Angel In Poetry

Pamit of Other Men

Alya's black cell phone is placed on the dashboard of her white car when Alya and Kevin are getting ready to go home and are still in the parking lot for the ride home, Alya played a video recording of Kevin taking mineral water in the cafeteria this afternoon

" Ciyeee, the way is so strong"

Alya instantly comments as soon as the new video plays as Kevin stands up from his chair.

Approaching the table of the fullcolor gangs and nodding

" Whahha, look at that ka whose blonde hair immediately glared at his eyes"

Kevin laughed and watched

" Kaka is flirtatious, why nod your head?"

" It's not flirtatious, just to be polite Alya"

" ooh"

Returning to the chair and tiiing, a spoon fell from the table, both laughing

" Whahaa, fortunately only a spoon, try if the glass plate and his friends yes ka"

" It turns out I'm also interesting if recorded like this"

" Fair"

" More interesting original or recording?"

" The real dong"

" Chaa"

" Why laugh?"

" It turns out you're my admirer secretly too"

Alya pinched Kevin's arm

" Whafs"

" In that video I look handsome no?"

" Yes"

" What's original?"

" Cute"

" Hehe"

Alya was shocked, thrown that word as well

" geeer"

" No, it's common"

" Compulsive"

" Sightly is not cared for, let alone not handsome, Al, hahaha"

Alya laughed

Kevin laughed at Alya's behavior which made him very happy

" We're going home now?"

Alya nodded.

The car slowly came out of the parking lot, Kevin opened a little window glass as he passed the guard post and nodded

" Good afternoon, good luck on the way"

" Thank you".

Kevin closed the window.

Alya was stunned by Kevin's attitude

" Ka, how polite are people?"

" Can't it?"

" It's okay, Alya likes it"

This afternoon you did not realize Alya, how many compliments you have said.

" I'm going to Bandung tomorrow"

" So, he said after graduation"

"There are still two weeks, I'm good at studying again, I've been living"

" When again?"

" Ahead of graduation".

Alya stared beside the window, there were dots of water starting to fall from the gray-colored clouds under the sky.

" Mimple ka"

" Yes, this is what I'm worried about if I'm not around, your body, your laptop, your files, your phone, where you'll take shelter. By leaving this car at least I know you'll be safe without rain"

Alya turned to Kevin, you think so? why I don't know.

" During the thesis later, we do not know what terrain you will face, how far you will go, and the time sometimes we can not determine, he said, I don't take it easy to hear you're still on the road at night on a motorcycle without me, your friends will be just as busy. With this you will be safer"

Everything Kevin said was true, I've seen when Cici wrote, how busy he was, but there was an Anji his lover who could always accompany him. Sometimes Cici comes home late at night because he has to fix his report with his friends. Even sometimes they will remind the meal because if it is in front of the laptop mba Cici will forget the time.

" Why are you worried about Alya?"

" Because I'll care about the people I love".

Kevin glanced at Alya who was looking at him

" I'm sorry that my treatment is sometimes over yes, but I just want you to have no trouble, I want to keep looking after you, but now I'm going to leave you at your crucial moment like this, if my company could be here, or your college could move to Bandung, I would have done it"

Alya bowed, why is this like flashback?

I've experienced this before, with Afkar.

But why the departure of Kevin this time is very different, for 8 months less a month we break, we are always together, whatever needs you meet ka, any needs you always help, whatever needs you always help, from big things to trivial things you never refuse to even always offer, you are always busy to clear up my complaints which are sometimes also very unimportant. Although there was really no feeling of love in it, but I started to depend on you, and today I started to think, what were you doing just now when you left me in the room? you must have done something so that during this internship I remained comfortable, even in my own papah office. I don't know what or who you came to.

Kevin turned to Alya who was down, the car pulled over to the side of the road which was not too crowded because the motorcyclists stopped because of the rain, the ones on this road are only cars that are not too many in number.

Kevin stopped the car

" Alya, why?"

" It's okay, why stop?"

" You were told to daydream, sick?".

Alya shook her head

" No ka"

" Snake?"

" No"

" Why dream?"

" Hmmm, Alya just thought about what I said earlier"

" I'm sorry, did I hurt you, Alya?"

Alya smiled

" No ka, instead Alya apologized for too much trouble kaka all this time"

Kevin grabbed Alya's right hand and grabbed it

" It will never trouble me, even if you want anything else I can do"

Alya smiled, totally flashback

" As long as I'm far away, someone call me whatever you need, if I'm late, call Pa Budi, he'll be ready to help you"

" Having arrived too late?"

" I'll try as much to come home to see you".

Uupps, why does this simple phrase make my legs shake?

" I could've called and even filmed a call, but it doesn't seem right to me because it's Afkar's way, other than your heart, your phone and everything else is his. I don't want to use the same way"

Alya took her hand out of Kevin's grasp

" Alya's gonna be okay ka"

" I will take care of you every sleep, sleep as well as you want, I will endure the pace of time does not pass, so that your dreams are always beautiful, not disturbed by the things that cause your tears. Sleep and sound, no need for restless movement, there I take care of you as much as I can and as much as I am present"

Kevin lifted Alya's chin to look back at her. Alya smiled.

Ka, I don't know what this is feeling, but I'm sure it's not love.

" Ka, thanks for this comfort, Alya was treated very kindly happily. But it looks like Alya feels happier if you're here and not going"

Finally this unspoken word came out as well, stupidly meu.

Kevin again grabbed Alya's hand and kissed her, this time he won't put it out again

"Alya my love, I know my feelings have not been reciprocated at all, and I will never force for it, but just tell me you miss, you miss, then I'll have a million reasons to go back to your city and go home. I also believe my love will be able to give light to even blind eyes. Although my longing is not yet captured, even though my love is not yet considered, but I will survive on all the feelings that I have been cared for, I will, only God can bring us closer. I'm also still learning to wait patiently for you to have the same longing for me. Right now, I can only kiss you without kissing, hug you without hugging, even give you all the feelings without you feeling.

Every now and then, come to my heart, I have entertained and prepared many dishes"

Alya shook her head

" Alya had already stopped by in a simple small shop and sipped the thirst-quenching water with her lover ka, as comfortable as any dish after that Alya would not enjoy it because this stomach was filled"

" But it hasn't filled you yet"

" It's enough to make us walk again".

" You are a poem that flies like a seagull every day that I go through, and I am a reader who knows no punctuation so I have trouble spelling out the characters, not your fault, when sometimes I have to pause because my sight and soul hurt to continue the story. My brain and my heart are sometimes not very good at working together, whether this is true happiness, or my imagination is too well-trained to make it up, just by looking at you smiling my heart will come back strong and not need a glass for me to reflect can it still continue? Or do I have no choice but to fight for you? And then my brain always grumbles, is it happy that way? Then my heart always answered, I'm always happy to be able to share the day with you even though I don't share my heart.I'm sure keeping you is not an option, but a decision"

" Ka, don't be this tired, right now you know the end, right?"

" Yes, for now, even if you choose a path that never passes through the door of my heart, but what if one day your journey gets lost and then rests in my arms, knock on my door and I'll give you a blanket I've been preparing for so long to warm up your exhausting journey"

" Why not just give up ka, we won't get lost as long as the roadman doesn't change his direction"

" I'm fighting for someone who fights for others, but every time I see your smile as my source of strength, 250 days I sit next to you and keep you enjoying every moment with us, Your shoulder I always prepare for the harbor where your head when you, even though you never want to lean on it, want me you can fall accidentally, and you can feel comfortable as well as the other shoulder. But still not, even though I know sometimes you're good at it. You are close but always make a distance and do not want to get close. You exist but sometimes make into nothing.

I always wait for him to be the only face that you look fixed, the fact is that you let it be concentrated, am I still something that does not attract your attention? An inaudible greeting, or do you deliberately close your ears to wake up? My existence is invisible, or do you really not want us to be closer?

It must be the extent to which I touched your heart, or perhaps at least you didn't rush past from my side

Then, when I am already in love, this feeling must be kept in which part? While in your heart, I kept feeling her direction.

Are you too far away for me or are you deliberately always running away? Because I showed myself over and over again, you still don't care. What if this is not for a while? What if I set this heart forever, even though I find no certainty? Perhaps it is too hard for you to care, while it is too easy for me to give heart. Sometimes I have to break my interests.

Hopefully at some point in time you will know that I have always wanted to be wanted, and hopefully not too late.

Falling in love is still a feeling of happiness, if hurting is not his fault but my fault is very ambitious, hoping me and you will be us. My hope is not easy for you to realize, because you have not been aware of it, or never wanted, my hope is still dependent because your answer is to have someone you have to defend. I was ruined because I loved you with such great love, did I waste time on this, did I have to finish and let you go? And my heart goes back to saying, I can still fight not let. I'm still stubborn and don't want to stop chasing you. I still have a chance your heart is willing to have, pursuing the possibility that could exist after this"

Alya's tears could not be restrained anymore, either with what purpose, Kevin erased with his finger.

" Who am I? why should I be the beggar for you to give heart? Didn't I ask you to live our lives first. Wasn't it me you gave the answer to first? And I received your answer that the heart I asked you not to give, but I also asked for time for payment if I betrayed you, just look and measure after this as much as possible and how easily I will be able to fight for you"

" Don't, don't make Alya more guilty"

" I'm leaving, I have to tell you everything so you know there is another heart waiting for you as well besides the one you've been proud of"

" Alya didn't ask for it"

" But we both started it"

" Don't blame us"

" No, not love, not you, but me".

Kevin glanced at the watch in his hand

" Already approaching magrib, we stop by the mosque first, we have dinner outside, yes, aunty phone so he does not worry"

" Not going straight home?"

" I still can't be apart this fast"

Alya took her phone which was still on the dashboard of the car and pressed the phone call button. Before returning to wipe away her tears, why can I cry for this, what's wrong with me? Where am I who is asserting that nothing will change my heart, what is this??? kevin's part this time why make me crumble like this? I have to hold on to the rigors of my heart, she's not who I am.

" I'm coming home soon, baby"

Alya looked over

" Can I call you back, baby? I miss saying it to you"

Alya smiled

" It's up to you"

I want to be able to in this state Alya, when I say you look to start awake, yesterday you just sleep, even though you have not yet woke up at least you start to know that I exist. I'll be patient Alya.