There is No Need for Love

Q2: Trying to Be a Good Dad

Haris had repeatedly turned back his body, but still did not find the right position, still unable to sleep as well. Finally, Haris sat back down, again repeatedly sighing, even less know why he even had trouble sleeping, his mind was chaotic.

Haris leaned his body against the wall while sitting on the bed, the thought of Asrul who had not thought to work was really disturbing Haris mind, he clearly found the unrest in his daughter Risda, Risda, that was also what gave birth to the long restless Haris.

Haris pinched his forehead which began to feel dizzy. Haris really wanted to invite Asrul or Agung to talk about this, but that was, Haris was afraid this even gave birth to distance between them, do not be happy with it, do not be Great who asked Asrul so.

Regarding household affairs, Haris always wry, Haris minded when talking about building a happy household, how Haris gave advice about it, while he himself never experienced it properly, he said, even Haris had a bad experience with it.

Haris glanced at the clock in his hand, then Haris's eyes also led to the clock hanging on the wall, the same, the same shows at 22:00 WIB. Haris mind drifted away, Haris grabbed his phone, although it seemed a bit doubtful, finally Haris also press Lufti number.

“Ngapain Lu, disturb people only ?”.

Haris laughing. “It's done swimming ?”.

The lufti laughed. “Damn Lu. What's up ?”.

Haris first sighed and then told Risda everything about Asrul to him earlier. Haris told him everything in full, with no one to miss, Haris felt, for now only the Lufti was the most appropriate to talk to.

The lufti sighed. “We see the positive side only Bro”.

“Yes, I get it. But ..”.

Lufti. “Ris-fr. There is a distance that we need to understand, we are in the position of in-laws, we also do not know what is in the mind of Agung, or do not be Great who asks so”.

Haris again sighed, he also had such a guess, but still Haris felt it was not right if the married man had not thought about work, whatever the reason, according to Haris it was not appropriate.

“Cock silent Lu ?”.

Haris nodded back. “Ndon't know Luf, don't know what to say.

The lufti sighed. “Iya is also indeed”.

“Iya what is ?”.

Lufti laughed a little. “The attitude of Asrul is not accurate. But Ris, sorry yes, the feeling of the cave, Lu's son-in-law is a good boy, not strange. Even if something's weird, maybe it's Ris”.

“Entah Luf”.

Haris and Lufti are equally silent, the Lufti is also less sure what to say, this is a new case for the Lufti, because he has never experienced, or even heard of it recently, this time, the Lufti was confused.

Widya took over the Lufti phone. “Bang ..”.

“Iya Wid, why ?”.

“Abang do not think too long that, not necessarily the contents of the head brother the same as what happened actually. Do not let, due to brother's unrest, even open the problem, which should be no problem, so problematic”.

Haris mused a bit at Widya's words. “Abang only nerusin Risda unrest Wid only, not more”.

“Widya understand Bang, understand very well. But, this kind of sensitive problem Bang, this is a small problem, which Widya asks, do not even us make it big”.

“What does Wid mean, brother so dizzy”.

“Bang .. Bang. Did you already know the contents of Bang Agung's mind with Kak Meeta, not yet ?. We equally do not know the content of their minds, why we even discuss it far”.

Haris nodded again. “Iya also Wid”.

“Or, what is it difficult if you give everything to Risda, let her husband, why not think about work, why should involve us first. Risda it's not just our daughter now bang, she's also the son-in-law of people, the wife of people”.

“Iya, yes. Brother knows Wid”. Haris nodded again. “The problem is Risda claimed not to dare nanya Wid, reticent he said”.

“Widya anyway up to Bang, want brother bullshit or not Widya abstain. Which Widya hopes is just that, do not we even make problems in our daughter's household that actually has no problems, that's all Bang”.

Haris was confused. But, what Widya said was a lot of truth, maybe for Agung it was not a problem, what when he later asked her, not even a problem, as Widya said, instead opening up the problem. Haris knitted his forehead, what did Widya say right ?.

“Gua thought, we just calm down Bro, Lu do not have to prank me first, let the cave that talks first to Asrul, how ?”. Lufti is back who holds his phone.

Haris nodded back. “I mean so is Luf”.

“Okey, later the cave that talks, Lu just shut up first”.

Lufti laughed a little. “Tomorrow ?, which is true, where is Lu ?”.

Haris laughed a little. “At home Agung”.

“Damn, when did Lu come?”.

Haris laughed again. “Yesterday night I slept at your neighbor's house”.

“Sialan”. The lufti returns. “Yesterday Lu at Lia's house, how can I ?”.

Haris laughed again. “Can't ?”.

“Daddy Sih”.

Lufti laughed again, just remembered that he and Widya had just come home this afternoon, it was only natural that he did not know Haris yesterday here, but it was a long story with Natalia, it was a long time ago, he didn't talk about Haris at all.

“Tomorrow to meet where Ris ?”.

Haris long replied, still a bit confused. “Where to think ?”.

“Lu not here anymore is indeed Ris ?”.

Haris laughed again. “Iya. But I was there in the morning, you've been to school, where we met”.

“Unfortunately can Bro ?”.

Haris laughed again. “My flight eleven hours Luf”.

“Back tomorrow means ?”.

“Iya”.

Lufti who swore. “Tomorrow morning cave telephon, Lu just wait at Agung” house.

“You're here means Luf ?”.

“Iya, just wait for tomorrow”.

“Okey”.

Telephon closed, Haris again laid his body, it would be very good if the Lufti was willing to ask Asrul, but once Haris still was was, was, hope the Lufti conveys it well without bringing his name and the name of Risda of course.

Haris felt that, whatever it was, Asrul did have to get advice, or at least Haris could know what was the reason Asrul had not thought about work, or why Asrul preferred sleep rather than helping his father's efforts, or why Asrul chose to sleep instead, Haris felt that someone should advise or guide him.

The problem is Haris feels, he is not at all appropriate to advise or provide guidance anyone about the affairs of the household, because Haris is sure, he is not at all worthy of it, he is not worthy of it, the household that Haris once built, which brought Risda to him was a mistake.

Even to this day Haris still regretted it, it's just that it's impossible to continue to survive in frustration, especially now that there is Risda, at least Haris must understand one important thing, Risda is his son, Risda, his flesh blood, whatever Risda's problem is the problem.

Back Haris pinched his forehead, he sat back down, now realized what his goal was to get here, Haris glanced at the clock in his hand, already at half-twelve p.m., already, it's even been a few minutes.

Now that the plan will increase, Haris remembers the amount of savings in his account, it feels still quite a lot, it would be better to move the money to the Risda account, he said, just leave a few for the benefit of this month, anyway next month will payday again.

At present, in Haris' head how to be a good father, how to give strength to his daughter, although as Widya said, Risda is now not just his daughter, but his daughter, but still Risda is his life, until anytime it will fill his pulse.

Haris wants Risda to be happy, happy happy happy happy. Whatever Haris will do to make that happen, Haris believes Asrul and his entire family will be very able to make it happen, but even so, Haris must take part, must be directly involved, because Risda is his breath.

But before long Haris flinched and immediately applauded the eel, why he had forgotten, Haris completely forgot the plan to surprise Risda's twenty-fifth birthday, Haris again breathed heavily, it seemed like all would fail miserably.

How not, there is absolutely no preparation whatever so done by Haris since this afternoon, Haris even joined late in talking with Risda, but with each other, but with each other, Haris has not delivered his plan at all, so it can be ascertained if no one knows.

Haris laughed batedly, laughing at himself, but he had asked Natalia to cover up his arrival, uh .. Haris even nongol in the house of Agung, of course met with Risda, they even talked long, and this is the result, Haris forgot what he planned before.

All the plans Haris had dreamed of were completely unshakable. Haris again breathed heavily for the umpteenth time, there is a sense of regret now, why even talk to Risda for so long, why ?. so that none of Haris prepared for a surprise on his daughter, the daughter, Haris shook his own head and wryly smiled to himself.

Haris repeatedly let out a long sigh, again trying to close his eyes, this time Haris succeeded as well, maybe because he was tired or indeed the night was very late, in the end Haris also managed to get into the dream realm.

…. Connect …