An Unwanted Marriage

Fierceness

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Gibran sat in his chair and pulled out a white envelope bearing the name of a famous laboratory and still sealed indicating the letter had never been opened from his briefcase and gave it directly to Andre.

Andre grabbed the white envelope with trembling hands and began to open it.

Just opening an envelope was so difficult for Andre at the moment. "Do you want me to help you ?" asked Gibran, but Andre firmly rejected it.

2 Sheets of paper showing the results of the laboratory tests had been in Andre's hands. His jaw was hardened, his eyebrows were furrowed and his breath was hunting.

"Its not true ! tell me I've been lied to." (this is not true, tell me if I have been lied to) riled Andre while dropping 2 sheets of paper on the Gibran practice table.

Andre lowered his head with 2 hands supporting him. "Please, tell me it's not true. Its not true..." (Please tell me if this is not true) Andre said repeatedly and sounded so bitter.

"Ndre ?" asked Gibran slowly, he himself was confused to see Andre who was talking.

"In... he... a... my son, but how can that happen ?? I always use safety." Andre asked with his face that looked dazed.

"Lo sure you always use safety ?" asked Gibran and Andre nodded his head steadily.

"Lo sure ?" ask Gibran again.

Andre leaned his body against the back of the chair and squeezed his hair with both hands while muttering softly.

"Aahhhhh, shaittt !!!" meaning frustration.

Andre remembers when he came home from Surabaya and found out if Amanda slept with another man made him ride the apoplexy. Several times he forced his will on Amanda without using safety and spilled his body fluids in Amanda who was crying. He did so as punishment for the treason that the woman committed against him.

He remembers anger and jealousy blinding his heart until he treated Amanda like a slave in bed. Not enough with that, Andre also brought some women to sleep with while Amanda was still living in her apartment.

"Is this a valid result ?" andre asked reassuringly.

"Of course, this is a credible laboratory" Gibran replied with confidence.

"Di... He's my son. Aarrrgggghhhhh !!"

It was clearly visible in Andre's head how the helpless and innocent little baby was trying to survive with great difficulty and shortly after his arrival, the innocent baby was gone for good as if waiting for him to come to meet and part on one occasion.

"A.. He lasted a while just to wait for my arrival." lirih Andre staggered.

Gibran took a deep breath, he could not even imagine how Andre was feeling right now. There was not a word Gibran could say for his friend.

"Gue is the most evil man" Andre said, blaming himself.

"Gue didn't know what to say, but everything happened. You have to be able to deal with all this and be grateful because God still loves your chance to change" said Gibran trying to calm down.

"Lo made a promise, he's happy in heaven." Gibran continued.

What Gibran said made Andre feel sad.

"Look at me.." murmured Andre lirih.

"Gue's a sinner, there's no way I can see him again." Andre continued in a frustrated tone of voice.

Gibran did not speak anymore, he allowed Andre to vent his emotions.

Actually Andre is not a man who likes children so much but losing his own baby in a sad way makes him feel something very tight chest.

"The destiny is like this, you must be strong. God loves Lo's child more. We all know what his condition is like, if God gave him a long life he would suffer from his illness."

Andre immediately remembered the reality at this moment. This shameful and quite dangerous disease was still lodged in his body. Either he or Amanda are contagious, but this disease is a curse to him.

Andre listened to Gibran's words carefully. What was said by Gibran is true but which woman would be with him ? He was also disgusted by his own body.

A nurse who became Gibran's assistant today entered the room and said the patient queue had been long enough. Instantly Andre realized that he had been in Gibran's room for too long.

Still with his trembling hands and his broken feelings, Andre put the 2 pieces of paper back into the white envelope and he got up from his seat.

"Andre, who can make you recover is the spirit of Lo himself" Gibran said before Andre left the practice room.

Andre turned his head and nodded at Gibran. Right now he could think of nothing but the guilt that was beginning to haunt him.

***

It's still morning, but Andre can't get through it. He sat in the car and thought of everything.

"If I had solved this problem well with Amanda, this would never have happened. I shouldn't have reciprocated Amanda's actions by doing the same crazy thing but I should have talked about it well of course our relationship will not end tragically." Andre's inner heart.

Andre realized that his jealousy towards Amanda signaled that he had loved the woman even if only for a moment because of disappointment overcame his love.

Amanda is a sinner, and so is she. Had it been that time he invited Amanda to change and forgive all her mistakes of course today the two would have stayed together and their child might have been saved.

"Aarrggghhh." Angrily Andre while beating the steering wheel of his car frustrated.

***

The next night Andre arrived home, the mother had been waiting for him in the living room with a hostile face

"Where have you been all day, huh ? Are you having fun again with the comfort women ? until he did not enter the office." asked his mother in a high voice.

Andre who is still in a state of disrepair does not accept what his mother accuses him of. Without saying much, she handed the white envelope to her mother.

"What is this ?" ask his mother with a face that does not like.

"Open up." replied Andre.

Andre's mother opened the envelope and read it in silence for a while until she finally spoke.

"Thank God he died so we shouldn't be ashamed to acknowledge him as a Tama family."

"Mama !" andre shouted full of emotion.

"What you said is right, Andre. He's just your bastard son with a prostitute*r. Do you think we'll admit it ? sure doesn't. If he lives, I wouldn't consider him a grandson."

"I'm a sinner, Ma. He didn't." Andre replied by enduring the pain in his chest.

"I don't care, He's not a member of the Tama family and you don't over-weep his disappearance and from now on mama forbids you to talk about it again. This is the last time we read your bastard."

"Mommy !!!"

"You will marry a good woman and have another child. So don't you think he's gone."

What his mother said was true but Andre felt unacceptable.

The shadow of his little daughter when she died was always clearly remembered in his head and it made Andre feel very devastated. He knew after this his life would not be easy anymore.

to be continuous & ''Stopped 'em

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