A DIVIDED HEART

Episode 57's

I let out a rough sigh, trying to throw away the tightness that existed after hearing Prima's explanation which made me feel even more pain than before, coupled with the departure of Mbak Sumi who has been accompanying my solitude during difficult times facing all problems.

Sumi's mother was the first to hear all my complaints, she was always the place where I could tell stories and ask questions.

He became a person I could trust, with all the problems and also whatever it was. But now I have to lose him.

Although I know, I am indeed hurt by what is happening now, but at least if he does not go I can still share the feeling even though I am also hurt because of him.

"Do you have to be this fast, ma'am?" much

"Yes, Non. Before the wedding day arrives, I must be in the village to take care of everything and later after marriage I have to come with the husband" Sumi lowered her head, he said with a soft word and trembled a little.

Hearing the word 'married' spoken by Mother Sumi made me unable to open my mouth anymore. The thing that I should have experienced a few days ago with Willy and maybe the thing that I should have done with Prima, now has to change direction and not know how it ends.

" Well, if it's Sumi's decision, I can only wish Mbak all the best and hopefully Mbak is happy" Sumi nodded

And after that, he asked permission to take all his things that are still in this place, I invited him and he immediately got up from his seat and rushed into his room.

In this living room, now only I and Prima were still shrouded in silence and silence because between the two of us no one opened their voices to start a conversation.

"Agnes," Prima opened her voice

I turned to her who was now sitting next to me, "I know this is all hurting you, but I beg you to forgive me. I didn't mean to make it all this way"

"Yes" I replied briefly with a heart that wanted to be angry and also sick, since I held everything back so as not to hurt Mommy Sumi.

But now that Mom Sumi left I started to show what I felt.

"I thought you were sincere, Prim. But it didn't!" continued later

"I'm too stupid to judge you without knowing the real you, it's my fault, leaving a loyal person to someone who's just pretending" I raised my tone

Prima seemed surprised by what he saw because all this time he had never seen me speak in such a high tone in front of him, but this time I would not cover everything.

After all, if I were to go on a show or pretend to be okay, it would not turn things around from the start just an excuse and not a goal.

Prima looked at me intensely, "Agnes, I'm sorry" she continued

"Why apologize now, why not from before. Do you think it's not all a mistake and do you think others don't have hearts?" I said again with a high tone

"Tell me, Prim. Since when did you find out if Mbak Sumi was working at my place and made you take that stupid action that is now hurting a lot of people?"

"And all that time you lied to me?" Prima nodded

"I'm sorry, at first I did like you and was interested in you but after that time I didn't know what to do either, I liked you but I came back to find the love I had been looking for"

Plaques

I slapped Prima's right cheek but the owner of the face did not react to anything, he was still silent while flat-faced.

"Do it, if it can reduce the pain you feel" Prima said flatly

"I did it not because of the pain I felt, but I did it because I was sick of seeing your innocent but lying face, Prim. Thank you for ever being in my life, even though I finally knew that you were just making me an excuse, and thank you also for making me realize that not all good things are trustworthy!" I got up from my seat and rushed to my room.

Mother Sumi who had finished packing was now still staring at the door of her room while watching what happened between me and Prima.

After I went to the second floor, Sumi tried to call me many times but I ignored her until Prima pulled her out of her house and then left.

...*************...

In the morning, I got ready for my work suit. Black long cloth pants and shirt limited to the elbow light blue, hair that I let down and as a complement I did not forget to polish my face with thin makeup.

I set my foot out of my house and then grabbed the helmet I had been preparing since morning.

This morning I was planning to take a motorcycle to work which is not too far away. The distance from my house to my place of work only takes 25 minutes.

Putting aside all the things that happened yesterday, I am now back excited to start a new life.

Living by my own work and also living the way I wanted, I was determined to no longer think about my previous love so I could achieve what I had dreamed of.

Last night, I called Dad and told you that starting today I'm going to work and I'm not going to stay home either, because I decided to look for an index place that was close to the company where I worked.

At first I didn't let you, but after I tried to explain everything, slowly he also understood and gave permission even though on condition that I have to go home every week because from now on Dad will settle back in Jakarta and not again abroad.

Twenty-five minutes passed, and I arrived at PT. SM BEAUTY, the first company that will be my first place to work.

The company that is almost on all sides of this place is made of glass so that we can see the activities that occur inside and outside this office.

The building still looks new because the company was just established about two months ago and he said only selected people can work in this place because the owner is so selective and thorough in receiving officers.

I then walked into a room that was indeed a place where I would work, with a happy feeling I stepped steadily into the room that was right in front of the Director's room