The Wounds of the Past

The wounds of the past

I'm Jovan. I am the husband of a beautiful woman physically and also behaviorally. So beautiful that almost every time we walked, I had to endure the emotion of having so many male eyes focusing too much on a certain part of my wife's body. Rhea really has a body goal that I believe to be the dream of women.

"Can not, do not wear clothes that accentuate the curves of your body. Have mercy on my heart." I said softly while looking at my wife's cute face. Rhea is not a young age anymore, this year even aged 40.

"What's the connection between the curves of your body and your heart, mas?" He asked while giggling. The spoiled voice accompanied by teasing laughter still managed to make my blood rustle, even though the age of our marriage is not in the number 5 years down.

Now I hugged Rhea's body from behind, immersing my face between her fragrant hair. "You're not stupid. You know how tormented I am every other person looks at you with a seductive look" I said half in a whisper.

"All right, I'm sorry."

Since then, Rhea has changed her clothing style, which now looks more like British royalty. Closed yet elegant and certainly has its own charm. Princess Diana said Rhea during her quota she wanted to imitate the way she dressed.

I agree to agree, even though the monthly expense report is somewhat higher than a few months ago. After all, I work to take care of all my wife's needs. And of course to make her happy.

We have been married for ten years, but our household has not been given a descent. By the time we were three years old, my mother-in-law seemed so anxious and worried about the state of us not having children. But I calmed him down. So is my extended family.

Shut up I checked with the doctor, checked if I was barren or not. It feels uncomfortable if the problem is in me.

"Good sir, your condition is excellent and fine." The doctor smiled at me, relieved to know this fact.

Until the time comes Rhea carries a bomb that destroys our happy world.

I met Amanda, a close friend of Rhea's before we got married. Amanda brings a lot of evidence that it turns out that what makes Rhea very difficult to get pregnant is her actions in the past. When we were bosses and employees.

Rhea once aborted to cover up her mistake just because Rhea was not ready to be a mother. And I don't know whose actions were with whom.

I'm not a super guy who doesn't feel pain in the heart when it comes to knowing the dark side of the woman I love so much, the top priority in my life. The woman who is the reason I always smile and feel grateful every waking up and looking at her face.

My love for Rhea was not that million, so I was still able to feel pain in every sentence of explanation from Amanda. Sick and disappointed.

My body was in front of Amanda, in front of all the evidence that confirmed Amanda's story about my woman. My soul lover. The stupid thing about Amanda's response after seeing my reaction was like a daze.

"Mas.. Mas's.." Call Amanda while shaking Jovan's arm. Worriedly. "Mas.. Please, don't be like this. Mas's.." Amanda keeps trying to bring Jovan back to life. "Come, Mas. Don't be like this."

"I swear by anything, Amanda. Had Rhea been open and honest about all this. I really won't mind. My love for Rhea is too important." Weak talk. Like all the energy I had just disappeared.

Rheas. My wife, whom I always adored, hid such an important story behind my back. That was Rhea. Rhea had no confidence in all that I had given. The unconditional love.

Oh myGod.

What is my fault, to have to face a bitter reality like this.

The meek Rhea was able to forcefully kill a lump of living flesh. The result of his own flesh and blood. Though all I know so far, Rhea was not even able to hurt a mosquito even had this cruel past.

This time I just kept quiet, agreed to all the words Amanda said. My head is still full of Amanda's voice about what Rhea did. My heart was breaking at the thought of what Rhea had been hiding all this time.

When the car got to the front of the house and Amanda grabbed my body slowly, I just kept quiet. Though usually there is nothing I allow to hold my body other than the woman I love. Rhea, my natural center.

I'm afraid that something unwanted happens when another woman holds my body, even if it's just a misunderstanding. No matter how small I try to avoid. The thing I believe is one of the proofs of my love for Rhea. Keep his feelings both when Rhea saw and behind Rhea. But this time it was all so messed up for me.

"Mr.. Rhea Ma'am!" Shouted Amanda after leading me to sit on the front sofa. While I still stare.

"Tired.. I'm really tired, Amanda. Please, call Parman" I whispered slowly. Answered a nod of Amanda's head which then walked half a run towards the back.

I smiled foolishly, laughing at myself when I realized I'd rather have the parman that I asked to take me to my room than Amanda. This sick person was still thinking about Rhea's feelings. Stupidhead!

The smell that always makes me passionate despite many years of living together, is getting closer. Forcing me to open my eyes that I had closed earlier.

Rhea,

This woman was now hugging my body, leaning her head right on top of my weakened heart.

"Bad. I'm so stupid. How I was not aware of his presence. It's not like I was waiting for Amanda to call Parman" I thought it was a mess. "Dam. I'm asleep." My mind while trying to get Rhea's head off my chest.

"Not now. Just give me some time to be alone, Rhea." My chest still aches when I see the look of sadness on a woman's face that I always put her happiness above my own happiness. Idiotically.

"Mas.. Please, give me a chance to explain everything." Rhea's pleading voice made me even more sad. It hurts so bad.

All true, it turns out that everything Amanda said this afternoon was the truth. I understand enough just by looking at this woman's face. Years of living with him made me so good at reading this beautiful face.

This fact is too bitter for me to pass by. With whom exactly Rhea did all this.

"Well, tomorrow if it's big. Don't let your hands hit women. No matter how wrong they are, don't play with your hands."

The advice he used to say is still clear in my memory. Now, in a moment like this there seem to be many voices in my ears.

"The error will not be finished when it is answered with the error as well, Le. Under any circumstances, as bad as that. Be a proud mother."

Now my mother's face is clearly engraved in my eyes. So missed. "Your son is hurt, mother." Saying slowly. It was as if my mother would really hear my voice.

Trust for me is the main thing. Principles of life that cannot be disturbed. Doesn't Rhea know very well. But, why would he have to hide something as important as this from me.

On our first night, Rhea told us all about her chastity. And all I did after hearing all Rhea's stories was hug that sweet woman. Kissing the tip of his head. It's reassuring that I didn't bother about it. I was relieved that Rhea was being honest with me. And the proof, all this time my attitude is fine.

"Don't daydream, Mas." Amanda said that surprised me. Forcing me to regain consciousness.

"You're like his hobby makes me surprised." Sahutku. Try to stay good. Foolishness yesterday he saw my bad side.

Amanda laughed softly. "I'm the same Ela stopped by here on purpose, Mas. And it turns out my guess is right. Jovan went to work as usual."

Hearing Daniela's name being mentioned, my head turned to the right and to the left, looking for the figure of the little girl to be. "Loe.. Where's Daniela?"

"Again to the chocolate bar in the cafeteria. It's hard to prevent that kid from eating chocolate." Amanda's face pouted.

I laugh. Tasteless. It's been two months since that incident. It still hurts.

"I'm grateful Mas Jovan can stay strong like this."

Amanda's voice sounded weak. Typical of Amanda when she's sorry.

"Not as hard as you might think, I haven't spoken to Rhea yet." I took a heavy breath. "It initially felt so hard. You know for yourself, don't you. If I'm from A to Z, take care of everything, Rhea." A little laugh escaped my mouth. Laughing at myself.

"Eat, Mas. Don't trust me too much with comfort." Amanda laughed.

Stale bases that increasingly make Amanda actually feel clumsy.

"Mas, could you please give Rhea a chance to explain?" Amanda Pinta.

Amanda's voice this time really bothers me. Not comfortable at all. There were tears trying to hold him.

"What if we follow up, Ela ?" Ask enthusiastically. Trying to shift the conversation about my relationship with Rhea.

I stood up and went to the door of my room when Amanda's sobs filled my hearing.

"I'm really sorry, Mom. Please, give Rhea a chance to explain everything. Please, mas. Love the opportunity."

My heart was falling apart again.

"It's gonna be okay, Amanda. Everything will return to how it was. It's just, I need a little time to digest all this."

The last words I said before leaving Amanda wept.

Is it true that everything will be fine, I was afraid if I had to hear another reality that was even more bitter.