There is No Need for Love

Headaches That Continue to Torture

Although it has been more than three months, but Risda's head is not also healthy, his head continues to feel dizzy and often throbbing itself, Risda's thoughts on the story of his life bring Risda to a constant panic, which continues, there was a sense of disgust, there was a sense of shame and also a sense of pity for his mother and father.

One thing now that Risda really wanted, no one asked who her father was, because Risda would be very difficult to answer, Risda knew, but could not explain what she knew completely.

This situation is very much different from when Risda was still in school even to college first, Risda felt that she no longer had a father, which she knew her mother only lived alone, she said, often his Uncle Firman who gave the report, some say that Firman is his father, Risda at that time just laughed, including when Firman even claimed to be his father.

Want to lie?, Risda also has no power for it, since childhood Risda does not usually lie, he always conveys everything he knows completely, without covering anything. So, the best option is to stay there, if possible, no one asks who and where his father is.

When the bell rang home, Risda seemed to have no interest in returning home quickly, today and maybe so on Risda will only be among her mother, but returning home Risda must be alone, alone, because his mother accepted the offer to become a teacher in a private school.

This keeps Natalia from the school adjacent to where Risda teaches directly to her new school, so it is no longer possible to go home the same as Risda as they have been doing together.

Risda chose to sit on the canteen and think. Finally Risda remembered Asrul, Risda felt Asrul would be able to help a lot, for Risda, in fact Asrul was the best friend, the best friend, a month ago they agreed to meet, not so, in fact, it was not wrong for Risda to come.

It was then that brought Risda without a second thought immediately took a step towards the house of Asrul who was different from the Mayor with his residence. And Risda looked quite happy when he got off the taxi, he found Asrul was cutting flowers in the yard of his house.

“Hei... What dream ?”.

“Dreams Day”.

Asrul receives Risda's handshake and stops her work. Asrul and Risda both smiled and headed for the chair in the garden next to the slightly closed Asrul house, Risda immediately sat down while Asrul again stood in and out again with two bottles of mineral water.

“Drink past”.

“Makasih”. Risda immediately grabbed a drink and sipped it.

Asrul continued to pay attention to Risda. As a friend who has been together for a long time, Asrul can catch the anxiety that is controlling Risda, Asrul also believes that the arrival of Risda this time is the same as his arrival before, because he has a strange problem.

Asrul is always ready to be a listener complained Risda, always so since he was in High School. Asrul was very confident with that, let alone seeing Risda who was still in teaching clothes.

“From school earlier Ris ?”.

Risda nodded her head. “Live here”.

Asrul followed the head nod. “You look restless Ris, why ?”.

“Pusing Rul”.

Asrul's forehead was slightly wrinkled. “Pusing ?, why ?, Your guy .. or ..”.

Risda is a bit tickling. “Cowok ?.. What guy ?”.

“Yes.. Your girlfriend ?, isn't ?”.

Risda sneers. “I don't have a girlfriend, let's keep you dating”.

Asrul. “Sort of don't know you Ris, have a boyfriend just no, how can continue to date”.

Risda sneered again. “Your style doesn't have”.

“Emang doesn't have”.

“Wiwik ?”.

Asrul bobbin head. “Still also nanya Wiwik. Rise .. Ris .. long time you're surprised, young is senile”.

“What pic ?”.

Asrul. “Ngapain name Wiwik?”.

Risda and Asrul both laughed. Risda also knows that Wiwik was married to his high school friend first, even Risda came when the recipe, Risda just from talking about it earlier, and did know that Wiwik had

left Asrul since they were in the courtyard first.

“I can have a girlfriend again, as long as ..”.

Risda glanced at Asrul rather sharply. “Please what ?”.

Asrul scratched his non-itchy head. “As long as you want”.

“I ?, means ?”.

Asrul chuckled. “If you want to be my girlfriend, I automatically have a boyfriend again. How ?”.

Risda. “I ?”.

Asrul shrug. “Where ?”.

“How do you want ?”. Risda looked challenging.

“You want me yes. Beres”.

“Beres is done, what is res”.

“Lha. Asrul and Risda are dating. Done”.

“Easy it ?”.

Asrul nodded his head and immediately shook Risda's hand. “Deal ?”.

“Deal”.

“Yes”.

“Ee..e.. wait for”.

Asrul looked at Risda fixedly. “What awaited”.

“Ngak be... don't be”. Risda hurriedly spoke.

“Ngak so ?, can not dong. Make it deal”.

“So wrong ngomong”.

“No can be so dong”.

Risda was confused by herself. To be honest this is a situation that Risda did not expect to happen today, the time during this time Risda died dodging the seduction of Asrul, eh.

If you talk to your heart, honestly Risda also did not deny that he was sure he would be happy if he could be with Asrul, the person who had been the place to pour out all the anxiety he had. But Risda had other thoughts that made him forcefully create his own obstacle with what Asrul wanted.

“Not so Rul, but ..”.

“No idea, the important thing was already deal”.

“Rul, wait”. Risda looked clear. “Wait a long time dong, do not play deal aja”.

“Ngot able to do dong”.

“But Rul”.

“Ngak use but. Once the deal remains the deal. Okay ?”.

Risda limp. He fell down and covered his face with both hands. Not dislike this situation, but Risda imagines story after story that has been an important part of her life, after her Grandpa and Grandmother, then Father and Mother.

Whether Risda should also experience the same story, forcing herself to marry a person whose beliefs are different. Risda did not have the courage to do it all, which Risda feared the incident that befell Grandpa and Grandma, the story that controlled Father and Mother then came down to him, Risda was afraid of it.

“I'm afraid of Rul”.

Asrul looked at Risda's face fixed back. “Fear why ?”.

Risda breathed a bit heavily, Risda tried to calm down and started the story about Grandpa and Grandma, then Risda also discussed about Father and Mother.

“Do I also have to repeat the same thing ?”.

Asrul looked a smile. “No need Ris”.

Risda's forehead wrinkled. “Means ?”.

“Soal that later we will discuss”.

“But Rul”.

“What's more about ?”.

Risda shook her head again, now Risda immediately told what was experienced by Grandpa and Grandma, then continued with what happened to Father and Mother, now with a complete story, now with a complete story, without a little rest, as complete as possible without reducing anything.

“I'm not the perfect woman Rul. My story even a story that could make a lot of people might even be disgusted to hear it”. Complain Risda.

Asrul even chuckled, shaking his head. “Cave don't care”.

Risda looked at Asrul who happened to be looking at her as well. Asrul so enjoyed the close view on his face, Risda who looked adorable with clear mind content floating. But, it looks very pretty in Asrul's eyes.

Asrul smiled sweetly, shaking his head. Risda shook her head, sighed too and turned her eyes back to the park, Risda's fingers were now kneeling slowly, as her head came back a little throbbing, this was Risda's new unrest now.

“My head hurts Rul, throbbing steadily, even already three months this”.

Asrul embraced Risda's shoulder. “Later or tomorrow we check”.

“Check ?”.

Asrul nods his head. “Or tomorrow we go to mama” place.

Risda glared as Asrul tasted kissing her cheek. “What the hell is Rule ?”.

Asrul instead of repentance, instead take the opportunity once again, Risda's face immediately reddened, but somehow, now Risda instead leaned her head on the neck of Asrul who was embracing her, but somehow, now Risda was leaning her head on, even now let Asrul who had repeatedly kissed the top of his head.

For some reason, Risda turned out to be that easy to feel comfortable beside Asrul, now Risda is aware, aware as consciously, if she also can not cover her feelings all this time, if she also can not cover her feelings, Asrul had already repeatedly said his intention to establish a serious relationship with Risda, but all this time Risda had rejected him subtly.

But, today Risda really lost, he no longer has the ability to refuse, because basically, Risda also has almost the same feeling, just that his fear has always won, just that his fear has always won, so that he did not have enough courage to admit the same thing to Asrul.

"So I really lost, did Rul ?".

Asrul is somewhat tickling. "Lose?, you mean ?".

Risda shakes. "I lost, defeated by my own feelings. All this time I was just scared of Rul".

Asrul's thin smile. "Why be afraid ?".

Risda shakes. "Eitherway".

Asrul only laughed a little, he did not care at all about the fear of Risda, whether the fear of what it was, obviously, at this time Asrul just wanted to enjoy the beginning of happiness to be with Risda. Asrul did not care at all what would happen, which is clear, Asrul really wanted Risda to be his life friend.

And now that the desire was a step further, Risda had agreed to start building a serious relationship, it certainly made Asrul like floating in the air, now there were many delusions that appeared in his mind, he said, of course, all are happy patterns.

… Connect ….