The Wounds of the Past
Chapter 4 Still pov mbok inah
No longer my heart that blooms, my nose had been holding in a rough breath and also deflated flowers.
Laknat Women. But why is this heart still screaming, so great love is painful.
"Mas Jovan doesn't know yet?" Ask Amanda, confused. "Mbak Rhea hasn't told me this part?" Connect Amanda. Fearful.
"here.. Let's sit down again. Their stupid time. I locked the door." I answered while pulling Amanda's hand to sit back.
"Mas Jovan while eating a snack yes, this is a snack in Amanda's bag."
My God, what kind of woman, this Amanda. He could talk about food now.
"Remain sure, Mas Jovan hasn't eaten anything." Amanda jahil. A box of Daniela's favorite brownies.
Oh, Daniela.
My heartache.. Grievous.
"Don't cry anymore ah, mas. He said he told me to be strong. I was satisfied yesterday."
Amanda laughs. Maddened. Basic female. The mood changes often.
"Recents.. Everything's story." Command while devouring a piece of brownies. Actually, it's not just Daniela who can't stand chocolate. I am also a big fan of chocolate. Ah.. Never mind.
"So, I happen to be curious about HP mas Doni. Just now I'm interested in opening HP mas Doni. Mas Jovan also never open HP mbak Rhea, for sure."
Is correct.
"It just so happens that there is a contact of his beloved name. I have GR, mas. That must be me. And turns.. That's Rhee aa." Amanda's voice when saying Rhea's name really makes me want to strengthen this woman.
"It makes me nauseous. Fortunately, my brain is still sane. All that evidence I copied to my HP personally. After that, I pretended not to know what. Every night, I cry. After all that, I immediately opened up the stuff of the past. Looking for evidence about Rhea who had deliberately aborted the womb. I'm not a weak woman when I get hurt like this. Long ago, fandi was my girlfriend, mas. But I sincerely belong to Ms. Rhea. It's free for me to grab something that I don't think is important anymore. Make what. That's what made me record all the curhatan mbak Rhea. Stupid as well mbak Rhea, why confide in me. Although silent I am grateful, it is not in vain I take off garbage like fandi. After that, we returned to the office. Working together at Jovan's office, hehehe." Amanda laughs. His face began to look healed. Not as broken as before.
I laugh. Didn't expect Amanda to be sneaky enough.
"I'm the type of person who is always afraid and too vigilant, so recording all of that is just to keep watch if one day Mbak Rhea makes another act like taking Fandi from me. The way to snatch it is thin mas, polite and not discovered. I don't completely blame Fandi, we were separated at the time."
Amanda paused to eat the brownies in front of her. Crying makes you hungry. If aware.
"It really is. This now. Then, when I told you about Jovan. Rhea was interested. So it's not over yet, I decided to back off." Clearly Amanda while lowering her face.
Bummer.
You mean Amanda, she ever had any attention on me?
Describe it.. I used to be the most interested bachelor in the office.
"Then we began to be friends with the Doni mas. At first, Doni was very interested in Rhea. But because Rhea chose Jovan. So Doni's mas is backing down. I guess they really chose this friendship. It's moved on. Later, Rhea and Mas Jovan get married. And after me and Doni.Everything was fine until the holidays. Old love has not yet turned out. And they're really using a dajjal-like way."
We're silent. Same with shame.
"I went to see Rhea's mother while carrying a lot of evidence. And finally, Rhea explained everything. Apologizing. So is mason Dhoni. And fateful, when that mas Doni had to get out of town. I'm allowing. I'm stupid, stupid. Really stupid for always giving up when you see the face of Doni's mas."
The crying broke again, Amanda cried again. And I just shut up. Energies depleted.
"Mbak Rhea said that Jovan wouldn't believe any of this. Rhea's mother asked for time to explain herself to Mas Jovan."
I was silent, not knowing what to respond to. It's numb and numb.
"And when I sent you the proof Rhea removed the contents. Actually, I'm ashamed myself. Unlock the disgrace of others. I'm not comfortable with all this. But, besides that. I can't afford to hand myself over to Jovan's. I myself am not strong enough to see such a good person actually have to feel this kind of pain. Even though I want to destroy Rhea's mom with Doni. But, Mom, I can't. Love makes me give up."
I laughed, rubbing the tip of his head. The female labile.
"Are you a psychic?" Suddenly ask.
"Eh, what's mas?" Amanda shocked.
"You know what's going to happen."
"Gak mas. My instincts are pretty strong."
"Destroyed melted mas."
Amanda laughed at the laughter myself. Everything feels lighter when you laugh together. Until the knock on the door and Rhea's voice stopped us.
"Mas Jo" Shouted angry Rhea.
How not to get angry, just this first time I spent in the room with a woman other than him.
"We'd better get out, ma'am." Amanda's whisper was just answered nodding her head.
"Later, whatever happens. Do not show our weaknesses in front of them. Enough, yesterday they saw us destroyed."
We are just strengthening each other. To decide how to end the drama they are playing.
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"Why in the hell, Mas.?" Tegur Rhea sour.
My reaction was silent, let it be like the wind. I held Amanda's hand tightly. No need to consider Rhea's feelings anymore.
Now, the four of us are sitting together in the living room. If in the past this place was where we had a warm chat. Now, hot. Full of anger.
"I hope you all don't cut my words before I'm done." I said calmly.
All quiet.
Amanda plays her fingers, typical of Amanda when agitated.
Doni just lowered his head, his shoulders not after usual.
And the woman I trust the most in this world, looks at me with glass.
"Don, about Daniela. If later your household with Amanda is not maintained, then never claim custody of Daniela." Slowly I am. Calm.
I thought, overcoming all this is no longer necessary with shouting or crying.
"Then, about some of the shares I have at your place. That's Rhea's right, all of it. If in the future, you choose to live together. Then it can all be a provision for Rhea's lifestyle that I have never limited. You must also understand, his fashion sense."
Rhea looked at me in disbelief. Tears began to drip down her delicate cheeks.
"Later, Amanda. About me and Daniela, it's absolutely your right to decide."
Amanda nodded weakly, either in tune with what was on her mind or not.
"Last, Rhea. All this is enough to get here. You have everything that women out there want. It's just, you're too greedy to be the center of everyone's universe. It may be wrong to praise you too much. Makes you big-headed to feel worthy of having everything you want to have. From this moment on, we're done. And considering what happened last night, if you ever get pregnant, I need to be sure it's my descendant or the demon's descendant." My leg is steady. My heart breaks, let time heal.
Rhea was crying hysterically, hugging my legs while asking for another chance.
"My housekeeping problems with Rhea are over. If Rhea complicates the divorce process, then all the evidence about your affair will be brought by me. And about your household. You don't want to interfere. Please discuss it yourself."
After saying my last words. I hurried to leave them. Heading to the kitchen, looking for what I can consume without having to bother cooking.
Not peace.
It was just too painful to feel the pain.
For me it's all done. I don't need to get something that's not worth grabbing. There is no need to defend something that is not worth defending.
Isn't the best way to treat garbage is to throw it in the trash. Moreover, garbage that can not be recycled.
Today too, I have to leave this house. If necessary, do not go back to a painful place like this. Allow time to treat every inch of the wound.
"Please take care of my divorce with Rhea. As soon as." My orders go to someone over there.
From now on, this moment as well. I close my ears, I close my eyes, for every single thing about Rhea and Doni.
