The Wounds of the Past

Chapter 15(pakde's girlfriend)

POV Jovan

"For the three of us, Amanda! Help u! Don't force me to love Dhea. If it wasn't for us, think about Daniela's kindness, we could be complete parents to our little daughter. Sure-the"

I'm the one who was persuading Amanda now surprised by the loud jolt from behind.

"Don't you dare say it's for my own good, Dad! You're all the same, you idiot! Stupid! Selfish! You think, for such a reason it is true! You're these... Parents always make us excuses, children. Try once, we.. This kid is for discussion. We also have a real feeling, Dad! Even though we are children, we know very well that our parents are unhappy. What kind of family will Daddy give you? A family that will always feel guilty? Daddy wants me to be overwhelmed with guilt, every time you see you guys quietly hide regret, hide sadness? Daddy's! Please, ask me a discussion!"

I snatched that tiny crying body into my arms, sorry dear. I really don't know. All I know is, this all feels hard for all of us. Sorry, baby, I can't give you anything good.

"Daddy never knew how sick I was being ignored. How much El wanted to hug papa like El's other friends. Mom and Dad were too busy thinking about what was best for El to forget to make sure in person, feeling no need to ask what El really needed."

My heart breaks, my soul breaks more than Rhea's betrayal.

My tears were flowing very hard, my chest was unable to breathe, my throat was blocked.

"Daniela hates, every look at my mama's eyes tormented with all this, Daddy's suffering. I hate conditions like this. El hates to see mama has to pura happy to be back with Papa. El was grateful, finally mama stopped her stupidity. I thank God for giving Daddy back! Can you please, don't sacrifice for El? El is happy, El has tried to learn to accept. At least El was luckier than the kids at Aunt Dhe's orphanage. Enough, Dad! Enough is Mama! Daniela really didn't ask you to be together just because there's Daniela."

Amanda, who used to cry in silence, is now crying hysterically. Wiped all the sadness all this time.

"Daniela knew Daniela's birth was not wanted by anyone, Daniela was born at an inappropriate time. Sorry mama, because Daniela's all so messy like this, Daniela just wants you to be happy. Daniela had always hoped to have a Papa who was like El's friend, and God loved her, Daddy! God loves Daddy so much for Ela. It's already! Mamma! Daad's! You don't need to be together just because you want to give the perfect to El, it's perfect, absolutely perfect!"

"I'm sorry... Forgive us, El! We are too engrossed in our pain, to the point of being insensitive to what you are going through. Forgive us, El. Letting you grow up before your time. I'm sorry, El!"

Tonight, I hug the angel with broken wings, kiss full of regret.

If I had not been so selfish, not so engrossed in love, not so busy thinking about my love until I had forgotten to see the real situation, I might not have embraced this archangel.

Maybe I'm still too busy with my own feelings, unable to understand the feelings of others.

"Why did you choose Dhea for me?" I asked quietly, having satisfied my little angel. I need to get this all done as soon as possible.

"He is kind, sincere and not greedy!" Amanda's answer hasn't been able to satisfy my curiosity.

"First, Rhea was also a submissive!"

"Yes, but being greedy, being ungrateful, not being able to accept, becomes like that. As for Dhea, she was different. With Dhea, Mas Joo can become Jovan who is really Jovan. Not limited by any feeling. Not Amanda's Jovan, Rhea's Jovan or Daniela's Jovan. Joko is really being herself."

I'm surprised, how can Amanda pay attention to this detail.

"Most importantly, Dhea could understand this condition. This complicated situation."

"Dhea who grew up with all the shortcomings, does not necessarily make him lose his mind, when getting what he never got."

I know, Dhea grew up in an orphanage. But now I don't live there anymore.

"Dhea's life is hard, Mas. But, Dhea managed to have a strong character. It's only natural that Dhea always demands to be loved, but... Once Dhea is able to love, Dhea willingly shares. Dhea willingly share mas jo with us."

I'm pensive, quiet.

"Open. Not that I mean we marry, continue mas also same marriage Dhea. Open, Diiih!"

I laughed, though,

So what does it mean?

"Dhea will and accepts if Mas Joko stays close to Daniel!"

"Obviously dong, it has to be! Whoever it is, Dhea or who knows! Must be willing to accept you as Daniela's mother, and must accept Daniela. Must be able to blend his feelings with you, so not a jealous drama that makes all the cracks. I know the limits!"

"Well, it's pinter!"

I'm surprised!

It turned out like this, Amanda's will.

"If you are alone?"

"Yes! It should be like Dhea. Accept our closeness as a family, accept you mas!"

Amanda blushed, her face flushed!

"Is there anything you haven't told me?" Pancangku. Looks like there's a part hidden.

"You don't accept me because there's another man? Who?" Desakku.

"No, not yet... That's not it!"

Obviously, this woman is interested in someone. Wh who?