A DIVIDED HEART

Episodes 103. Lemon Tree

"Sorry oma, some days Agnes is working and about my things and also not saying goodbye try asking yourself to the granddaughter of the oma!" I looked at William hoping he would explain everything

William scratched his head that did not itch, he was furious when he got the statement and immediately he said everything including himself who asked me to return

"Then?" ma'am Mariyam said, William and I looked at each other not knowing what the word meant

"Then what, oma?" continued Willy

"When are you getting married?" We looked at each other again to hear the question. My throat felt choked at that time, did not know the answer and what else to give

"We'll get married later, after everything finds the bright spot of the oma. Let us enjoy this time first and again, Agnes just started working let her enjoy the new experience" I was relieved later when Willy expressed that reason, either that's the reason or it's the truth

"Alright if that's your wish, oma can only hope that you will stay together until you age later"

"Amin, oma" I said and Willy simultaneously, somehow I guarantee it, whether my heart really wants it or just wants to make Mariyam mom no longer ask

"It's lunch time, we'd better get Agnes to eat, and we haven't eaten since yesterday" Mariyam's mom told me and Willy

"Didn't you eat?" continued

"Oma's not hungry yet, baby. Oma wants a break"

"But later oma eats, yes. Let oma cepet recover, or oma want to be cooked what will Agnes cook later?"

"Later if you want anything, oma call you?" said oma while confirming the blanket and also her pillow I just nodded and then completely left from there

"Can you make me coffee and bring it outside?" I just nodded and walked towards the kitchen while Willy headed towards the outside of the villa. While making coffee I thought for a moment, since when he consumed coffee, he did not like coffee but why he asked me to make it

Coffee was served at a small table directly opposite the orange garden next to the villa, I had time to find where Willy was until I finally found himself daydreaming looking at the expanse of orange trees that were flowering

"Sum while it's warm, Will"

"Thank you, Nes" he said, then sipped his drink

"Since when did you have coffee, Will. Didn't you like it this whole time?"

"It turns out you still remember what I like and what I don't like" she turned to me, I avoided her eyes and turned the other way

"Why don't you tell me everything from the beginning if Mariyam's mom is your mom and that house isn't a boarding house either" I switched the conversation

"Because I want to protect you and take care of you, I don't want you to stay in just any place that doesn't guarantee your safety and again, I want you to get to know oma"

"You can introduce me to her directly and not in this way" I stood and walked among the dwarf but flowering orange trees

"Are you mad at me for this?" Willy stood up and followed me

"No, I'm not angry. It's just that I wasn't feeling good about him, he asked a lot about us and I kept lying about it"

"Don't think about it" said Willy briefly, then he stopped following me who continued to enter the orange grove, although now the weather was a bit hot but did not dampen my intention to keep going

"Due!" calling her a little loudly, I turned my head and saw her smile. Strange but real, there was nothing funny but he was instead smiling himself indistinctly

He walked up to me, "Don't you want to know why in the middle of a village like this there are villas and orange groves like this?"

"I also wanted to ask the truth but after I thought it wasn't my domain and it had nothing to do with me either" without a cue Willy took my hand and took me back to the place where he left his coffee, an answer I did not get but he instead asked me to sit down

He sat in his chair, "It's hot, Nes"

"Do you know what this garden has to do with you?" I shook my head

"What does this orange garden have to do with me?"

"This isn't an orange grove, Nes. It's a lemon garden"

"Lemon is also a family of oranges" I and William laughed

"I planted each of these lemon trees with my own hands, there was hope I had when I saw them growing and flowering. It's the first time the tree has bloomed after it's grown and I'm so glad you can see it"

"What does this have to do with me?" Again I ask that

"I hope that once the lemon has borne fruit, you will never run out of lemon to make lemon tea. Don't you like it so much?"

Deg, man,

I was silent, that much Willy liked me to the point that he noticed something this small. Things that feel so trivial to me and even I myself barely think about it. All this time I did love lemon tea but I thought if I ran out of lemon then I could buy it at any fruit man anywhere and not be chosen to grow it

There is a pain in my heart, in which I hurt the person who truly loves me to be with the other person who is just using me. Now I know what it's like to be hurt by the people we expect. The hatred came after that but not for Willy, he still continued to expect and even put aside the pain

"Why do you still remember, don't you feel vengeful about me for disappointing you?"

"Because I love you, I've never had the slightest grudge"

"But love is complicated, Will. Not as easy as we think, especially for me who have hurt others, the fear of doing the same thing I still feel"

"But until when, Nes. Until you're in the shadows, things will never change until you try again"

"And that love is not something to try, Will" William stood up and now shifted his seat right in front of me

"Look at me, Nes. Does my love still make you doubtful?" I shook my head

"Then what, Nes. Is it because now I have nothing left so you doubt me even more?" that question made me a little bit inflamed, I also don't know why I'm being so sensitive at the moment and just hearing those words I'm a little emotional, either, I have never looked at a person for his wealth, love is a heart that guides no matter how he is

"You think I've loved you all this time because of what you have, Will. Turns out you misjudged me all along" I then stood up and left William but he chased me and grabbed my arm again

"Where are you going, Nes. We're not done talking?"

"I'm going home, there's nothing more we need to talk about. Apologize to oma for leaving without saying goodbye to her" I took William's hand off and then got into my car, ignited my engine and drove from there. William repeatedly called my name but I ignored it and focused more on the vehicle I was riding

William was in a mess, once again he lost the chance to convince me. The difficult circumstances that he is experiencing now coupled with the turmoil of love that he strives for makes him a roomy person writing in the world. At first he believed that if I came to this place then it was proof that I still had a taste for him, plus the existence of the oma Mariyam who will give us both then with a shocking story that he told me about this place and until in the end he slipped in words that concern his property

What a mess now, he is no longer able to hold me back who is a little offended by what he says, he was worried that if he chased me then he would have to leave the oma who was now not okay but if he did not chase after me then he would lose this opportunity once again and it is certain that my heart would increasingly doubtful to him, the happiness he felt for a moment then wavers without a second because of this misunderstanding

He took his cell phone and contacted someone. Lian, that person is Lian. He did plan to come to this villa after meeting with Dad but it turns out there are other things that he must take care of until the time became a molor and long

William panicked and increasingly unnerved, he also repeatedly went into his oman's room, and, see if oma is awake or still resting but it turns out that oma is still asleep and not happy if you have to wake her even though she can no longer bear to say goodbye and pursue me

Lian arrives almost maghrib, without a warning and a farewell to the oma, Willy asks Lian to stay there and look after the oma

"Where are you going, sir?" Lian looked confused

"Stay here look after oma, and if oma asks you where I am then just tell me I'm having a sudden business" Lian just nodded and looked at her car had now sped away from the villa, mixed feelings are now at war in William's heart and brain but he tries to stay calm through the quiet and winding streets