The Wounds of the Past

Chapter 14(family gathering)

POV Dhea

Spending the night with Amanda's mom is fun, soothing and stressful.

"Nte Dhe!" Call that magical girl, my darling. It was heavy, having to endure the longing with this little girl. At last... Now I can hug back, like I haven't seen each other in years.

"Geli, auntie! Don't kiss all El's heads!" Whine this little girl. It just makes me more nervous.

"Have you got your gear, Dhe?" ask the same woman miraculously.

"Already, Mom."

"Take your room with you, the usual one."

The language used by Amanda mom likes to make hearts so dag dig dug, soaring into space.

"Tomorrow, the equipment does not need to be brought again, Dhe. Bother if you have to stay here." Obviously Amanda's mom leaning in the closet.

I smile. Blissfully. Who is unhappy when treated like this?

"Have you eaten, Dhe? From the office straight home and keep coming here, right?"

Before I answered, the little girl who had been sitting on the bed had already gotten ahead, nimble.

"Mama Masakin aunty Dhe, just now!"

Not surprised anymore like before, Amanda really respects guests. More precisely, to glorify guests.

Even when Ms. Amanda knows why until now I do not have a car, even though my salary is quite above the average of some private secretaries. He was even more amazed, proud to be one of the people he knew.

Fine, beautiful, wealthy, considerate, noble. A combination that not all women can have. While me? Far below the eligibility standards to be placed one line with Amanda's mom.

Lineage, department, contents of savings. Everything is so different from me. Me? Only a child who happens to be lucky can have a brilliant brain, to be able to finish my education and get a job in the place of good people.

"What cooking, Mom?" askaku.

"Many, Nte! All my favorite aunt is there. Hehe!"

"Your favorite too, El!"

We laughed together, like a happy family. Reasonable right? If I fantasize about being one of their family members? Not just a subordinate? Indeed, greedy of my will.

"There are brownies, broccoli corn soup, meat stir-fry, roasted chicken, liver ampella chili, peanut chili."

Just heard it made my saliva gather, ready to drip.

"Fish salmoooon, mamaaa!"

Hahaha, Amanda's laughter echoed in the room, embracing my body tightly.

"I took a shower, Mom. Gini rich smell." My words are not good.

"When you shower, join us, we'll wait in the living room!"

I nodded, looking at them.. The mother and son came out of the new room and took a shower.

After hurrying to clean up, I stepped into the living room, where Amanda and Daniela were discussing a book that I knew belonged to Daniela.

"Have, Dhe? Just eat it!" say Amanda when I see me approaching.

"Mama is also waiting for Aunt Dhe to eat together."

I smiled, grateful. They are good people who are also given gifts by God in the form of amazing things. Aye right? Pearls are processed with painful conditions and all precious metals are also formed with a convoluted process.

"Sir Doni hasn't come home yet, Mom?" many spontaneous. From there it was not visible at all. Usually if I stay here again, Mr. Doni will greet friendly, intimate conversations that are distant.

"Papa doesn't live here anymore, Nte!"

I was surprised, only to realize the beautiful face of Amanda's mother who grimaced, smiled badly with her daughter's answer.

That magical girl?

Not affected by anything, still enjoy the pieces of brownies that are on his plate. Flat without the slightest bit of sadness, just a glimpse of the line of hatred in her perfect round eyes.

Compact the two of us, Amanda and I exhaled a rough breath. I looked at Amanda's mom full of question marks, who was only answered with a code that continuing the food was better. It's as easy as that, Amanda gave back the atmosphere to calm down.

"El out of this wants to study in a room, Mam. Perhaps the same mama aunt Dhe wants to share a special time for adult women. You know, El asked to pick up Daddy!" Omel Daniela chews an apple in her hand.

"You want to ask in anther driver sir? Or have daddy pick you up?" ask Amanda's mom to worry.

And I'm not good. Usually the three of us would discuss some encyclopedia books before the little girl went to sleep.

"Don't do it! Daddy's not happy talking anymore. Ribet brought it." Daniela said as she walked to pick up some books.

"Tante Dhe relax, mom does need a lot of time with aunt Dhe. Poor mama, his friend is just aunt Dhe!"

Plaque!

Amanda patted the back of her beloved daughter.

"Mama has many friends, there are aunt sisil, and friends of other mama's friends, arisan also right."

"Just like Daniel, too, maaaa. Haha"

The one who was laughing was now blushing his face. Makes me even more curious.

"Good night, dear Aunt Dhe" said this sweet girl while curling my neck tightly.

"Good night too, darling."

My whisper in the middle kiss the cheek.

After the death of my beloved girl, the face of Miss Amanda became sad and sad. Tears began to fill her eyelids.

"Mom?" call me worried, take over Amanda's mom's hand that starts squeezing each other. Restless, afraid, sad and broken. Complete all the gloomy impressions in the eyes of this woman I care about.

"I'm divorced, Dhe. I'm fighting for divorce, Doni. After a long time of effort, I finally arrived at this very second. It feels, so long Dhe. Every night, when I have to sleep with that guy, this chest hurts."

I was distrustful, if the woman I knew was strong was really strong. All the stories flowed as hard as my tears. All the things I just knew.

"Wouldn't it be, Amanda's mom is the same boss?" ask me sure and steady, stupid period with my heart in pain. I just want to see this woman happy.

Didn't I see him happy all this time by the boss?

Ms. Amanda smiled affectionately before asking a question that made me cry hysterically.

"You willing, Dhe? You accept me as jo together?"

I was only able to nod my head, not daring to stare at the face of this noble woman.

"I'm willing, Mom. My feelings are no more important than seeing mom Amanda and the boss happy." I'm lirih.

The soft hugs and pats on my back are soothing, this one... It was broken but still everyone thought of someone else. If it's like this, how can I be selfish? Intending to shift the position of Amanda did not dare.

"We can't be together, Dhe. Jo and I can't be together. Both of us will always be in the shadow of our dark times. Honestly, I love Jovan with a huge capacity. Jovan is so dependent on me. We are one package, if anyone wants to have one of us, he must be able to accept all of us. Really accepting and willing to share."

I cried even more, unable if I had to choose one of them, unable if I had to escape from their lives, I was a kara, one of them, alone on the face of this earth suddenly has someone who is like family, which I have always wanted.

I grew up in an orphanage, always dreaming of being an important part of someone else's life. It's just the last few years like it's become real.

"You know, Dhe. I really love you. So, can you share Jovan with us? Me and Daniela?"

Tight, my heart tight and painful. Loving someone is so hard. Really am! I never expected to be in this position. To me, being able to love them is the most beautiful gift of my life.

I'm willing, I'm willing,

I accept, I accept,

Even if I had to choose, between having Jo mas or letting Amanda go with Jo mas, obviously I would choose to step down, as long as they are happy.

I just realized, it turns out... Loving someone takes a lot of energy. As it turned out, accepting with earnestness, throwing away greed, actually made me get everything.

"Patience in a moment, Dhe. The door that I broke down forcibly had already started to open wide!"