There is No Need for Love

S2: The Easier to Feel Stifled

Natalia's departure still continues to imprint in Risda's heart, every night Risda still wants to cry alone considering her mother, Risda imagines how her mother struggled alone for 22 years in high-level simplicity. In fact, his mother was just starting to be able to hold a lot of money and shopping satisfied after meeting Risda and Haris in the interior.

Indeed, after that, Natalia underwent many changes, never to hold back her taste, because Haris's delivery was too much to be spent alone by her, she said, his mother's body also had a good rise because it had a lot of laughter and could be spoiled to his brother Haris, Risda's biological father.

Risda's comfort was also greatly reduced, since the incident fainted twice on the day of her mother's death, Risda was always disturbed by the pounding of her heart that could suddenly beat and even felt so sick. If when the gathering arrives Risda's heart act, Risda pura to the bathroom.

Risda would squat there until her heartbeat returned to normal, sometimes Risda had to wash her face because the pulsation could make Risda sweat cold. Risda tried hard to cover it for fear of other family members being disturbed, fearing all to be restless, so Risda chose to just silence what she felt all along.

“Kakak kok often to the bathroom ?, why Kak ?”. Reni asked.

Risda smiled thinly and shook her head. “Kakak doesn't know Ren either. But there are no distractions, it's just that”. Risda made up stories.

Reni just smile. “If there is something strange, do not leave Kak”.

Risda nodded her head. “Yes, sister can't be diam”.

Risda put on a smile as sweet as possible, Risda does not want others to be so difficult because, as long as it can still be held, Risda promises to hold it. It would be better for everything, according to Risda, happiness is all much more important than her pain that Risda can still endure.

Great long contemplation, now he began to feel lonely, Dahrul has more at school, home school has also been more to the bimbel. It was rare for Dahrul to come with his grandfather, except on Sundays or holidays, even if Dahrul did not go to the house that Asrul built for them.

Everything was so quickly changed, the joy and happiness of the Great who used to be able to play with his grandson was now not as beautiful as that anymore, the circumstances were indeed forcing it, but Agung still felt that everything was too simultaneously, feeling like living alone.

Four months ago, the decision was made. Because it can no longer be allowed to drag on without a direct manager, there are often communication misses that result in management losses, and many other things that are quite disturbing make Agung and Meeta must dare to take steps.

Reni and Iskandar decide to move to Surabaya to handle their grandmother's hospital that is experiencing a lot of trials and disorders, Agung and Meeta believe Reni is able to do that, because Reni has the ability to be firm and even ketus.

It would be very difficult to rely on Mutia in this regard, since the super-soft and pity-free Mutia would not be able to take such an extreme step, but Reni was believed to be able to do that, this is also very welcome, because Iskandar is also continuing his S2 studies there.

The problem now lies in Agung and Meeta. Now to meet their grandchildren Aditya, Agung and Meeta inevitably have to fly to Surabaya, because if you just wait, the two can only meet at least once a week, both of them can only meet at least, that was not a guarantee as well, if Reni or Iskandar have any business, do not come.

Even if Agung and Meeta come, it is no longer like the old days, because Aditya is also in school, can not be freely taken where the time like Agung and Meeta did before. Both must refrain, fortunately Reni and Iskandar every weekend there are no activities, their choice is always to return to Jakarta.

Arvia even further, after getting his doctorate, Faridha followed Farhan to Liverpool. Farhan continued his studies there, as well as working in one of the hospitals there, an opportunity that Farhan did not miss. Although Agung and Meeta have reservations in living Arvia, but it is not possible to separate the grandson with his parents.

Be the Great and Meeta who bear the longing, both are not uncommon to walk together just to entertain themselves, to cafes, around the perimeter and even to the beach. But the second subject remained to his grandchildren, while sitting alone by the beach, instead of looking at the sea, but opened the phone and looked at the photo gallery of their grandchildren.

Agung knows that Meeta also feels the same way as what she feels, longing deeply. The problem was probably, because before this the two had always been side by side with his granddaughter, so the separation had become so painful, so much so, Agung had too often seen Meeta take a look while wiping the clear water flowing from the corner of his eye.

Both of them can only hear and see the ravings of Arvia through a video call, as long as they talk, anyway it is not able to remove the longing of both, because the greatest desire is not just to see Arvia's face or hear her babble, anyway, but hugging and kissing the grandchild's cheek is the real desire.

Agung wiped his tears once after a long call with Arvia, Meeta was actually very touched to hear Arvia singing Indonesia Raya song. But Meeta this time not to cry like Agung, Meeta stroked her husband's shoulder, she knew the Great was the same as her, so long.

“We to Liverpool Bang ?”.

Great looks. “Adek can indeed ?”.

Meeta nods her head. “Kan no Mutia, left for a little week, it doesn't feel what Bang”.

Agung took a long breath. His desire is certainly very big to meet Arvia, Agung is really not able to resist longing, Great nap also can not be comfortable now, often can not sleep at all. The memory of the Great continues to lead to Arvia and Aditnya, especially Arvia, usually during naps like this, Arvia will come to disturb.

Little princess Farhan who looks like Mutia will go up to the grandfather's body, squeeze the Great's nose and kiss Agung not with his nose, but by pursing his lips. Agung will pura sleep until Arvia is upset and increasing interference, finally Agung open his eyes, at that time Arvia will giggle and put his body to the chest of Agung.

How could the Great forget that easily, almost every day the Great stabbed the moment, then arrived there was no more, Arvia lost from the sight of the Great, but that's all, all the memories, all the memories, absolutely can not be lost from the memory of Agung, all of them still close the memory to the others, Agung is still entangled strongly with the shadow of Arvia that continues to disturb him.

Agung also now likes to enter Tomy's room to pick up books he can read, reading into the ultimate Grand impingement he chooses. Tomy understood that, so never locked the door of his room, Tomy even aggressively looking for a new book that Tomy thinks is good to read Agung.

Now it has become commonplace, after the prayers of Isya, Agung, Asrul and Tomy joined in Tomy's room, sometimes the three dissolved with their respective readings, sometimes the same as discussing the contents of several books, and sometimes the same as discussing the contents of several books, this is a discussion forum that attracts all three, especially about religion, Tomy is quite qualified for this one.

Question after question Agung and Asrul can be explained well and smoothly by Tomy. Asrul and Agung do now have a great interest in religious content, because they are both quite weak in this regard, not knowing in detail many things about religious law.

If Mahdan arrives to join, the discussion can turn to legal issues, so Asrul and Agung get answers to one problem from two sides of the law, from the religious provisions and the provisions of the law of the country, so that Asrul and Agung get answers to one problem from two sides of the law, this certainly makes the discussion much more interesting.

Tomy also has a great interest in the issue of state law, the same as Mahdan who is also always interested in discussing the issue of religious law, Mahdan is indeed a Madrasah alumni, but the issue of religious law in detail is certainly not his field, he said, because the religious law that Mahdan knows is only the basic law.’

While Tomy was an alumni of High School, but S1 lectures at the Faculty of Sharia, now also being studied S2 at the same Faculty, so that his religious knowledge becomes stronger than Mahdan. One slick collaboration, so as to make Asrul and Agung get the right science intake.

Great little laugh. “Dad so want to lecture again”.

Great just a big smile, Mahdan and Tomy also laughed, although it felt funny, seeing their parents who wanted to go to college again at the age of 50 years. But both Tomy and Mahdan feel no problem, because there are so many, even older ones are still in college again.

“If you want to go to college again, think what department you want to take ?”. Tomy who asked, who immediately embraced Asrul and Mahdan.

Great little laugh. “What yes?, father is also confused. But maybe like Mahdan only, law, fit ?”.

Asrul, Mahdan and Tomy both laughed. But all three are the same giving his thumbs up. Agung just a smile, although really interested, but Agung still rethink. He completed his S1 even long before Asrul was born, already almost 38 years ago, it's strange if then want to go to college again now, for what ?.

The conversation became so crisp, all three equally pushed Agung to really realize his intention to lecture again, but Agung just smiled a smile of grimy course, the conclusion was clear, Agung was just interested, just interested, there is no desire to really make it happen.

The conversation this time was quite long, even almost late at night. Agung, Asrul and Mahdan similarly pulled out a mobile phone, equally shaken. The same wry smile and the same standing left Tomy who just put on a smile. Tomy knew it was a message from each other's wives, telling her to go back to the room.

After the three came out, Tomy closed the door and smiled to himself, sometimes it was so, a man who was mighty and feared by many people, in the end had a fear also if facing a wife, the proof of this earlier, the proof of this, big businessmen, lecturers, famous lawyers, immediately stood up when he got a message from his wife.

At breakfast, there was a commotion in the dining room, it turns out that what triggered the riots was the news of Mutia's pregnancy after more than ten years of marriage. Mahdan is like no longer Mahdan, like a child who continues to hug and kiss his wife, not even caring about being in front of his two parents-in-law.

Agung and Meeta just laughed crisply, this news is as shocking as the news of Risda's second pregnancy which almost coincided with Faridha three months ago, that means, that's what, Agung and Meeta this year will get three new grandchildren, Risda and Faridha who will come first, only three months later followed by the first children of Mutia and Mahdan.

Mutia's day is now more upbeat, Mahdan is always smiling, when his partner knows what is happening, everything is immediately sumringah, all of them are certainly happy to hear that, especially Mahdan has been waiting for him for more than 10 years, the age of Mahdan is now 34 years old, while Mutia is 36 years old, so both are equally extra to keep Mutia pregnant.

But Laila's doctor always gave her thumbs up, giving Mahdan and Mutia confidence that Mutia was in a position that had no problems whatsoever, everything was in good shape, there was no sign of obstacle, it also makes Mahdan calmer, but his extra attention is nothing less.

Doctor Laila was afraid to see Risda, there were many things that made Laila feel that Risda was taking a risk to continue her pregnancy, but Laila can't do anything because Risda still insists on giving a sister to Dahrul who is now 10 years old.

The development of Risda is also a concern of doctors Muhli, although Muhli is a person who is quite upset, Muhli is upset because Risda is considered to play with his pain, considered not to care about the disease in his dream, he said, just let it go until it becomes more dangerous.

Problems arise when Risda's pregnancy entered the eighth month, Risda lost energy and continued to breathe tight, Risda could no longer cover all the things that had been trying to close Risda of all, Risda, this time it could not be hidden anymore, Risda was not strong anymore.

Inevitably Risda received the recommendation to be referred to the hospital in order to get intensive treatment in accordance with the needs that Risda should need. Inevitably Risda did have to want to, because there was nothing that Risda could alaskan and cover again.

After doing a thorough examination, Dr Muhli could only bang his head with a long ring, this was no longer covered, this was too far to be avoided, risda's condition is indeed really in a position that is so worrisome.

Muhli with all his turmoil finally conveyed the whole situation of Risda without any Muhli covering again, really opened everything completely.

Meeta shut her mouth with her hand. “Kok can do doc?”.

Muhli. “I should have asked doc, how can it be?, why let it be that bad, why the last few years have never checked at all, how can doc ?”.

Meeta shook her head, not knowing what to answer. What Muhli said was completely true, Meeta never even asked Risda's condition, never advised Risda to check. But, it was all Meeta did because she did not find any complaints from Risda, all saw Risda was fine every day, so equally surprised.

Asrul took a heavy breath. “According to the doctor all this time my wife should have a complaint, so doc ?”.

Muhli nodded his head. “It wasn't like Mr. Rul's accident, it didn't change drastically in a matter of seconds, but there was a process. Bu Risda all this time means covering up her pain, covering up her complaints”.

Asrul returned with a heavy breath. “Why Risda so so”. Complain Asrul.

Muhli. “Now all difficult, the age of Bu Risda's content is 8 months, the age that is not right to be born. I think, we all understand that, then to perform the operation action, we have to wait until 9 months”.

“Dock operation ?”. Asrul frowned.

Muhli shrugged his shoulders. “Bu Risda in this condition will not be able to give birth normally, his heartbeat will not be able to, Bu Risda's heart condition, only 50% longer”.

“Overcoming doc ?”. Masih Asrul's.

Muhli took a long breath. “We can do two surgeries at once, give birth to her sister Dahrul and replace Bu Risda's heart. We need a donor for that, we list donor search from this time”.

Asrul shook his head long. “Do your best dok”.

Muhli nodded his head, although the trousers were still very long. Muhli was really disappointed with Risda's condition, even though if from the beginning there was an intense handling, Risda did not have to face this severe. Risda's actions trying to cover up her pain were truly fatal, and this could still continue to progress even worse.

What Muhli's doctor really imagined to be a fact, Risda's heart condition is getting worse and worse, Risda is still conscious, but what makes him survive only his high spirit, his desire so that his family is not tense.

Doctor Muhli was really dizzy, thousands of similar feelings ambushed Muhli, this makes the doctor really restless and confused, because his condition is now clear, because his condition is now clear, nothing can be done now except waiting for the donor heart, which is there now, improved is also very less possible, the condition of the heart Risda can already be said to be dying.

…. Connect ….