The Wounds of the Past

Chapter 3(the beginning of the deprivation of women's rights)

"So, before Rhea married the same mas, Rhea had a relationship that was already free as Rhea told us on our first night. It's just, Rhea dumped the pregnant part of Rhea and then had to abort Rhea because Rhea's relationship was not blessed by the family, Fandi."

After Rhea dropped the bomb in front of my eyes, only then did she explain about this. It's true, Rhea used to tell about her relationship with Fandi who was not blessed by the Fandi family. Fandi's indecisive attitude made Rhea retreat at that time. Let Fandi marry the girl of her family choice.

It turns out that what made Rhea destroyed when it was not just about Fandi who chose to marry by her parents' choice.

"Fandi married someone else, left me just like that, Mas. And then, with the sadness I felt, it made me rash. Throw away the fetus, fruit my love with fandi."

My breath is getting heavy. That's what I thought of the woman I married.

Amazingly, after so many things that made me shocked. My heart is now calmer. I need to feel calm to digest everything that's happened to me.

"And about Daniela. I'm sorry, mas. Really forgive me."

The crying Rhea back was pitiful.

"A few years ago, when we went to Bali with Amanda and Doni. Mas remember?"

Rhea's voice grew increasingly poignant. So poignant. As for me, silence does not move one bit.

"Our condition was all half-drunk, and I'm sorry.. Really, I'm sorry. At that time I was really khilaf mas."

Now Rhea was holding my feet, sitting right under my feet.

"That moment.. At that time, somehow at first.. L'm.. Me and Doni. Really mas, forgive us."

One more bomb, you drop it on me, Rhea. What other truth should I accept.

"At that time, Doni and I chose to sleep together. I'm sorry, mas. I'm sorry."

Who was the woman I was gauli for at the time. Amanda's?

"And the idea of Doni, so as not to be suspicious, Doni moved Amanda to our room. Doni understands very well the character of mas if being drunk does not recognize anyone, all women look like me."

This is the reason why all this time I have always avoided any kind of liquor, I am not strong drunk. It was all messed up when I lost control of myself.

And Amanda, why didn't she have a fight back then.

"Amanda's too drunk to know who's sleeping with her, Mas. And after we finished, Doni brought Amanda back to his room. Before Mas and Amanda knew it."

Barbarically.

That's the woman I've been married to for years.

"This is all I can explain, my. I'm resigned to everything that will be your decision."

Fine, fine,

The question of who made Rhea must abort her content, not new news to me. The first night I found out about Fandi.

But this, this,

Doni and Amanda. A doni?

The man I've always considered to be polite and dignified. Amanda and Rhea's best friends, who eventually marry Amanda.

I've been so stupid all this time, not even suspicious when Rhea looks so comfortable with Doni. To me, it's natural that they were friends from the past. Before I entered their lives.

And Amanda, it was so hard to give me stale information just to ignite my emotions and make Rhea have to explain everything.

"Sleep, Rhea. Tomorrow morning we finish all this dirty stuff. Call them, tell them tomorrow morning it should be here."

My voice vibrates.

Tired of pain, I don't know what I'm feeling right now.

How come I never realized the evil side that Rhea had.

Am I too fascinated by her beautiful face, or am I too in love with this woman who is blind.

What a bad attitude I have towards Doni, why he is so humble like this.

Anyway, if that's right then I hooked Amanda. Doesn't mean Daniela's my daughter, does she.

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Right now, I'm at the lowest point I've ever experienced in my entire life. Really, it's not holy grail or what's its name. I really grew up with the upbringing of manners that were really implemented by my parents.

From childhood I knew what liquor was, but only felt it directly when I sat in my office before the current position. Conditions that require me to join in reprimanding the dangerous drink.

And in effect, I was dancing along the highway. Without being prevented by anyone. I was always polite to be so brutal. A harsh sentence just popped out of my thin lips. A word that everyone knows, I don't. I'll never say it when I'm conscious.

I hate losing control of myself. And during the family vacation, so the nickname I said for my vacation, Rhea and also the two closest friends. And the truth is, it was the beginning of hell for as long as I've just known.

I am indeed a weak man who is stupid, continue to be prejudiced and be kind so that I can be a goal husband for women who for many years I adore.

I accept Rhea with all her bad past. In fact, even virginity doesn't matter. Back then, Rhea was my first woman.

Tragic, no.

I no longer know how I feel. Disgust for yourself, disgust for those two people. And pity, when I remember Amanda's face this late.

Amanda shouldn't have been that devastated if she just felt guilty about me.

"Bag.."

My head turned towards the source of the voice, the poor woman I had just thought of, was now standing opening the door of the guest room that was my current resting place.

Disgusted, sad, disappointed, angry and even confused do not know what to feel anymore, do not know how else. Disgusted, if I have to sleep in the room I just used as my sacrificial shrine to Rhea.

"Mas, please don't be like this." Amanda's now sitting on the floor like me.

"Bag.." The sound of Amanda crying again made my heart crumble into dust flakes.

"I'm sorry, Amanda." My whisper was slow, whether it sounded to Amanda's ears or not.

It could be, right now Amanda has calmed down in my arms, at least resting her head on my midsection. But, actually.. He just bowed his head, crying. Even though we are currently sitting side by side.

Amanda, good woman.

"Tell me everything now, Amanda. Don't make me any more stupid with this." My voice's up. Angry, disappointed when I realized I was the last one among them. It's filthy!

"Actually, after that year's holiday. Doni's so cold to me, mas. Even until Daniela was born, Doni didn't touch me. Neither did my hair."

Unlocking only Amanda's trembling voice breaking off, her body now trembled withstanding all the sadness she felt.

I know about Doni's cold attitude, I just wonder why after the holiday event their household just became a little strange. It was just that moment, Rhea said...

Oh God. Worth it! Rhea deserved to say that all because Doni was not ready to accept Amanda's pregnancy. Because at that time Doni was not in a position that he thought was good to have children.

Oh.. Turns out.

I rubbed my face rough. Waiting for Amanda to be ready to continue her story.

"Mas Jovan knew it was a difficult time when I was pregnant with Daniela. Doni was always busy with his business. And stupidly I, still accept all that treatment."

Yep.. Amanda's. Not infrequently, Rhea forced me to help you. Go to the doctor. Buying baby equipment. Help you buy a bowl of soto in the middle of the night because of Rhea's compulsion. In fact, when Daniela was born, I was there. I had to prosecute the little girl because her dad was out of town to expand his business.

"Mas.. Apparently not because Doni, not ready with the presence of Daniela. But, because... Because..." Amanda's voice broke again, now her sobs are really tight.

Instantly I hugged Amanda's body which was getting thinner. Let me hug this poor girl.

We both kept quiet. Dive into our own minds. Two people who love their partner so much but are hurt with the same injury.

Right, Amanda.

Love only makes us stupid. Good people like us are always easily fooled by love.

We cry together. Let go of the tired soul over the play of the accursed man blinded by filthy lust.

"We need to be strong, Amanda!" Whisper me while wiping the tears that came out from the puffy eyes of this innocent woman.

The girl I've always considered my own sister. The girl I've been looking after like my favorite sister.

Long ago, when I knew. That, Amanda and Doni's household condition was compromised because of Amanda's pregnancy, I.. I funded Doni's entire business so that he would no longer be afraid of lack just because of the presence of the little angel.

I give you complete freedom between Rhea, Amanda and Doni to keep their friendship. Never even suspected when Rhea had to go out of town with Doni's team. Help to market their new business. Not just two people, but one team. Seven people with Doni as its leader.

"Clean your face. We must be strong in front of them. Don't cry anymore, Amanda! Stop that!" Say it with a high voice.

After a while we spent tidying up the look, I glanced at Amanda who put the phone back in her bag.

"Doni's here, Mas."

"Amanda, can you please say. Since when did you realize that Daniela is not the fruit of your love and Doni's?"

Let them wait, guess what we're doing in this room. I don't care, either, if they let go of the miss. Obviously, this is the first time I've ever done something like this. Two with women other than Rhea.

"Mas, remember. Daniela was seriously ill some time ago?"

I'm nodding. Accident while wanting a scooter on the road. Apart from the supervision of Amanda who entered the house to take the favorite fruit of the little angel.

"Our blood doesn't match. And at that moment Doni looked so panicked."

The woman raised her head upwards. An old-fashioned attempt to hold back tears.

"My curiosity and a little bit of suspicion just evaporated, I guess. Daniela is a confused baby. Haha"

Amanda's laughter rubbed off on me. There's just. Exchanged baby, heh.

"Jewing just like that. Missing. Because Mason Doni was so scared and looked so panicked and worried."

Reasonable.

Doni is not very close to Daniela. It's only natural that Amanda feels Doni is afraid of losing her little daughter.

"It turns out, fear of being caught by our blood goals is different. And the interesting fact is, it was Rhea who donated her blood. Rhea and Mas Jovan's blood is the same."

Maddened.

Right, crazy.

"After Daniela recovered, I just remembered about our different blood types. I'm parno, mas. Noids. Afraid that Daniela will be my solder, not my flesh blood."

I laughed out loud.

She is not suspicious of her husband, suspicious about the exchange of babies. Mother's mother's victim soap opera.

"I asked my mother to help me add funds, continue to Rhea. Said he was going to do a diamond business." Amanda smiled shyly. Obviously, not the kind of woman who likes to lie.

"Make a DNA test?"

Amanda nodded. He said glass. Obviously the results show that it's not Doni's son.

"I've never cheated, Mom. In fact, with you I keep a normal distance. Even though you are so good. Make me comfortable. But, I realize. Receiving comfort from other men also includes cheating, right, mas."

Oh, adorable girl. I'm laughing a little. He's exactly like me.

"And from that moment on I started thinking hard. Until, finally chat and video mbak Rhea make me realize as aware as he realized."

Huh, what else is this. Chat what does it mean. What other parts I don't know.

Damnit.

The mood that I arranged neatly, started to fall apart again.

The chat?

The video?