Angel In Poetry
Don't Present Him Again
Finished bathing and praying magrib Alya broke down, staring at the new cell phone that was beside him.
My lost contact, siaaaal!!! Alya slammed her pillow. I didn't hear Afkar's phone, didn't I promise to call him? He said he was waiting for me, I hope Afkar will contact me. What did he say, not in Surabaya? where is he now? Ka Kevin you treated me so gently but gripped me like this, you are angry because ka Afkar contacted me, you are not forbidding and not rude at all to me, but no contact you delete like this, this means that you are already very upset and remind me to no longer relate to him in any way, is that it? you could have asked me not to buy me a new smartphone to buy my heart. Actually it would not be useful if I memorize no Ka Afkar, and worse I do not memorize it. Surely you Kevin has considered and has believed so careless I am with a shipment like this.
Ka Afkar, why haven't you contacted me all this time? you said you'd appreciate my relationship with Kevin, I didn't call you either because I didn't want to add more hurt to your heart. But honestly I miss him so much you know, I always look at my phone screen every morning hoping for your greeting, no more poetry, no need to praise me anymore, just say hi, and the whole world will be beautiful to me. This feeling never dies, the sadness that keeps leaning on the heart. But I never regretted it. I was lost in the illusion. I can even cry bravely.
A phone call
" The Assalamualaikum ka"
" Greetings waalaikum, baby I'm ahead"
" Yes wait, Alya get off"
Alya just realized that since then just lay down and forgot Kevin will come. Stand up and look at yourself in front of the mirror. Hey, my cheeks are wet, I'm crying?. Alya wiped away the unwitting tears of when it fell. Get down the stairs and see Kevin already sitting on his porch
" Dosiness, dear? her eyes moist?"
" Yes ka"
Alya smiled
" We eat yu, I'm hungry"
" Alya ride first yes"
Kevin nodded.
And as usual the new ritual when walking with Kevin Alya will change his costume and appearance.
Kevin starts running Alya's car.
" Where do we eat, baby?".
" Whatever"
" There's no answer other than whatever"
" You know better taste"
" Dear, sometimes I want to fight, I've heard your nagging"
" Would you mind fighting?"
" Yes"
Kevin smiled and wanted to flirt
" Well, now answer Alya's question, why are Alya's contact numbers all deleted? Alya knows that Kevin just wants Alya to be out of touch with Ka Afkar, right? Shouldn't Kevin be asking Alya to just delete one contact's name without another? and there's no need to buy Alya a new smartphone"
Kevin used to pull over the car and open the left window
" I'm sorry, I want to be angry, but I can't be with you"
" Just get angry, Alya wait now"
Your challenge is so trivial Alya if someone else challenges me, but it always won't be if you. Kevin looked at Alya's long-flat face and lost his blankness, at this time he returned to see that.
" I'll never be mad at you, whatever the mistake, so I'll take it out on something else, why don't I ask you to delete her phone number? because it is impossible, do you want me to see your tears come back in front of me for her sake, and then you will shower me with insults as if I am guilty and too restraining you, then you'll freely say that I'm possessive, won't you?"
Alya bowed
" Dear, I'm your girlfriend, and she's your ex, I'm sure I'll keep my distance for you guys, I don't want this thing you've tried to end and start from zero again"
Alya just looked to her left side and threw away her face
" Hear me Alya, any man will act like me, I have been waiting for you this long, then you decide, I am very happy and will definitely take care of you, and sorry if I was wrong, is there a man like me who even my anger should be able to vent? I'm even more pampering you so that you want to give more flavor to me. I want to ask, am I winning or am I getting defeated?
Alya did not want to comment, still with silence
" Dear, you took it off, whether he let you go or not is his business, but now you're mine. I will take good care of what I already have, I don't want you to be touched by it in any way. I've chosen you, but like a loser, I didn't get your love until now, no attention, not even to ask me how I was, not when I was with him, your hands and eyes can't be separated from your phone and chat with it"
" Don't compare ka"
" I just want to get a little Alya's love treatment"
" Ka, has it been since I had Alya, Alya ever refused? Alya always says right?"
" Right, and all the words are up to you it's like making me mean nothing, you're almost a doll that I've always wanted to be"
" Alya according to wrong, Alya fought wrong, what should?"
Sounds like a groan
" Since this has gone too far for Alya, can you refuse? you can give me an idea, don't shut up".
" Alya is afraid of being wrong again, Alya's life has come to this due to Alya ka's mistakes"
" Alya, I got you but it's like losing you"
Alya turned to Kevin who could not look at her since
" Dear, go back to the same Alya you used to be. I missed you"
" Ka Kevin who turned Alya like this, why ask to return it again?"
" I turned you into a respectable woman, preparing you to be a trend center, once we're married believe that spies will be on you and your movements will be watched, so be kind, attitude, but not this attitude that I want Alya. Now you seem to be making me the cause of the change that I don't want to be this severe "
" Curried?".
" Yes, severe for our psyche Alya"
" we're fine"
" It can't take long for you to hold something and then you turn it into a gesture of resignation, then slowly you make me the cause, while I struggle desperately to give everything to get your attention and love, but being a wasted man"
" How better? Alya's ready for whatever Kevin says".
" I'm not going to order anything, I just want you to be able to give me just as little as you've ever given her"
" Don't want to be her, hurt you"
Alya pulled the tip of her lips smiling bitterly
" Of course I don't want to be him, I'm still grateful to be myself, I just want a little bit of your attention and love"
Alya stared fixedly at Kevin who seemed to love him, this had somehow become his request that I know, I forgot, but it was still the same.
" Alya has been trying for a long time, and this is still trying, Alya started by asking what Kevin's request is, maybe this has been a good start"
Alya tried to smile perfectly. Kevin hugged Alya with his sad feelings
" I trust you and trust you so much, please don't involve her in our relationship anymore dear, I'm building a palace for us, for our children, for our successors, for our successors, help me with your love"
Kevin let go of his embrace and looked at Alya. Alya nodded
" A, Ka,,,"
" Yes dear"
" Alya's hungry"
Kevin pinched Alya's cheek happily
" I miss your simple request this dear"
Alya smiled
" Even if you ask to buy one restaurant tonight, I'll buy them all"
" Don't be so arrogant"
Kevin laughed and started the engine
" If Alya wants to buy a star in the sky, can't he?"
" Can't, please just ask for something else"
Kevin laughs and restarts his car with a new heart, hopefully Alya this time will no longer break the promise. Several times glanced at Alya who was staring straight ahead
" How's the new phone, baby?"
" Alya hasn't tried ka"
" My dear, what else should I buy so as to attract your attention" Kevin scratched his head as if already very confused.
" Maybe one star I can bring to Alya ka"
Alya and Kevin laughed, hopefully tonight this week becomes a beautiful night, Kevin prayer saw there was already a sincere smile from Alya's face.
Sunday morning, Alya was still lying on her bed, it was aching. Last night he came home at 11, Kevin who was happy to take him around, had Alya jokingly wanted to go home because the gasoline will run out, spbu Sunday night did not receive the charging of the car that contained people dating, Kevin replied lightly, if we do not want to fill it, we just buy his spbu, wuuiihh is always easy for him, but about getting Alya's love, will never be that smooth for him.
Alya grabbed the guitar given by Afkar, sat on the top porch while staring down, many people were jogging, I was singing, lazy dance. Unlocking a new phone to find the key to the song, strumming slowly his guitar and start humming
C Am Em's
In my mind long embedded
G
a million shadows of you
C Am Em's
Fainter feels light heart
G
Remembering what you have given
C Am Em's
Time goes slowly to lead
G
in the destiny of my life
C Am Em's
I've been held back enough
G
at the intersection of my past
F C Em's
Try to fight the bitter that I keep smoking
F G
Suck into my breadfruit niche
F C Em's
Try to get rid of the smell of your body breath
F G
Flowing filled my blood rate
[Chorus]
C CMaj7 Am's
It's not all the same .. it's never the same
F G C
What I touch what I sneak up
C Am Gm
As gentle as your embrace .
Dm F G C
No one can be like you
C Am Em's
What this life means
G
I was caught in nothingness
C Am Em's
Everything is weak without rest
G
Just lean on you
C Am Em's
I can't, I really can't
G
replacing yourself with himself
F C Em's
Try to fight the bitter that I keep smoking
F G
Suck into my breadfruit niche
F C Em's
Try to get rid of the smell of your body breath
F G
Flowing filled my blood rate
[Chorus]
C CMaj7 Am's
It's not all the same .. it's never the same
F G C
What I touch what I sneak up
C Am Gm
As gentle as your embrace .
Dm F G C
No one can be like you
[interlude] F C 2x C
G Am F's
[Chorus]
C CMaj7 Am's
It's not all the same .. it's never the same
F G C
What I touch what I sneak up
C Am Gm
As gentle as your embrace .
Dm F G C
No one can be like you
C Am
Until when do you keep holding on
Gm Dm G
Until when you drown
C Am
Until when you should be released
Gm Dm F G C
Open your eyes and let your heart go
A phone call surprised him
" The Assalamualaikum ka"
" Greetings dear Waalaikum, have you taken a bath?"
" Hehehe, not yet. It's playing guitar again"
" Ooh, I'll be there in a minute, take me to the airport, I'll take a plane in the afternoon"
" Yes, Alya take a shower first"
" Dandan is beautiful, baby"
" If not and not beautiful?'
" It's so beautiful, so don't dance"
" Hehehe, yes"
" assalamualaikum"
" waalaikum salam ka"
Every Kevin will return to Bandung, it has become Alya's duty to take him to the airport. Every 2 weeks Kevin always comes for her, really for her. And this has been going on for 3 months since his relationship with Afkar ended. Alya stared again at his new phone, no more contact Afkar's name, a big omission of not remembering and memorizing the phone number of someone beloved like this. Call me ka, I'm so waiting for you, what has happened to you in these 3 months? are you okay, ka? did you tell me you already got my replacement? oh no, I can't hear it. The old phone papah purchase is still there, opening the gallery, Afkar's shady face with a smile that until now still makes me tremble with nervousness. Alya kissed Afkar's face on the screen of her old phone.
" I miss you, you know, I still love you so much, wherever you are, may you always be healthy and protected. May we still meet, and may we still be destiny, in a good way. Alya is writing ka, all the current Alya's good guidance lecturers, friends who help Alya are also many, kaka the generation who are willing to give their knowledge, friends who help Alya to the field, and the, alya's hostess friend who always reminds Alya to eat, and especially Arga, Sylvia and Roni, any 2 hours the man will come when Alya needs help. Alya also knew that Afkar always prayed for Alya, as usual, why did Alya know? Alya would often talk to the moon, every night the moon faithfully listen to the story of Alya ka, and the night wind always whispers that ka Afkar is praying good things for Alya, thank you ka. Alya dear ka Afkaarr"
Alya once kissed Afkar's face, after being content to look at him Alya grabbed a towel and went downstairs to take a bath. Soon my king will come, I must be ready to welcome him. And the dress ritual I have to do again.
