There is No Need for Love

About Dad

Risda from earlier looked at her strange-looking mama, her seat filled with uneasiness, like something was up. It has been repeatedly Risda tried to be indifferent, but his eyes continue to be disturbed by the behavior of his mother who according to Risda many strange.

“Why the hell Ma ?”. Risda finally couldn't stand it either.

Natalia shakes. "Why is it ?".

Risda shook her head, still continuing to be overwhelmed with a strange taste. "Mama that's why, from earlier Risda can not see calm down. What's the matter Ma ?".

Natalia turned her head again. "It's not a problem anyway".

Risda's forehead wrinkled again. "So what is dong ?".

Natalia let out a long sigh, Risda also followed along with a sigh that was the same length. Risda's mind has even gone far somewhere, Risda sure, if his mother is having problems, even Risda has started to guess, do not this economic problem, car loans may be.

“Novel yesterday Ris”.

Risda returned to his head, surprised and feeling strange, why his mother even went back to discussing the novel again. “Novel Papa ?”.

Natalia nods her head. "Yes. Papamu's Novels".

Risda who then became a head gel. Risda felt astonished and saw the behavior of her mother who really thought it was really strange. Why his papa novel was discussed again by his mother, the discussion to the novel is endless. Long time ago Risda who became dizzy himself saw the behavior of his mother.

“You've read the full story, right?”.

Risda back to the head ring. “Already. But .. kok novel sih” story. Risda was grumbling.

“Because it is related to kita”.

Risda's forehead again crinkled sharply. “Which means ?”.

Natalia put down her spoon stop eating. “Novel it tells us Ris..”.

Risda became more attentive to her mother's face, Risda felt quite disturbed because Natalia's tears began to fall quite profusely, had flowed into her cheeks and had even dripped onto the table.

Risda so not necessarily his heartbeat, but honestly, this time there is a sense of annoyance with everything he saw, Risda so got upset because he saw the attitude of his mother who according to Risda is too excessive and should not.

”The main characters in the novel are your Mother, Your Father, and Kamu”.

Risda immediately stopped chewing. His eyes followed his mother who immediately left the dining table. Risda's mind immediately floated far away, Risda was still trying to bribe the food in front of him, but not until five spoons no other mouthfuls were able to enter his mouth.

Risda became deeply moved. Back Risda remembered the story of the novel that he had actually read more than twice, first when he first saw it on the table, second when his mother told him who the author was, next when Risda was still thinking of his mother's speech.

Risda's chest finally thumped and his head pulsed quite strongly. Finally Risda chose right to finish his meal and stood looking for his mother who was so moved earlier did not appear again.

Risda was restrained at the door of the room, Risda's step was restrained because she found her mother sitting down and crying on the bed. Risda was not strong to step in so he chose to step back and sit in the front seat.

Risda hand again grabbed the novel that his mother said by her Papa, Risda read it so slowly, word by word digested by Risda, this time Risda immersed him with full appreciation, Risda said, trying to make that story come true in his imagination.

This time Risda really collapsed, there was not enough strength to withstand the overflow of tears Risda, Risda was really shocked and soon became sifted, he said, even Risda was not aware that her mother was sitting beside her, leaning on the back of a chair and staring at the sky of the house.

Risda turned her head to the side and realized that her mother was beside her, Risda looked at Natalia's face quite fixed, the crisp feeling back to being the master of Risda's heart, the longer she looked at Natalia's face, the longer she looked at Natalia's, for some reason, a deep feeling of pain fell on his head.

“Mama doesn't joke right ?”. Risda tried to convince.

Natalia fixed her seat, shaking her head. “No Ris. Mama never joked about it”.

Natalia nodded her head. “Betul Ris, the story in the novel is real, nothing added at all”.

“So I ..”.

Natalia nods her head, Natalia long looks at Risda, as if gathering her powers. Once again Natalia nodded her head. “Yes. Your father and mother are siblings separated since mom was in utero”.

Risda's head continues to throb more and more pain listening to the story of his mother. What Natalia said was no different from what Risda read in her novel. Risda covered her face with both hands, Risda felt the story was too imposible.

But Risda had no choice but to believe it because it was all she heard from her own mother's expression, it was too strange that Risda was still trying not to harm her.

“So dad where Ma ?”.

Natalia looked at Risda who was also looking at her. “Pak Nas”'s.

Natalia's forehead is getting wrinkled. “Pak Nas ?”.

“How many Pak Nas do you know ?”.

Risda shook her head trying to find answers to her mother's questions, a moment later that imagined in the head of Risda is a person who during his time in Kalimantan always help her, every week comes to help her activities.

“There's one. Long time ago in Kalimantan”. Risda looked to show a doubtful face, very doubtful. “What is the same relationship Mr Nas ?”.

Natalia stared at each other for a long time with Risda, Natalia then nodded her head repeatedly. “That's Dad you”.

Risda. “Pak Nas ?”.

Natalia nodded her head again. “Pak Nas that you know in Kalimantan is Kandung Kama's only brother, he's your biological father”.

Now Natalia was crying while covering her face with both hands. Natalia's shoulders are well-shaken, Natalia can't hold it anymore. Now that she was relieved, had said the thing that had been closed for almost 23 years very closely, Natalia lost her toughness, she was really as eager.

Risda's head was throbbing more, it felt like it was unbearable again, but Risda tried hard to hold back, Risda did not want him to fall as his mother, Risda wanted to try to calm down, Risda did not want to fall as much as his mother, so that his mother does not get late in her sadness.

Risda's mind is now really drifting far, there is a consciousness now approaching Risda, Mr. Nas who he knows always looks clumsy before him, always willing to give what he asks, protect him wonderfully, protect him wonderfully, always be at the forefront of supporting their programs.

“Dad knows about Risda ?”.

Natalia nods her head. “Your father came straight here after meeting you during the 17th Ceremony it”.

“Dad here ?”.

Natalia nodded her head. “Your father wants to make sure about you Ris. He came here to make sure you”.

“So, I know about Risda ?”.

Natalia nods her head. “Know, Very know. Your father also often contacts mama about you”.

Risda shook his head again. “But why during that time I did not talk to Risda ?”.

No answer was heard. Natalia did not know what to say because she did not know what was the reason Haris did not tell or admit about himself to Risda. Natalia never asked about it, not knowing anything about Haris's mind.

… Connect …