There is No Need for Love

Q2: Have to Be Confident

Saniah stared at Faridha for a moment, imagining Farhan. Saniah immediately agreed that if the two were indeed suitable, Farhan would be very compatible if juxtaposed with Farhan, a very suitable combination, Saniah agreed with that, in agreement with what his sister-in-law Meeta said.

From the line of his face, Saniah with his experience as a parent also felt that Faridha was indeed a good girl, obedient and had respect for others, for some reason, because of her, Saniah even fantasized that if Faridha was really his daughter, it seemed very happy.

Saniah also re-imagined how the old house of the Moon was so excited to tell how good Brother Ida Boru Lubis was, the Moon half-dead praised, he said Ida Boru Lubis's sister was also beautiful, she was also beautiful, comply with all Moon requests, even pay for Moon food when the Moon runs out of money to buy clothes, while Taifiq has not seen the trunk of his nose.

Saniah so smile to himself, there is a sense of pleasure now. Perhaps if Moon was still alive and knew that Ida Boru Lubis's brother whom he praised would be his brother, his future cousin Farhan's brother, Saniah was sure Moon would be very happy, he said, or maybe it's just that the moon is smiling right now.

“So, release SMA later you to Jakarta Boru ?”. Saniah change topic.

Faridha nodded her head. “Great Fathers ask so Nangudae”.

Saniah smiled faintly, stroking Faridha's head. Now that Saniah's heart was properly locked, it was so certain that Farhan would be able to find the word happy together with Faridha. Saniah believes Faridha will be able to bring Farhan better, more successful and more relaxed.

Saniah again stroked Faridha's shoulder.“Just give Boru your best, Farhan is a good boy, everyone recognizes that. As soon as Kak Meeta told me about you, Brother immediately wanted to know”.

Faridha just looked down, he now found sincerity in every word Saniah, this then prompted Faridha to convey all the contents of his head, his confusion, still his gamelan and all things without Faridha cover in the slightest. Saniah looked relaxed, even widening her smile.

 “What's weird Boru ?”.

Faridha. “It looks too easy Nanguda”.

Saniah returned a faint smile. “Too easy how to drill ?”.

Faridha nodded back. “Iya Nanguda, it feels like such a dream, Nanguda knows how I am, how my family is, if all this is worth it. I am not who Nanguda is, can I compensate Bang Farhan ?”.

Saniah seemed to frown, but Saniah was full of smiles. It turned out that what Risda said was entirely true, Faridha was a self-knowing girl, not necessarily and preferring simplicity. Not the person who immediately blue eyes when looking at money.

Saniah seemed happy, meaning Farhan was not wrong. Saniah now agreed with Risda, if Farhan will be happy with this girl of his choice, Saniah can already give a picture, has seen and felt directly, a good girl who is very good to be a wife.

Saniah hugged Faridha's shoulder tightly. “You think Nanguda how ?”.

Faridha nodded back. “Nanguda what is less ?, Nanguda Master, certainly balanced with Uda”.

Saniah laughed a little. “Not so storyline boru, not so”.

Hugging Faridha's shoulder, Saniah begins a long story about her life, a story that is certainly far from what Faridha thought, Saniah chose to tell everything so that Faridha did not always see the difference in income inevitably create a long distance.

Saniah comes from Simandiangin Hamlet, Sabungan Village, Kanan River District, South Labuhanbatu Regency, North Sumatra. His father worked as a rubber tapper, only a tapper, not an owner. The results of rubber leads are divided by three, eavesdroppers are only one part.

Initially, Saniah's mother planted kale on the banks of the Kanan River, every morning in pickles, tied up and sold to Pasar Langga Payung. But then, this work stopped, when there was a Mantri Health who served at the Langga Umbrella Health Center asked Saniah's mother to make catering for him.

The health man was the father of Meeta and Fauzan. Every morning and evening, Saniah who was in charge of delivering the abstinence to the rented house of Sang Mantri Kesehatan adjacent to Puskesman, he asked so, because there he only lived alone, his family was still in Padangsidimpuan, he asked, he comes home every weekend.

The Pesantren runs Ibtidaiyah (level SD), Tsanawiyah (SMP) and Aliyah (SMA). Saniah attended school there, so Saniah had enough religious knowledge, often even a place to ask Meeta and Fauzan's father if it clashes with religious issues.

Meeting with Fauzan when Fauzan and his friends Lecture Real Work (KKN) in his village, when Saniah was already class III Aliyah, just waiting for EBTA/EBTANAS, which later changed its name to UN.

The agricultural students were all male, so they chose to increase the portion of Saniah's mother's abstinence because they lived in Fauzan's father's rented house. That way, every morning and evening Saniah met with Fauzan, usually Fauzan cuek only, even just silent noiseless when his friends tease Saniah with words.

There was a closeness to Fauzan when he asked Saniah to help wash his clothes, so that Saniah became a washerman Fauzan during their KKN, for two months of course. And every time we deliver clothes, Saniah not only between clothes, but still by returning the money that is always tucked in the pocket of Fauzan pants, the money varies in number, always more than three pieces.

Often Fauzan forced Saniah to take the money, but Saniah refused, insisting on giving it back. And it turns out, that's the test. Fauzan is not a teledor, but he deliberately slipped money there, wanted to test the honesty of Saniah, it turns out he was interested in close to Saniah.

After the KKN event was completed, Fauzan's father also moved back to Padangsidimpuan three months later. Saniah's mother did not cook food anymore, she chose to plant kale again, ill-fated, during the flood, Saniah's mother slipped and washed away, her body only met two days later.

A year after that, Saniah's father also began to get sick, to cover the needs of life, Saniah who replaced his father's role to tap the rubber, went early and came home almost afternoon, so continue to face Saniah, but he worked sincerely, it was not just about eating, but also his father's medical needs.

Saniah had only one older brother, but his married brother could not help much, because their economic condition was also as old as three money with Saniah, so Saniah could not expect much, either, going to visit and ask questions is already amazing.

That afternoon there were many surprises for Saniah, her neighbors came to the rubber garden she tapped, asked Saniah to come home soon, Saniah caught the problem, as soon as possible to go home, but when he got there, he said, people are crowded, there are red flags, his father is gone.

Saniah was stunned when all the mourners came home, there were three people still sitting opposite him, Fauzan with his father and mother. Saniah answered nothing when Fauzan's father told him they had come to propose to Fauzan.

Brother Saniah resigned, and let Fauzan take Saniah to Padangsidimpuan after completing NA affairs at the village office, after the three-day event of the departure of Saniah's father, that night they also left for Padangsidimpuan, Padangsidimpuan, a week later, Saniah and Fauzan became husband and wife.

Saniah again tightened his embrace on Faridha's shoulder. “What we see does not necessarily correspond to what we think. Nanguda passed the test and your ud likes it”.

Faridha gave a small laugh. “So, Nanguda never want to accept the money ?”.

Saniah laughed a little. “Even once, that time you threatened. If you don't want to accept it, I kiss you, want ?”. Saniah imitated Fauzan's style of speech at the time. “Of course Nanguda was scared, take his money and run home, but after that, there was never more money in his clothes bag”.

“Nanguda is married to Udamu only a high school graduate. But Boumu Meeta forced Nanguda to go to college, because he had finished high school three years, then Nanguda had no chance to enter the country, so Nanguda studied in private, Nanguda lectures at Padangsidimpuan”.

Faridha looked surprised. “Bou Meeta ?”.

Saniah nods his head. “Usai Nanguda lecture S1, Your shrimp pass PNS. We moved here, Boumu again forced Nanguda to take S2. Good luck, after S2, Nanguda escaped PNS Lecturer. Back again Boumu forced Nanguda to take S3”.

Faridha. “Bou Meeta ?”.

Saniah nodded his head again. “That's Boumu, he's the one who made it all so like this. Nanguda so high spirits, continue to pursue what can be pursued, that is what makes Nanguda managed to achieve the title of Professor when Nanguda just reached 45 years of age”.

Faridha. “Nanguda terrific”.

Saniah nodded. “What's great Boru ?”.

Faridha smiled sweetly. “Nanguda Young Professor, hebatkan ?”.

Saniah nodded again. “From the outside it is so Boru, people will also say the same thing, especially they do not know what makes everything happen so easily”.

Faridha's deep breath, what Saniah's preaching did give Faridha a lot of new things, even if in takar, his current state is much better than Saniah's was, but the young man is now a young professor, millions of people respect him, a woman who 23 years ago was a rubber tapper.

Faridha again sighed, but still, Faridha still felt dwarfed and still did not find the feasibility, all the attitudes obtained in Faridha's eyes were still like wishful thinking, and still not, Faridha did not dare at all even just imagine his life in the future.

Faridha gave a long sigh. “Entah Nanguda, I'm just afraid not to meet Bang Farhan”'s expectations.

Saniah smiled again, there was a small arm of the head as well, Saniah this time was really more interested in Faridha, the more liking and the happier, Saniah's confidence also continues to increase sharply. Sure Farhan will easily find his happiness with Faridha.

“Boru, all of it is in essence in Mas Agung, Amangborumu[1]. He is actually rich, his grandparents are only children, his father and mother are only children, he is also an only child, so he is the owner of the inheritance with the number triliyun”.

Faridha again sighed, now imagined the face of Agung. Handsome and friendly face, always smiling and never seem to be angry, or even can not be angry, at least that's what Faridha can imagine about Agung, even if only briefly and only dialig a little, at least, but Faridha found that out clearly.

“Mas Agung initially felt so lonely, his life just flowed and always felt no one cared. When he met Kak Meeta and got married, Mas Agung was surprised and impressed by the attention the family gave him, Mas Agung became changed, the affection that intrigued him, he does not feel alone anymore and continues to show a sense of care”.

Faridha nodded her head. “Great Father is good Nanguda, Uda is also great, Nanguda is also great”.

Saniah laughed a little. “Great what Boru, just plain”.

Faridha gave a small laugh. “Nanguda house alone is good, somewhat similar to Bou house in Jakarta ya Nanguda ?”.

Saniah laughed a little. “Next indeed, which has sama”.

Faridha slightly frowned. “Nanguda Means ?”.

Saniah laughed again. “Boru, Udamu is an official, Nanguda is also a professor. But our income is not worth this house. Maybe we can build a big house, it is very possible Boru, but to have something like this, not at all, in all the years we collect the money, not necessarily can”. Saniah nodded again. “Not like boru think”.

Faridha's forehead is getting wrinkled. “Nanguda Means ?”.

Saniah returned to the head. “This house is indeed on behalf of Udamu. That's right, legally maybe it's the Udamu that have. But, the fact is not so Boru, not at all. This is Boumu's house, sister Meeta, she built this house”.

Although somewhat surprised, Faridha chose to widen her smile, now what is imagined is the sweet face of Bounya Meeta, Farhan's mother. The middle-aged doctor who did not have much story, appearance also did not seem excessive, but the treatment of his children was extraordinary, what was desired, everything was fulfilled.

Faridha smiled and shook her head, she did not expect to be in that wonderful family, the further the conversation with Saniah, the deeper the admiration Faridha had for the Farhan family, but at the same time, the more, his sense of inferiority also increased sharply.

Faridha looked at Saniah for a moment, but then looked down and looked pondering. “Can I Nanguda ?”.

Saniah immediately gave a big smile, again stroking Faridha's head. Now Saniah really fell in love with Faridha, but he kept it in his heart, now Saniah was right to believe that Farhan was not wrong, if his brother-in-law did not misstep. Saniah smiles because she feels happy, her sister-in-law will have two daughters-in-law who are just as good.

Saniah now even fantasizes that Taufiq can get a girl with simplicity like this Faridha. Saniah believes he would be very happy if he got something like that, especially now, Saniah only have Taufiq, their only hope is only Taufiq.

Saniah again stroked Faridha's head. “We determine our life goals based on our choices. Now that Boru has a choice, Nanguda advised, choose that option confidently. Keep humbling, give all the feeling we have, that happiness will be sure”.

Although it sounded like a poem, Faridha found many truths from the words of Saniah. It seems that it is true, the Farhan family who have assets of trillions of rupiah is not like most rich families, this is another family than others.

“Must be confident Boru. Take the lesson and do your best for others. Live with habits that help, do not think about the negative attitude of others. We are the ones who know what our hearts are burning for, only we know what our next destination is”.

Faridha pondered, what she heard from Saniah slowly opened her eyes, what was wrong with being Farhan's wife, what was wrong with being the daughter-in-law in such a family. Importantly, how to stick with the mind that is now, even if given overflow, remains in simplicity.

…. Connect …

[1] Her husband Bou