The Most Beautiful Miss

Forget that!

Niko walked up to me and helped me lift my suitcase. He looked at me full of curiosity. Checking my fingers, checking my legs, body, and checking my head. It was as if he was looking for a gap in my flaws.

"Iiihh what the hell.." I hit him on the head slowly.

"Examination.." she replied casually.

"I'm bad at it." I snorted annoyed.

"No.. Afraid that something might be missing or diminishing from the perfection of this handsome friend of mine.." he walked towards the parking lot.

"Tumben admits I'm handsome?"

"Eeh flinched.." she covered her mouth with her left hand. I just smiled and followed him behind.

"Well eat?" niko asked as she put my suitcase in the car.

"Not hungry Ko.. We'll just go home." I'll just get in the car. And before long Niko was also sitting on the bench.

Niko looked at me deeply and scrunched her forehead. There are a thousand questions now.

"If I wanted to go where I was, I would just make room for my heart." I tried to guess what he wanted to ask.

"And if I go where I go, I just sleep in one of the hotels in Batam.. And don't worry I don't drink alcohol or anything like that there.. Just make room for my heart and me so I can take all this.."

Niko had not yet responded to my words, I had first continued the explanatory sentence to her.

"Well, I'm good.. It's checked, right? There is nothing lacking in my body.. Be calm.. How I left Jakarta a few days ago when I came back..". I smiled and played my brow as if to signal that I was really very good - fine.

"Qeisha calls me every day just to ask about you.." Niko tilted her head.

"Don't discuss Qeisha for now... I don't hate him and I don't have any grudges.. That's the choice he made.. But please don't talk about him first.."

"I know you're no good - just fine..."

"Niko... I'm good - all right.. Losing someone who's too much means I've been through.."

"I know... But he has strengthened you all this time..." Niko looked at me with tears starting to bathe her eyeballs.

"Now your work is increasing.. Strengthen me.." I threw a smile at him.

"That must be..."

"Yes, he's on the hunt for his car.. When to get home if gini.." I pointed at the steering wheel in front of Niko.

"Hehehe.. Sorry bro.." Niko wiped away the tears in her eyes. Then we started the car and left the airport.

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"Bro.. Qeyisha..." Niko pointed at her phone screen when she got home.

"Have ahold of.."

"Udah.. He's asking you.." Niko closed her phone screen with her palm.

"Say I'm sleeping.."

"Qey... Adhit's asleep.. And she has returned home safely, you don't have to worry anymore." Niko heard giving an explanation to Qeisha.

I walked up from Niko to the room. My steps stopped when I reached the stairs. My eyes caught the door of the room to the left of the stairs. Well, that was Qeisha's room for all the years she's been in this house.

"This room will be empty forever." I whispered slowly.

"Bro.. Why don't you try to convince Qeisha to accept the proposal?" Niko suddenly stood beside me.

"For what?" answer's short.

"You love each other.. It's just an ego problem.."

"It's not an ego problem.. But it's Ko's choice.."

"But you can convince him... Maybe this proposal surprised him.."

"Let's not.. I won't repeat the same mistake.."

"What mistake?" Niko raised her eyebrows.

"Applying is a mistake.. Precisely because of my desire, now I can not see him again.. I lost it.."

"You can still fight..." Niko tried to give me some spirit.

"Fighting alone is tiring.." I smiled and patted Niko on the shoulder.

"The problem is that you love each other..."

"If he loves me, he will accept all my shortcomings, including accepting the fate that I don't have any more parents and family." I walked up the stairs to my room.

"We are your family." shouted Niko from under the stairs.

I gave a thumbs up to Niko and pulled the doorknob and entered the room.

"I'm sorry Qei.. I'm not that strong yet to be able to hear your voice." I murmured inwardly.

I dropped my body very hard on the bed. Then look at the sky-sky room while imagining the face of Qeisha. I don't know why I was pounding when Niko mentioned Qeisha's name. And this room, too many memories of Qeisha. When I was still his cold, rough, raging patient suddenly. He took care of me and tried to calm me down. And all too often I snapped at him in this room, throwing the medicine grains in his face. I treated him very rudely a few years ago.

"Is he just pretending to love me?"

"Or does he just want revenge?"

"But whatever the intention is in your heart... I'm now wounded Qei..."

"Whatever you do during the temple - pura loves me, I do not deny all of it is able to change my personality.. Thank you for making me friendlier to everyone.."

"I could never hate you.. Because after all, you have restored me to a more human being. I can get close again to my creator.. And I will never doubt God again and will never again blame the destiny that God has set for me."

"Includes a destiny that does not unite us in marriage.. Although your reasons are painful, but it's a destiny I have to live.."

"Let me forget you for a moment... Miss you in silence. To be the most beautiful miss..."

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