The Wounds of the Past

Chapter 6(new identity)

POV DHEA

My head was dizzy because last night I couldn't sleep thinking about the tense last night. Fear, anxiety at once.

Two years is a long time to get to know the figure of a big boss with a personality that is amazingly polite, gentle. All good qualities are within us, Mas Jovan.

A class of leaders with a salary that makes a matre woman drip spit because she too wants to be her lover, willing to be called a mas by all her employees. Get closer and closer to the reason first. More family, he added.

And when the big boss gets hurt, we all grieve, not least rival Mas Jovan. Remember the call I received, "Not healed yet? Your boss is. I'm bored if Jovan is like this" said Mr. Darto on the phone.

All shoulder to shoulder helps the foggy office conditions because the leader is paralyzed. Paralyzed, like an undead whose innate just cries and rampages. The road without realizing what was passing through it.

For a while, I regretted being born with the name Dhea. Only one letter different from the name of Mas Jovan's ex-wife. In the past, Jovan used to call me Rhea, the woman's name. And after that he laughed embarrassedly, apologizing because in his brain there was always that name.

Sometimes we go out with other employees. Mas Jovan always joked that if he mentioned my name, he wanted to go home to see his wife.

Obviously, at that time I laughed while blurting out ignorant sentences. So do some friends. Warm and fun. Until the tsunami and mountain storm erupted, destroying all the laughter of happiness. Since then, I have not joined any friends. I understand, because if they see me, they can't bear to remember or ask the news of their boss which in the end only makes them feel sad.

"If this isn't Mas Jovan. It may have been lip fruit to the corner of the office."

"If this isn't Mas Jovan, it's bound to cause the company's shares to plummet."

"If this wasn't Mas Jovan, all the competitors would be partying."

Sentences that are heard behind the cubicle of each revision.

"I can't bear it, huhuhu."

"May Mas Jo get better soon."

"I want to do anything, as long as Mas Joko returns to normal."

"God, why is this so unfair."

Just keep it that way. As if they wouldn't get tired of praying for kindness for Jovan.

Fortunately there was Satya, who helped me handle everything. Amanda's sister who joined us at the time.

"Please help calm Jo down first, Dhe. Let my work handle." He said at the time.

"But Satya will come home overtime. Poor his wife." My reason for avoiding the task of meeting Mas Jovan.

Crazy, I feel like I'm falling over here. Not always in a condition that is ready to receive screams, snapping, maki scolding, and my heart is not ready to be broken to pieces because of seeing the crying Yovan mas while bowed lethargic.

He always lost that kind of control when he was with me. It is different when with others. Just silent, cold, unfocused and daydreaming. Sometimes meetings are like that. Luckily, he had people with unlimited devotion. They all knew what they had to do as long as their boss was in this kind of condition.

Only when with Amanda and Daniela, clearly visible in the eyes of Jovan, the light of life. Although dim.

"Good day!" Shouted someone outside banging on my door. To get me back to the present.

After putting down the cup filled with hot tea, I opened the door and tara, surprise!

"Hallo, nice girl good. Good day." Gleeful greeting this beautiful woman.

Miss Amanda!

Who else could be present like a refined being, hahaha. Once in the mind instantly appears in reality. It's great!

"Corn, Mom. Let's go in" Invite me sincere, not stale. And don't forget that sweet smile expands on my face. Uncoercive.

Who does not melt with a sweet smile on the face of this beautiful woman.

"You're healthy, Dhe. I brought this food."

"Healthy, Mom. Gee.. Lucky I am this. I can't eat anything yet, Mom." I'm obviously ashamed of embarrassment. While opening the provisions brought by Ms. Amanda.

"It's healthy not to eat anything yet. How are you. I'm here because Daniela told you about it. You know, no need to repeat. You're there too." Amanda said heart.

"I'll get you a drink first, ma'am. Take the plates." Sahutku. Try to avoid topics that make your head woozy.

"No need. Eat directly wear it. I've prepared the spoon. Here, just sit down. Don't be rich Jo likes to avoid. Haha"

This woman's laughter is sweet. I am the only one who recognizes women, especially the Adamites. There must be a lot of people who are on their knees. Wonderful, why would he want to come back with a bastard husband.

"Eat, Dhe. I know that you'll be thinking. Emm, if I may ask, are you still the same way Isa?"

The expertly surprised woman nodded slowly.

"Don't really hit it so many times?"

"It's not polite, ma'am. I eat with stories. Hehehe" To be honest, this is not a good topic that makes appetite go up.

"Sopan ah ah. Just like anyone. Really or not. Well, I need your version." Force Amanda, Get ready. Uncurdling.

"So it was Isa's fault, not Daniela's, ma'am. Daniela is right. I support one hundred percent. Indeed, the reaction of Isa likes it so that in the love of advice, like to encourage rough people who give advice without seeing who it is." Clearly slowly. After putting the beef-processed delicious!

"I was shocked when Isa pushed Ela's little body. And as it turned out, Big boss also saw.-" My explanation stopped. Amanda's mom's laughter broke.

"Still like calling your big boss. Haha"

"Ih, mother."

"Sorry, go ahead."

"Then the big boss is that, hit it many times until the face of Isa bonyok." I shudder in horror. Remembering the deadly stare of Jovan.

"Isa hit once, lips. Jo knows how many times. Isa's nose to bonyok like him. Not to the hospital, Mom. Only doctor Herman came to the same security post Mr. Dirman."

My breath felt heavy when I remembered the gaze of Jo mas who was either aware of it or not, obviously did not like when I saw him. Maybe-don't know.

"Jovan didn't realize that you took Daniela when she hit your boyfriend. Really bad! Cave boys are invited to watch action movies live." Decak ma'am Amanda, I'm sorry. But clearly he was not angry at all.

"That's mom. Immediately I hugged it tightly, the daughter of the intelligent mother. I'm hiding his face here" I said, patting him on the chest.

Crazy,

Afraid that the beautiful Daniela would get traumatized.

"Jovan he just hit him one time. Or don't let him be a psychopath. Well, how is this." Amanda's mom messed up.

"It's not funny, Mom." I said start to relax.

"Haha"

It hurts all if rich gini. Two of them are clearly sick.

"Dhea-" Amanda's voice was held back, slowly but surely.

I realized, ready to accept any shocking sentence Amanda. Know exactly if it is like this then it will be a tense or surprising moment.

"The... Jo gets out of control when she unknowingly sees you as Rhea. You know, Dhe?"

I nodded, got it. My face is as serious as the woman in front of me.

"I'm sorry, Jovan. He's not fully healed yet. I'm sorry, too, for forcing you to stay by Jovan's side." Spoons. This woman's face is sad. Either the face of the woman who fought for the happiness of her brother or her lover. I don't want to guess for now.

"I understand, Mom. And I accept." My heartache.

I accepted with full awareness to be treated like this, the suffering in their eyes both made me feel strong to accept. The suffering buried in Daniela's face made me even more confident to stay in this position.

"If-if you decide to go. Jovan will really control himself into an ice wizard like you say."

I'm down.

It was a moment that made me regret why I had to be close to the boss because of my name, Dhea. Names that always make the boss feel like coming home when saying it. Not because I was too tempted by myself to vent to his wife, is not it! Instead I was just some kind of alarm or reminder and focus-busting device because I always remembered Rhea, his ex-wife.

"Mas Jo, harbors all the anger he has. At that time mas Jo, straight out of the house without venting anger in his chest. He held it to the point where he felt numb. And sorry, Dhe. Only with you can Jo forget everything. Release the controls that make him numb. Sorry, Dhe. Really am.. We're really sorry."

This woman was crying without a sound. Her tears flowed without any burden. Nothing is painful does not mean it is not so painful.

"Dhe, you deserve to be happy. You deserve to live a normal life. You're not a tumbal dhe! Forgive my selfishness. "

This beautiful woman played her hand, clearly confused and anxious. Fragile side, Amanda is back to my eyes.

"It's all gonna get better, ma'am. I'm convinced. It's okay if I have to live like this. I accepted without any objection. Really am! Not because I owe Jovan a favor. It's purely out of my own desire." My words are full of emphasis. Trying to calm the fragile woman in front of me.

Our hands are getting stronger. Trying to calm each other down.