A DIVIDED HEART

Episode 82's. I was jealous

"I'm sorry?" prima asked to make sure and I nodded. William's hand rubbed my back slowly, as if he knew what I was feeling

Indeed, there are worries and also guilt that I now feel, if only bad things happened to Mba Sumi surely I would feel guilty for the rest of my life

"For what?" continued Prima and I also said if I did not just eat the food just like that, of course, the thing that was told by William would never happen, I don't know what it will be like anymore. He has sacrificed so much for me and my family and now may be the time to repay all his kindness

"Don't blame yourself, Nes. It's all happening out of our control, the most important thing now is that we have to stay alert for the dangers that might lurk Sumi next" he said later

"Yes, Nes. Now is not the time to blame anyone, we should focus on keeping the same thing from repeating itself" William said

"You better go home and rest" I shook my head

"I want to accompany him here" I argued later

"Go home first, you need to rest. Tomorrow you can come back here again and tonight let me take care of him, and soon my friend will come here!" pinta Prima once again, I turned to look at William who had been standing behind me, nodding with a smile

"Well, I'm going home" Prima nodded and I got up from my seat and rushed out of the room, but before I also say goodbye to Mother Sumi who until now still unconscious

"Assalamualaikum" someone said a greeting from outside the door

"Waalaikumsalam" answered the three of us in unison and soon entered two men who were sturdy and also muscular, dressed all in black and also with a rather spooky face

Prima then approached the two and introduced them to me as well as to William if they were both friends whom Prima meant to be. William and I met the two of them and after that we rushed out of the room with a relieved heart because Prima had friends at this time

We both walked through the hallway of the hospital which now seemed lonely, there was no conversation between the two of us until at last we both arrived at the parking lot. William himself had gotten into his car but I was still standing there playing my phone and looking for the online taxi I wanted to order. William honking his horn surprised me and stared at him

"Alright" I shook my head

"I've booked a taxi online"

"Taxi online?" I nodded

"Didn't you want me to drop off?" William was still in his car

"I just don't want to bother you"

"I don't feel bothered" William out of his car and approached me who was still playing a cell phone

"Go home first, I've booked a taxi and it's coming soon" I'm still standing by

"It's very late, are you not afraid if the taxi you ride it will bring you into danger. Have you forgotten lately there are often crimes in taxis and most of the victims are women" explained William at length, I looked at him and of course felt a bit afraid of what he had just said, I who was initially sure I would go home with an online taxi now became a little hesitant and also wary

"No!" I refocused myself on my phone, and either by chance or whatever, inside the phone I was holding right now was a news headline about what William had just said. My fear became and now it's a little creepy, William seemed to realize what I was going through

"With Miss Agnes?" Ask the online taxi driver who looks young and I nodded

"Please enter" he continued, but just as I opened the taxi door, William prevented me and closed the taxi door again,

"Will, what are you doing?" He did not answer but just put on a cold face and also stiff, a face that he had never shown but tonight he showed it

He then turned to the taxi driver and said something while giving him some money that he had just taken from his wallet and strangely again the taxi drove away leaving me who had not had time log in without making any statement

"Hey wait!" I ran after him but he was gone, I turned to look at William who was still standing in his place while crossing his hands on his chest

I walked over to William, "What did you tell him, Will. I haven't come in yet and he just left!" I who felt annoyed also immediately nagged William

"Don't I say, don't go home with an online taxi, danger, especially if the driver is young like that. He can do evil to you!" he said without looking at me

I kept quiet for a long time and digested what he said, I know maybe he doesn't want anything bad to happen to me but there's no need to go that far and again what that has to do with the young driver and the evil deeds, until I finally concluded that maybe he did not like me close to other men

"You jealous?" the word just popped out of my mouth, and then I closed my mouth and patted it softly

He did not answer and then hugged me, I was surprised at the treatment he did and tried to let go

"Let it be like this for a moment, I beg you not to dodge" I fell silent and no longer tried to escape

"Do you know, Nes. I worry about you more than I worry about myself, I don't want you to get hurt, I don't want you to get hurt and just so long as you know Nes, I was jealous and also sick when I saw you close to another man even though he was just a taxi driver" William's confession shocked me even more

"That's ridiculous, Will. There is nothing between us anymore. We're nobody else, Will"

"That's what you think, Nes. But for me, until now everything is still the same, I still love you the same when I first fell in love, I still want to keep protecting you and I hope it's not just this moment but forever"

I let go of that hug and then looked at her, "Thank you, Will. But sorry, at this time I still want to be like this, still want to be alone and set the heart"

"I'll wait for him, Nes. Wait until your heart is ready to come back with me"

"But if we can't be together in the end?"

"That won't be possible, Nes!" and he hugged me again, and I just kept quiet and accepted.

To this day I do not understand myself, my heart and my brain. The feeling of love that was once fertile is now dry and there is not even a rest, my heart is dead can not feel love and also affection, he said, being betrayed by someone I trust makes me no longer able to tell which is right and which is wrong. In my heart that remains now only pain and anger, but the pain and anger that never meet the opponent and still continue to settle there

When William hugged me, at the end of the room I saw Prima, who was staring at both of us. What that look was, whether I didn't know, but he certainly didn't get close or leave immediately. The pain returned I felt, the pain of Betrayal re-emerged and flashed clearly in my brain and did not feel any tears sliding