Alya sank further and felt not wanting to get out of the comfort of this embrace, "Can Alya to be in this embrace alone, Alya no longer wants to take it off, Alya is afraid to go back alone. It's a feeling Alya can't feel anywhere and with anyone, can explain this, can anyone understand it"

Afkar tries to be strong and strengthen

" I'm sorry I didn't give you any news and have asked you since you decided. I'm learning to know myself and not bother you anymore, even though my heart is hurt and hurt repeatedly. Given in their eyes we are just two humans who are not supposed to be together, they will not be able to see us laughing together and create happiness. For them we are obscure. Maybe from the beginning I could not hold your love, two years I thought if it was right for you, even though then I dared to die to express it. Sure enough, I still don't deserve this. There is nothing wrong, love will not betray its owner. I put my hopes and dreams too high, but it turns out I misinterpreted them, whether your heart was where, while I was still wondering. My soul is dying on the verge of death, but not my love, she always directs it to you even though the spirit seems to have been drawn from my body, though I lamented all that was given, sobbing when you asked to release yourself, succumb to the power that is in power, to your happiness with my beloved. Ever since you broke off our relationship that I call this true love, I slapped myself to no longer live in a dream, and since then there has been nothing good in my days"

Alya grew deeper with her sadness.

" If you've loved her since you've been with me, I can't blame me, I'm full of my brackets so she can cover up with more. And the pain when I was just about to wake up, you were far away with her. I am like a wanderer who is stricken by love, where else can I stop home if my house already has inhabitants? the door that was promised to be tightly locked was still locked when I came home, but there was already someone inside, even I was forbidden to enter it. I used to be the night that always accompanied you, giving beauty with the stars before finally leaving me was your choice. I don't know how much I'm going to end up loving you so much, but you left me so easily. I have now come to keep my promise not to leave you, even though it is hard to let you leave me"

Alya let go of his embrace, Afkar wiped away the tears that were still flowing at will, peeling Alya's forehead.

" The tears will continue to flow to the horizon, poignant piercing the heart without saying goodbye, my inability to survive and defend, as I am today when I am unable to give. Forgive my foolishness that tries to make you smile in all my ways, not because I do not know you well until I do something that does not please your heart. In life, sometimes we will get what we don't want, not even get what we want, and it happens to us now, how strong can I make what we want to get? or eliminate what has been gained to make it nothing? We're talking destiny, not feelings"

" Alya, destiny and time were once on my side and brought me together with you. We're a pair of destinies that were waiting for each other yesterday, still longing for each other, but now you're keeping that to me, while I'm still praying that you're still my destiny"

" Don't blame me ka, how can you run from yesterday alone, so it looks like this is just my fault, can you remember something from the beginning, where was kaka when I was hoping to fast-knit? it's already Alya hate to have to remember the mistake of delay, let all these mistakes be enough on me, and let it be strange, no need to look even"

Afkar kissed Alya's fingers

" I know the cause of all this I, right you said we'd be tired and hateful when we remember the newbie from my delay until you become like this"

Alya didn't want to let go of her gaze from Afkar, your shady eyes that I long for, came tonight to cool down, to cool down, can I continue to be able to stay there like I fell in love with you for the first time in a city park that night, until now the shade that has given me so many times a sense of comfort and protection, a sense of comfort?? I was very familiar with the word, comfortable to look for him and them, have I ever asked what comfort meant to me?

Afkar picked up the plate and scooped up the rice, slowly giving the spoon filled with rice to Alya's mouth

" We eat a plate together, so save, hehehe"

Alya wiped out the new tears in the cauldron but flowed again

" Yes ka"

Afkar feed it into Alya's mouth then into his mouth again, over and over until the plate is empty.

" There's still one more plate of rice, will you go?"

" It's full, I'm just kaka"

" I'm full too"

Afkar looked at Alya who had finished with his cry and was now looking at him as well

" What can we fix Alya again?"

" Nothing is broken from our relationship, why should it be repaired?"

" That means we're really over?"

Alya just shut up, tell me what can make me strong and still be able to keep you. Tell me what you're gonna do

" I cannot force you who are born in the midst of a happy family, those who give birth and raise you, to be a baby and a darling, those who lead you on a winding path.

His words are the dictionary and instructions of your life, shelter in the shade of do’nya, even under the soles of Heaven, teach you with maturity and always want your happiness. Even to fall in love you take a long time so as not to be wrong, all things suffered so that they know you are always with those who love and make you safe and comfortable. You obey the rules, a good child will not be stubborn let alone disobedient. We are from a different world, what does it mean that I have just known you and rushed to ask for your heart and even your soul. I know you'll be strong, break your own heart just be brave, just don't be the parents we hurt. Let it be this way, the heart will be able to heal its own wounds and let love take control. Learning to accept my destiny is not your destiny"

Alya is getting broken listening to Afkar's resignation, don't you still want to fight like you said yesterday? when I'm blamed for saying I'm not as bad as you think

" False in terms of letting go will never be perfect, but if it continues to hold and will make us unhappy because there is no blessing where good? what I love most about an arrival is the departure of something I can't prevent and then disappear for me to let go. Sometimes we have to let go of things not because we give up but understand that there are things that cannot be forced"

" Ka Afkar doesn't want to meet Kevin and talk to him?"

" Speak what?".

" Say we love each other"

" For what? you think I'm the only one sick now? he is also not completely safe. I have to let go and he who is defending is both struggling. Where is the pain of having to let go and pretend sincerely, with who maintains but knows his lover's heart can not be mastered?"

Alya still did not finish thinking, you why did you? from just talking about letting go and mengikhlaskan? the parting words I say can still be unplugged, as long as you appear as a shield in front of me, since looking softly at your eyes and being in your arms, I become this brave, I am ready to oppose this, I am ready to oppose this, I'm strong against anyone who gets in the way, but you cripple my power. I want you to say let's fight together like you said yesterday.

" I'm deliberately coming now because I want to calm down first, I don't want to make the wrong decision, if you want to, I've taken you away right now, we're headed to a place where no one else can find us, we're starting a real life. But for what? can we be happy, can we be happy? how are we going to introduce our children as their grandchildren, where we can kiss the hands of our parents and ask for their forgiveness, how is their prayer always for our good? for the selfishness of the world".

" If you have accepted this, why come? can I just call Alya? this arrival just hurt you"

" I've come to you well, our meeting starts from introductions, handshakes, even your weird story in the city park, I brought you breakfast, your head bump, our misunderstanding on the eve of the new year, that's the beautiful part, Alya, why did I close by just calling you without looking at you, without shaking your hand, it could be that simple? I don't want to. I want to be really real to see you and make sure you're strong enough to accept this, that this breakup is not because we hate each other, even if there's no breakup that's not painful and good, either, it must be painful to live it even if it ends as sweetly as possible"

Alya plays her fingers, Kevin grabs the fingers

" I'm sorry I haven't had time to buy you this thing that should have been on your ring finger, if tomorrow you've got it from someone else, take care of it well, don't bother anyone else, hehe"

Alya looked at Afkar, your jokes hurt me a lot

" A, are you going to find a replacement after this?"

" Why?"

" Alya doesn't want to"

" You've got someone else, why am I banned?"

" Alya is not willing"

" I imagine you're not willing, but you did and I can still breathe right now, right?"

Afkar stroked Alya's hair

" If destiny is indeed for us however we are apart we will surely be together again"

" If not?"

" We'll start now, you'll be given a much better one".

" And will you get the better of Alya?"

Afkar smiled

" Well, baby, I still love you so much, I never even thought of looking for anything else?"

" Really?"

" Yes, but you just gave me an idea, I got a new thought"

Afkar pinched Alya's cheek

Alya spread her head over Afkar's shoulder and was greeted with Afkar's arm

" Ka, will you not contact Alya again?'

" How good?"

" Alya will miss you so much Afkar"

" Learn not very much anymore, slowly we will get used to it"

" What if someday Alya will say unhappy?"

" You'll be happy"

" If not?"

" You'll be happy with everyone"

" If,,,"

" Think well, then all will be well, believe me"

" When to go back to Surabaya?"

" Morrow morning"

" That means this is our last meeting?"

" I don't know"

" Why for a second?"

" I don't have a house here anymore"

Alya hugged Afkar's body tightly

" We don't have to look for each other, let fate find it. Can I still call you occasionally to ask you how?"

" Alya always waits for that ka"

" Whoever you will live your life, be well and happy".

Alya took off her embrace

" Ka Afkar too, fine everywhere. May this not be our last meeting"

" Aamiin"

Alya kissed Afkar's right and left cheeks, this time so hard, without crying, without a puff.

" Whatever happens later after this, Alya promises to be more mature, will prepare stronger and no longer spoiled. Alya will be a tough woman, and whenever fate will find it comes, ka Afkar will find a new Alya"

" No need to force change, everything will go its own way. Alya, I remember the first time you came to my place, you said I was the sweetest OB, is that still true?"

" Why?"

" If it's still true, maybe after this I'll spread the charm so I can quickly get your replacement, hehehe"

Alya was silent, Afkar was astonished

" Not punch me, or pinch me?"

" Just do as you like now, Alya is nobody anymore"

" Statistically we are nobody anymore, but you are MY TRUE LOVE"

Alya clasped Afkar's hand, and vice versa, let's just like this, don't go and don't take me home, I don't know how my life is tomorrow, whether it stays like mine yesterday, if it stays like mine, can there still be cheerful and laughter. I can't even say anything to you anymore, my moans won't even run out for a thousand full moans.

Nights,

Skies, skylines,

Moon, moon,

Star, star,

I pamper

Take care of the one I love very much

Sleepover

Eliminate fatigue

Decorate the dream

Keep it from his nightmares

Listen to me when she tells you

Don't scold him if he's wrong

Don't leave her when she cries

Always whisper every time he asks

I always loved her, my Alya.