The Wounds of the Past

Chapter 13(Emotion)

POV Dhea

My personal life is starting to go back to what it was a few years ago, all back to where it was. Of course I'm happy, everyone in the office is happy too. In fact, there were those who were silent celebrating all of this.

"For a long time no see, Dhe!" Greet Amanda to me. Long indeed, very long when compared with the habits of a few months ago. I smiled kindly, as usual.

"Today I have an appointment, Dhe?"

"It doesn't seem to exist, Mom"

"Can you please come back to my place?"

There must be something wrong. Amanda's mom's face is starting to calm down. Even though I realized that I was a stranger to them again, it was always like this. Worrying like a sister to her sister whom she cares deeply for.

"Can mom! Staying overnight?" tanyaku. As if to say that I was able to give everything to this woman in front of me.

I may have missed, I miss the old boss. Smile, laugh, be friendly and happy. Now then? Same miss, just with the capacity and other versions.

The boss smiled back at me, friendly to me, professional. Just that extent. Back to keep distance. Everything that has happened lately, such as yawning with the rest of the memories that make the heart so long.

No more lunch boxes!

No more figures that arrived came as a surprise!

No more clever babbles from a special little girl.

There is no more coercion that makes me grumble but still I do.

No more annoying dramas with cold, haughty men and sadistic mouths.

To this day. This beautiful woman came with a tired face that she did not hide. It's hypocritical that I don't admit, that I'm disappointed to be a stranger again, but hypocritical that if I don't admit it, my heart is happy. It was a pleasure to meet this amazing woman. I miss.

"Thank you, Dhe! Thank you!" Say this woman with a warm hug, just like I wanted.

I miss you, Mom. If only I could say that. In fact, I just kept quiet and hugged back tightly. Holding my eyes that are starting to heat up.

"I'll stay, Dhe. Later, if I haven't come home by the time you're home. No papa, right? I have something to take care of first."

I nodded in understanding, removing the smile to usher in the departure of this extraordinary woman.

Today's work went well, all is well. Even the boss also looks fine, despite occasionally losing focus. I don't know what is bothering his mind.

Of course it wasn't me, who was a nuisance in his head. Haha. Miris, the ending of me is too shameful.

[Darling! I miss.]

Isa, again sent a short message. I have ignored it a few times.

[Sa, you don't be evil. It took me the same to complete the status, but also always needed Keke as a complement to your life. Stop bothering me with all that shit! ]

Message sent. I decided to retaliate. Making sure the ordinary feelings in my heart are real.

[If this is bullshit, then give me a chance to meet you.]

Huh! You thick face!

[The love intake from Keke always makes you feel deprived, huh? Basic dong! You are the second! Must be willing to share.]

I smiled at her side.

[I don't need Keke! All I need is you, Dhe! Only You!]

Dih, it's delicious.

[You are not too valuable for me what struggle to take. Completely welcome to that cheap lady.]

Hahaha, I smiled blandly. Four years in vain.

"The hell?"

This voice, firm and deep. But it feels cool and soft.

"Yes, Boss."

My eyes were looking at the handsome man in front of me. Melted heart. My heart is pumping fast.

"Go to Amanda's?" ask the boss who instantly made my heart return to normal.

It's Amanda's. Obviously the brand is now plastered real on the face of this man.

I'm willing. They come back happy. They deserve to be together more than the boss with me.

"Yes, Boss. It's gonna be down in a minute." Reply quickly. Trying to cover everything in my heart and mind.

"You're the same Isa, how are you?"

"Good, Sir. Isa is healthy."

Actually I understand that's not what it means.

"That's not what I mean, Dhe!"

I smiled, "We're done, sir. Isa is not that important to defend."

Not as important as you are to my heart, boss. Togetherness and habit, make me comfortable to be by your side. Although, well... Your bad side.

"good. You deserve better."

"Yes, like dad?"

"Eh, meaning?"

My mouth is out of control again. Damnit damnit!

"Father deserves better, too, like Amanda's mom." My answer is on target.

I'm not okay, but with Amanda's mom, I'd be the boss!

My heart was broken and relieved, seeing the smile of the sunrise on the face of the now neat boss.

"New haircut, sir?"

I smiled amusedly. Gathering all the strength to appear ordinary.

"Yes. Good?"

This man laughed happily.

"It's good!"

"Amanda cut it yesterday."

Bugh! My chest was hit by an invisible raw bogem. Pain, Sir. Because I didn't have that chance either.

Again, I smiled. It hurts but there is a little bit of happiness.

They deserve to have it after all this happens.

"Can you cut your hair, too?"

Uh!

Mr Jovaaaaan! Don't you give me a little hope that can develop into god-level genitalia.

I just laughed, rather laughed at myself.

"Come Sir! I go first."

"Bareng, Dhe."

Just walking together can make me happy like this.

"You're actually not aware, Dhe? That Amanda's trying to be a matchmaker for us?"

I'm nodding. At first it sucks, now it's the thing I miss the most.

"I'm sorry, Dhe. If I hurt you without me noticing."

I nodded again. It hurts, sir. Just so the cleaner clean in the heart of the father continues after completion must go.

"You want to apologize to Amanda, too, Dhe?"

I nodded again, sick sir. We can stop talking.

"You love me?"

I nodded, uh----I

"Eh! You asked what?"

Hahaha, the boss's laughter echoes. Looking at me funny while shuffling my hair.

"Focus you on the road to where, Dhe?"

"Not road anyway, sir. Just left in my heart."

Liaaaa!

I took over, now replace the bumbling, dead-style boss.

"I go first, Sir. Bye byeee the handsome boss!" Godaku.

Let me sir, let this little happiness belong to my heart. Just like this, I'm happy, sir.

For the first time, I loved. After all this time, I just focused on being loved. And, God seemed to be joking when he gave this feeling to me, because... I love you both. Pity becomes a love so blue.

Loving is letting go, willing to see you happy even without me.

Pov Jovan

"Yes, Sir?" There was a sweet sound at the end there. Soft and soothing at the same time obedient, although sometimes like ignorant.

Unknowingly, I sighed softly, "Today I asked Amanda for a driver. It's gonna rain."

Why should I worry?

After all, he also usually does use a motorcycle, right?

Fuck up! Fill your mind so make dizzy.

"Wear the motor, sir. Not good with Amanda."

I took a rough breath, "hp's right to Amanda!"

"What do you want, sir?"

"About anyways!" Stickler. Surprised myself, why do I have to rant for something absurd.

"Not ah! Yes sir, this is ready for breakfast!"

"I'm telling you, I miss Daniela!"

Exact reason!

"Have read my father's plan in my head, see you at the office, sir! Don't miss me."

I was still fixated, my lips twisting a smile as bright as the sun. Warm, there is a warm feeling in my heart.

For a long time my brain was affected by the forced phrase I always heard by Amanda, "Dhea is the best of all women, Mas."

"Dhea yesterday made Daniela brownies lo mas!"

"Dhea is sweet, it's gemesin!"

All about Dhea, this Dhea.. Dhea it. Not to mention all the patience Dhea had, the sincerity that felt real. For a moment, I thought Dhea was a decent and worthy girl to replace Rhea.

Close to Amanda, close to Daniela. But everyone can change, right? At first it was fine, maybe later it could incarnate something scary. It could all happen, right?

Amanda, though, is getting a divorce from Doni. However, until now, I don't even know exactly what the reason for their eventual separation was. In fact, their reason for staying together is also I don't know.

I'm not a naive man who didn't expect Amanda to be fully present in my life. After everything was taken over by Amanda, all. Even about appearance. All the clothes Amanda bought. That detail.

But why can't Amanda accept my presence? Why hang with that stupid guy. Why, the demon guy allowed Amanda to do everything, even well... We both know the limits to where.

[Don't be late, Mum. There's something I want to talk about, it's important!]

My eyes were fixed on the short message that Amanda just sent.

[You're nganterin Dhea?]

This morning it was really raining, not just the sky cloudy.

[Yes! Aduuuh, who began to love attention. I was jealous]

Whats?

Of jealousy?

A faint laugh appeared on my lips.

"I deserve to be Amanda's husband, Mr Nur?" ask me slowly while still smiling because of the message I have not yet replied to.

"Of course, sir. Moreover, this is good for non Daniela"

Fine, very good. We can be a whole family to Daniela after everything that happened to me and Amanda.

[Why not marry me?]

Undeliverable. At the end of the day, that question I almost repeat every time I get a chance.

[I love you, Jo! We have a whole package]

The answer is the same. It's always like this.

[So?]

Ask again.

You're Amanda!

An enigmatic woman who is hard to predict. Why should he doctrine me about Dhea, if he wants to be with me.

"A long time, my mom? Jammed?"

Aaaah!

Two amazing women were now standing in front of me, with smiles that were intact.

"You guys have arrived since?" my many. There was a strong pounding in my heart, either because of seeing Amanda's brighter face and Amanda's treatment that now approached and kissed the back of my hand. Or because he saw Dhea's face that looked so accepting, even though there was a glimmer of jealousy in his eyes.

After a light conversation, Amanda and I went inside. Leaving behind the smiling Dhea.

"Mass?"

"em!"

"Mas is starting to like Dhea?"

"Little."

"Banyaaak, but prestige would say."

"Have you ever thought or just imagined we should be a utub family?"

Amanda who had a ignorant face had already interjected into a scary serious woman.

"Pardon me if I don't admit that I want to have you, too, mas. After everything that happened to us."

Unintentionally, I took a deep, heavy breath. There are always wounds, every thought.

"I-I'm not that good, Mas. All this time, I also felt proud to be able to occupy the position of Lady Jovan indirectly. Showing Rhea that she can't always have what I want. I can turn things around too, yeah! I have everything Rhea wants."

Amanda laughed savagely, eeriely. The other side of Amanda.

It's natural!

I understand and understand. Amanda has always been so relented to all Rhea's treatment.

"I enjoy my role, all about you other than the bed, is under my control. I'm actually an evil mas, using Jo's mas as one of the tools to destroy every inch of Doni's feelings. You don't know this, do you?"

I had guessed. Something is wrong between the two of them.

"Luckily, Jo didn't want to hear everything about Doni and Rhea all this time. So I can focus, fix myself and Jo's mas."

"Why did you finally decide to divorce Doni?"

After a long time, I was finally able to say this name back.

"Because I'm starting to be okay."

Amanda's words riveted me, her face soaked with tears that she was now smiling with relief and happiness.

Wh why?

"Why?"

"Because I love you the same Jo. I feel entitled to make sure that Jo's happy before I determine my own happiness."

Falling, falling my tears that I had just put on my eyelids. I hugged this amazing woman. Whatever the reason, I was lucky to have him by my side.