The Most Beautiful Miss

Flashback: The Doctor is Back

From that day on, everything changed. Mama can smile again and I see her face radiant and always cheerful. My brother seemed to accept my presence with an open heart. But me? I kept being cold to him. I was indifferent and thought he had not returned. He; well I made the doctor talk with 'he' in my heart.

My heart is still wondering, where has he been all this time?

What's the reason for leaving?

What's the reason for coming back?

Why did you come back after 6 years?

Doesn't he feel guilty?

Question after question danced in my mind.

Every now and then I steal a glance at the doctor.

He looked more handsome, more white, slightly full body, his hair neat.

"It seems like the doctor's life has been happy and prosperous for 6 years" I murmured in my heart.

I turned my eyes towards my mother. Without me knowing there was water in the corner of my eye. It fell slowly and flowed down my cheeks. Mama is just the opposite, mama looks skinny.

"For this man.." My mind is full of anger.

Well, it seems like I was thinking too far and too grown up before my age. Like a kid my age still thinks about toys, thinks about kites, thinks about mobilan. I just think about how to make money and make mama happy without having to see the hand blister because of detergent and soap again.

I took a deep breath and released him in annoyance.

The doctor turned his face to me. There's a guilty look there. I think he understands what I feel and what I think.

The doctor walked towards me. Then sit down next to me.

"What class are you in?" he tried to melt the atmosphere.

I looked at him and then turned my face. You don't answer that unimportant question. He should have known for himself without me answering and explaining. If he was a good father. Uh, but he's not a good dad anyway, proof he dumped us and wasted us.

"We've been good enough to let the doctor sleep here last night, now the doctor has to explain everything" ketus and cold ujarki.

Every night I watched those tears fall in vain. Which child is not broken and willing to tear it down. Especially just for this one.

The doctor took a breath and released him slowly.

"Sorry.." That's the first sentence he said.

"Papa's really sorry." he continued.

The three of us were silent without any reaction.

"Sorry papa left you and sorry papa just returned.." his voice began to sound hoarse.

"Why?" my mom responded quickly.

"Papa knows.you'll have a hard time forgiving papa.." she started shedding tears.

"Just continue the story, there's no need to shed tears" I sniffled. I'm really disgusted by her tears, I don't need those tears. Really!!!!

"The whole story." she added, wiping away the tears.

"Over our suffering" the Khalif bang spoke this time.

The doctor looked at us one by one.

"So, forgot to go home? Or forget to have children and wives in the village?" added brother began to get upset.

"Eat bang.." I murmured inwardly.

"I'm sorry." he said that sentence again.

My mother was silent and didn't speak at all. I know, Mama was also waiting for that explanation from yesterday afternoon when she came back.

Suddenly quiet. Maybe he was stringing words or trying to remember the events of the past 6 years. Or thinking where to start.

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