The Most Beautiful Miss

Don't Torture Yourself

That morning, Qeisha woke up from her sleep with a troubled heart. His heart was pounding strongly, he felt that something was missing from him. Such intense guilt seemed to scare his heart and anxiety became a good morning from a heart full of regret.

"Have you woken up yet?" he murmured in the heart.

Qeisha got out of bed and rushed to take a bath. But his mind was always on Adhit who he was disappointed last night. He sped up his movements so that the bath would be finished quickly. He wanted to take a shower and explain something to the person he really loved. After taking a shower, he rushed out of the room.

"I have to explain something to her." whispered inwardly as she ran into Adhit's room.

He knocked on the door a few times. But there was no answer from within.

"He's still sleeping?" qeisha whispered softly and continued to try banging on the door, this time stronger than the one before.

"Wait.." came a scream from inside.

"Where's adhit?" Qeisha raised his eyebrows when he saw the figure that opened the door.

"He doesn't have a phone call or a chat?" Niko got a little jutek and came out of the room.

"Chat's? Wh why? I haven't held a cell phone since..." Qeisha followed Niko's steps.

"What are our activities today?" ask Niko with a smile. Well, his smile looks stiff.

"I'm just where Adhit is... Don't want to hear you about our activities..." Qeisha looked confused mixed in annoyance.

"He's been leaving the island since morning blind..." Niko stared at the blue sea with beautiful white sand.

"Leaving the island?"

"Yeah.... He asked me to accompany you on this holiday..."

Qeisha fell silent and bit her own lower lip.

"I hope you are satisfied now... You're satisfied, aren't you?" Niko reluctantly looked at Qeisha's face.

"Years - years we fought together for his recovery..."

"Year - the year you spent caring for your patient..."

"You're the nurse, I think you know best how she is..."

"Your sincerity is what made her fall in love and it was that love that always encouraged her to heal and rise from adversity.."

"I was proud of you, Qei.... " Niko tried to stare at the girl in front of her from top to bottom.

"She never told me when she fell in love with you, but I could see that love was there the first time she was conscious from her coma..."

"But one thing I regret.. Why are you pretending to return her love?"

"Why do you like to play with someone's heart? Someone you clearly know has a history of depression?"

"Why Qei? Had you not played the role of loving him, he wouldn't have been this sick.."

"It's better to be hurt with honesty Qei.."

"False love from your sweet mouth is poison to him.."

Qeisha who was initially silent and received Niko's maki curse now began to make a sound and with full emotion he approached Niko.

"Enough!!! Enough Nik all your words have been exaggerated!!!!"

"I'm overreacting?" Niko looked upset.

"Do you know what I feel???? Huh!!!" Qeisha opened his eyes.

"I think every woman wants marriage.. Especially if married by someone she loves.." Niko lowered her voice.

"I also want marriage.." Qeisha.

"But not married to Adhit?" Niko looked at Qeisha with a question mark.

"I love Adhit.. From the beginning I saw it.. Before he even realized.. Even when he first entered the ER, I was pounding looking at his face.."

"I want a decent marriage..."

"A proper marriage do you think is one that hundreds of families are aware of?"

"I...." Qeisha looked doubtful.

"After me, the marriage had two brides, there was a guardian, and the marriage was without coercion.."

"It's not that..."

"So every orphan can't marry? Or should an orphan have to find a future wife who is also an orphan?"

"Niko.. Try to understand my wishes.. I loved him.. But if I'm getting married, I can't..."

"So you chose to keep going?"

"Maybe...."

"okay... I get it now... I'm sorry..." Niko walked away from Qeisha.

"Snick... Nik.. Niko...." Qeisha tries to catch up to Niko.

Niko stopped her steps and turned her body around.

"What's? Come on. I'll accompany you to enjoy this island and after that go as far as possible..."

"I don't need this vacation without Adhit.. Where's adhit? Please tell me.." pinta Qeisha said.

"I don't know where he is and where he is" replied Niko flatly.

"I'll get off this island..." Qeisha ran to the room and looked for her cell phone.

He read the message sent by Adhit. Her tears welled up reading every sentence that Adhit wrote there.

Qeisha replied to the message while wiping away the tears that had come down without her stopping.

* Where are you, dear?

* I want to explain something... Please meet me for a moment....

* Where are you? I'll catch up.. Don't torture me like this, Adhit...

* I wouldn't be able to enjoy this holiday without you.. Please understand my position...

* Sweet...

* Darling why your WA is not active...

Qeisha tried to call Adhit's number many times and it turned out that Adhit did turn off his phone.

* If you activate HP, please let me know...

* I love you.. More than you can imagine.."

* Don't run from trouble and avoid me like this.. Don't torture me and don't torture yourself..."

* I'm waiting for you...

Qeisha buried her head in a pillow and cried. His heart was in turmoil, guilt and regret were mixed.

"I'm sorry, honey... I'm too selfish.." she's full of tears.

"Take care of yourself.don't repeat your stupidity just yet.. I love you..."

Qeisha is caught up in her own feelings. Trapped in a trap of selfishness that he created himself. Now he is more worried and hesitant about his own decision.

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