There is No Need for Love

Q2: Go Not to Return

Dahrul only took the Lufti steps he called Opa, Dahrul had no inkling whatsoever why his opinion came to pick him up to school, and why Opa Lufti who came, why not others, why not others, this was the first time the Lufti had picked him up, before this had never been at all.

Dahrul also did not protest, although the actual time to go home is still very long, still a few hours away. But Dahrul certainly had no doubt to the Lufti, since childhood Dahrul already know, so sure if the Lufti comes for something very necessary, Dahrul just follow the steps of the Lufti who continues to pull his left arm.

Dahrul did not understand when all the teachers he met greeted and stroked his hair, Dahrul just a small smile and continued to follow Lufti's steps without saying anything, the two then got in the car and immediately gasp left the school complex.

Dahrul also did not ask why Opanya Lufti brought her not to his house, Dahrul did not protest, because if you want to go to his house, the car does not lead here, but then Dahrul began to understand, because this road taken is the road to their own house, not to the house of Opa Lufti.

There was a crowd, it was in Dahrul's heart when he got home, Dahrul concluded because he saw there were many people there, there were even many unknown at all, he said, there was even a new one the first time Dahrul saw.

Dahrul continued to step in following the Lufti among the eyes of many people who looked at him closely, there was a sigh while shaking their heads, when he reached the door, dahrul's eyes were immediately fixed in the corner of the room, he knew that it was a corpse, but who ?.

Dahrul's steps followed the wave of his grandmother's hand, when Dahrul near, his grandmother immediately embraced, when the mask of the corpse's face was opened, Dahrul was silent, Dahrul nailed like shock, it was his mother's face, the corpse was his mother, Dahrul said, something Dahrul never imagined before.

Long silent, trying to understand what was going on, Dahrul sat down beside his grandmother, thinking, Dahrul looked around, he found many sad faces, his father, his two grandfathers, Oma Widiya, he looked around, Om Gunawan and many others, then Dahrul a little shaken, his buying age has captured everything clearly.

Dahrul understands now, understands very well, understands that from today he has no mother anymore, of course Dahrul is hurt, there are many dreams of Dahrul, Dahrul said, there are many hopes that Dahrul wants to do if his mother returns from the hospital, even Dahrul already noted in his diary.

Dahrul understood, if all the records would not be realized, his mother did return home, but soon, his mother certainly only a few hours here, asleep here, then will go again, then will go again, leaving this time with a lebel will never come back.

Dahrul is not even ten years old, he will only be the tenth year three months ahead, but it will certainly be a day without celebration, he said, Dahrul has even wiped out all the hopes he had put together for his birthday.

Dahrul remained sitting beside his mother's body, no tears. Dahrul gave his mother's request yesterday, saying Dahrul do not cry whatever happens to his mother, be a strong, patient and big-spirited child, at this time, the words of his mother were ringing strongly in Dahrul's ears, this made Dahrul with all his might hold his tears.

Repeatedly Dahrul opened the cover of his mother's face, Dahrul felt like he wanted to keep looking at the face that even looked like he was sleeping, but Dahrul returned only to complain when his grandmother always grabbed Dahrul's hand to cover his mother's face again.

This attitude of Dahrul made the heart ache, Haris who sat in the corner of the room felt his chest throbbing pain, wanting him to punch his chest as hard as he could, but Haris was unable to do so, haris' tears continued to flow, as if powerless to see his grandson who always tried to look at his mother's face.

Haris does not know what to say anymore, the heartbreak when Natalia left has not disappeared, the years have changed, even Natalia has almost three years left this world, but Haris's wounds have not recovered, not gone at all, it still hurts.

But today Haris was left behind again, this time by his own daughter, his heart problem was not playing, what Hasan's doctor said to him used to be now a reality, risda's attempt to cover all her pain was fatal.

When he was unable to cover it again, everything was too late, the help given did not answer anything, the hope of a donor was not fulfilled, the donor did not meet until Risda was no more, it was gone.

Money does not answer anything, even though, it does not give a perfect answer, whatever Haris will prepare, the Asrul family especially, but there is no importance at all, because what you want to redeem is not found until the end of time.

Haris continued to look towards Dahrul, now that he had Dahrul and his sister who is still living in the hospital, the son of his daughter Risda, Haris rubbed his face, and his daughter, Haris wiped his face, at least there was something that Risda left for her, there was Dahrul and his sister, solace, who might be able to remove the wound.

If everything is appropriate, Dahrul should be happy with his younger sister, but that was the initial disaster, Risda's heart was not strong when going to give birth to his daughter, at that time it was also discovered that many sides of Risda's heart were barely functioning anymore.

Risda's condition is getting worse, and this morning is the peak, when Risda can no longer continue to breathe. Haris certainly regretted, because he only had the opportunity to accompany his daughter not until twelve hours.

Dahrul also stood up when his mother's body was lifted to be bathed, Dahrul helped, flushed and cleaned his mother's body, Rubiah mayit even lead Dahrul to do many things, Dahrul follow all the words rubiah without a sound.

This attitude of Dahrul again made many mourners who shed tears, even Mutia was sitting limp almost fainted. Mutia's sight was cuddled firefly saw the pale face of the body of her brother-in-law who was bathing, saw two Ariana hands that continued to stroke Risda's face right on her lap, Mutia's heart was completely destroyed.

Mahdan hugged and raised Mutia's body that was like boneless, Mahdan also could not hold back his tears, he took Mutia away, took his wife into the room and put her to sleep, mutia so much more heard, he said, she hugged the arm of her husband sitting on the edge of the bed.

“Remember your content dear, you must strong”.

Mutia's cry grew louder. “Tia not strong Bang, Tia not strong”.

Mahdan stroked Mutia's hair. “But Tia should be strong”.

“Tia not strong Bang, Tia not strong”. Tia's crying is weakening.

Mahdan could only waste a heavy breath, could only let Mutia's tears wet his sleeves, whatever the reason, Mahdan also had to guarantee Mutia was keeping her womb, she said, caring for a child who has been almost 10 years they wait for his presence.

Although actually no difference, Mahdan's tears also continue to flow, the shadow of Mahdan is now filled with the daily life of his brother-in-law's wife, Risda who is even like his biological brother, his place is spoiled.

A gentle, cheerful and cheerful woman, there was no time she passed without laughter and a cheerful, caring smile and always ready to help, Mahdan was sure his wife was very hurt, he said, because all this time Mahdan knew that his brother-in-law's wife was a place to confide in Mutia, even where he spoiled ria.

Mahdan remembered everything well, it made Mahdan so surprised to know that his wife's brother-in-law had a history of heart symptoms, Mahdan had not known it, so he had unconsciously scolded Mutia.

After the funeral prayer, all went to the cemetery, but the steps of the pallbearers stopped slightly when they heard there was a commotion in front of the musholla. Reni who had just arrived from Semarang cried bitterly, she insisted that she wanted to see the face of her sister-in-law.

She hugged Reni. “Come to the funeral, there Reni see sister ya”.

“Why not now Yah”. Reni was still crying.

Iskandar took over Reni from her in-laws. “This is no longer possible Deck, at the funeral only, there can kok”.

“Reni want to see Bang” sister's face. Reni.

Iskandar tightened his embrace. “Iya, you know, just there ya”.

Reni relented, her steps almost drowned, Iskandar so as to lead. Iskandar understands what his wife feels, Iskandar knows that Reni is very fond of his sister-in-law, surely Reni is very lost, especially they have not met since the last two months.

Reni was sitting limp, her tears were flowing very fast when she managed to see her sister-in-law's face for the last time, eager for Reni to go down to the grave, wanting to caress and kiss her sister-in-law's cheek, she said, but that was no longer possible, Reni could only sobbing withholding the cry.

Reni's two hands squeezed the ground with all her might as the cover board slowly covered Reni's gaze, now that her brother-in-law's body was nowhere to be seen, Iskandar pulled Reni away, finally, Reni's cry broke out in Iskandar's arms that could only caress, not knowing what to say.

While Farhan continues to cry looking at his cell phone that is video call with his brother Mutia, Farhan who is living in Liverpol can not go home, his wife Faridha will undergo surgery to give birth later that night, even Farhan still kept this a secret to his wife.

Farhan of course did not dare to convey this to Faridha, it is certain Faridha will be shocked, certainly will drop immediately if knowing Risda is no more. Farhan did not want to take the risk, so he kept close the info about Risda, although Farhan knew, when Faridha found out later, maybe he would also be angry.

Farhan could only see the funeral process of his beloved and doting brother-in-law from a distance, Farhan's tears were truly unstoppable, even the doctor Smith who was sitting beside Farhan also cried, too, doctor Smith had met Risda twice when he went to Indonesia.

Video calls were interrupted when the funeral was over, Farhan pocketed his cell phone, looked up at the sky and still sobbing. Doctor Smith put his arm around Farhan's shoulder and shook him, Farhan knew, it was the doctor's attempt to give him strength.

Farhan is now downcast, at least he regretted yesterday refusing his wife Faridha's request to just move to Indonesia, if Farhan took the advice, he had a chance to follow the fardhu kifayah process of his brother-in-law, his brother-in-law, one thing he should not have missed.

Farhan stood up, wiped his tears, even washed his face in the sink before returning to Faridha's room. Farhan forced a smile as he sat on the edge of Faridha's bed, the wife also seemed to smile, Faridha's fingers towards Farhan's face, astonished to see her reddened eyes.

“Brown brother's eyes Bang red ?”.

Farhan. “There was a small animal entry earlier”.

Faridha frowned. “Two Bang ?”.

Farhan nodded his head. “Compaks they”.

Faridha finally laughed, though there were still other questions. Faridha was not at all convinced by Farhan's answer, but Faridha chose not to ask again, now hugging Farhan's left arm and trying to close his eyes, Faridha continued to try to sleep after 36 hours of sleep deprivation.

Faridha also felt something strange with her heart, her pounding was getting faster and faster, Faridha felt that there was unrest coming to her, Faridha's memory was even intact to Jakarta, the faces of the faces of his loved ones alternately controlled Faridha's mind, especially to Dahrul. For some reason, Faridha missed her nephew so much.

"It's been a long time since Dahrul called Bang".

Farhan nodded his head. "Why Dha ?".

Faridha shook her head a little. "Adek misses Dahrul, for some reason, adek very keen to meet Dahrul".

Farhan forced laughter. "Maybe Dahrul misses too. Later after the birth and strong, we return to Jakarta".

Faridha's thin smile. "Promise to Bang".

Farhan nodded his head, Farhan stroked Faridha's hair gently. Farhan breathed heavily, perhaps Faridha felt the pain of what Dahrul felt today, there was a possible inner contact, because Faridha was very fond of Dahrul, Dahrul's daughter transmitted to his tantenya, that's a commonplace thing.

Unfortunately, while Farhan may be honest about what is going on in Jakarta at the moment, Faridha's condition is not at all supportive, can Faridha participate in danger if you know what is happening to his extended family in Jakarta now, especially clearly, Farhan is sure, Faridha will not be strong enough to hear it.

Farhan continued to look at his wife's face, sometimes Farhan kissed Faridha's forehead gently, Farhan's treatment so cradled Faridha, that Faridha was slowly able to close her eyes, asleep.

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