The Most Beautiful Miss

Flashback: All my fault

I'm trying to recount what happened six years ago. Before, I refused to tell everything. Even on Qeisha, I have never told in detail the events for the sake of the events that I actually experienced.

The flashback:

After moving to Jakarta and I went to school there. I attended Elementary School, Junior High School and High School in a private school that is quite famous in Jakarta. In that school among the upper class and average artist children also school there. Ever since High School I started hanging out with bad boys, with his naughty quotes still within reasonable limits. My hobby at that time was to gather with friends and participate in wild races. But, Thank God I have never been affected by drugs or liquor. I don't even smoke. He had wanted to try several times but did not dare because of papa's hard and disciplined upbringing.

Long story short, I was far inversely proportional to the Khalif bang. He is more quiet, polite, obedient to all papa's words. He studied Architecture at the University of Indonesia and even he was able to achieve cumlaude and graduated with a very short time. He also never wandered, he was just engrossed in books and computers in his room.

While me?

I'm a dissident child, but only to papa. I still hold a bit of grudge against him. But no matter what order comes out of your mouth, I never dare to argue. Papa always boasts of his eldest son in front of me. But it doesn't make me jealous and hate my brother.

"That's his life.and this is my life.it's his choice.

But from my academic performance is also not very ugly. In school, I was still able to win second place. But that doesn't make you proud of me.

"Why are you so ugly?" that was my comment when I saw my report.

"That's already a champion, pa." chirped me.

"But rank two... See your brother dong. always ranked first and champion umun in his school..."

"It was also a desperate attempt at.." I tried to defend myself.

"You're less loud!!! Fun to wander here and there... What do you want to be?"

"Papa can never appreciate any results of my efforts. from the first pa. from the sixth grade of SD until now I am the third grade of High School.."

"What do you need to appreciate? Mentok - stuck only until the second rank..."

"But I tried.... When the hell am I gonna be valuable in papa's eyes." I argue again.

"If you can graduate at the Faculty of Medicine UI." replied the man firmly.

"Medicine? Oh my goodness... When did you lose your egoism?" I continued to argue his words.

"Papa is not selfish..."

"What then Paa?? From the start of SMP and SMA papa arrange all.. I want State school but Papa's forcing it to Private school right?"

"That's the best school in the capital..."

"Yes best according to papa... Don't you think Pa?"

"Should be grateful and proud! After all your brother also went to school there and he was able to achieve all his ideals.. See now he has finished his studies.. Get a bachelor easily.."

"I'm grateful.. But I also want to make my choice Paa.. Including school where and later college where with what majors..."

"Follow your wishes if you want to succeed.."

"Abang can choose his college majors according to his wishes.. But me? Let alone college Paa.. Majors at SMA aja papa who set.. I don't like this major, but I'm still trying hard to give you the best grades for papa..."

"Because you have to become a doctor so from now on you are majoring in IPA!!!!"

"Why can you choose me not?"

"Because papa wants you to succeed..."

"It doesn't have to be a doctor, does it??"

"Must!!! If you are still in disrepute.. You can go to college with any major you want.. But find your own tuition and find another house..."

"But Paa...."

"Student learning to graduate at UI and if you fail, you should try again next year!!!"

"If I could choose my own major, I'm sure I can now also rank one and general champion in school.. I'll still be majoring in Economics when I go to college!"

"Please Adhit! But prepare yourself to find your own tuition and living expenses.."

"Papa. please.." I said.

"Now, you are studying diligently.in a few months you will be taking the Final Examination... And then the test to get into the University.."

Papa left me with all the resentment that filled my chest. Mama just kept quiet watching the debate, and it happened a lot. Mama approached me.

"Udah darling.. Follow papa's wishes... It's for the good of the dick and the future of the dick.."

"Believe the mother... Adek could've.." mama hugged me tight.

"And yet my mother is not on my side" I murmured inwardly.

The condition of the house like this is what makes me reluctant to linger at home. I'd rather spend my time outside with a friend.

****

Graduation day is coming.

I am still with the same rank as the previous achievements. Even though he has tried hard to get the highest score and wants to make papa proud. But I failed.

"Good darling... Mama is proud of what she achieved.." Mama hugged me and kissed my forehead and cheeks.

"Good deck.. Brother is proud you can keep second place.. At least the value of adek does not go down.." bang Khalif embrace me and embrace me.

"Congratulations Adhit... Although Papa is not satisfied with this value, but papa is proud.."

I looked up and was shocked. For the first time papa said the phrase "proud" for me. I smiled and I hugged my body firmly.

"Adhit craved this compliment for a long time, Paa.." without me noticing my tears.

Papa patted my back slowly.

"If papa is not hard, Adhit will not be more active than usual... Papa dear Adhit.. And papa wants Adhit to succeed and be able to stand on Adhit's own feet later.."

"Yes paa." I kept hugging him.

"Papa does not want after papa is not in this world, Adhit life is slow - hanging is not clear.. Papa wants Adhit to succeed with his own efforts without relying on anyone else.."

For the first time I felt the warmth of a father's embrace. I just realized his hard upbringing was not because it was not dear, but very caring and very dear to me.

"Adhit will be more active for the University entrance exam, Paa.." I took off my arms and convinced papa with my words.

"Yes, papa believes... But still the first choice take Medicine yes.. The second and third choices are up to Adhit.."

"If Adhit doesn't pass medicine?" my many.

"That is not the windfall of Adhit, but keep trying as hard as you can..."

"Adhit dear papa.." for the first time in years I revealed it.

****

Today is the announcement of the results of the Negri University entrance examination that I have done some time ago. That time saw the results of graduation through the newspaper. In the morning papa has bought a newspaper with a passionate enthusiasm. Mom woke me up and asked to go to the family room.

"Sad... Ooo.. Adek.." papa yells from the living room.

"Yes pa.." I approached papa while handing over my test taker's card.

Papa and Mama eagerly search for the name and exam number listed on the card.

"Alhamdulillah.... Adek passed.." said mama half yelled. And suddenly made me realize and my sleepiness was completely gone.

I pulled the newspaper that Papa still holds. I was trying to find my name there. And it turns out that there is a name "Adhitama Syahputra" in the paper. But I fell silent as I looked at the majors who received my grades. I looked straight at papa.

"I'm sorry Adhit, Paa.." I bowed lethargic because for the umpteenth time I let papa down. Papa let out a deep sigh, then walked up to me and sat down beside me.

"You know, Adhit's been trying really hard.. Rejeki Adhit at the Faculty of Economics, really son... This is your dream major.. And this is papa's dream university.. At least Adhit graduated at the University of Indonesia" papa kissed my forehead.

I don't know why the end of this papa is so different to me. Papa is sweeter and shows more unfortunately to me. I've been getting along lately, papa. Papa a few days ago bought me my dream car. Though I never asked, papa has his own initiative.

***

That incidence....

A week passed from graduation day. Papa and I have made administrative payments and papa has settled all his expenses for the next year. Papa also handed me some ATM cards.

"This is a store and use if adek need to.."

"whose ATM card is this, Paa?" many wonder.

"This is papa's savings specifically for adek education.. Papa nabung from the beginning adek moved here. and savings for education brother already papa handed over time brother entered college.."

"Thank you, Paa.." Then he handed me two more ATM cards. I'm back confused.

"Nah ATM BCA is good store adek.. That's savings for S2 adek later.. It's a mama who's been mum since Junior High.." This time my mother explained.

"Well if the ATM Mandiri it, make a fee adek.. Can be used to buy gasoline, snacks, buy books and all these savings books in the name of adek.. Mama took care of it." added mama.

"Why didn't mom help keep all this?" I'm getting curious.

"We also gave up the right of brother when brother entered college." replied mama softly.

"Thank you mama.. Thank you papa.." I hugged my parents in turns.

My brother came and approached us.

"A way to hand over savings, huh Maa?" tanyanya while grabbing the ATM from my hand.

"Well.had to learn great ya deck.. Don't be extravagant." brother put the card back in my hand.

I gave a gesture of respect. "Good senior!!"

"We went to Bandung, didn't we, Maa?" asked my brother to come up to my mom and hold her in his arms.

"So dong..." Papa answered.

"Tomorrow to be ready." take papa.

Brother patting - pat my shoulder.

"Big baby ayoo get ready." take her with me while pulling my hand.

Today there's a papa's wedding. Although we are not very familiar with them but still have to be present. At least to appreciate this boss of ours.

We wear family uniforms. I wear brown pants and a batik shirt with black patterns mixed with gold. My mom uses the same batik.

"Wear a new car, Paa." I asked.

"Don't... Use papa's car.." boss sir's orders.

"OK." I agree.

"Anything that drives ya.." Papa's orders.

"Every boss..."

Mom sat in front with her brother who was driving the car. Dad and I sit in the back. We left Jakarta with all the noise and chaos. About half an hour away, papa asked the Khalif bang to stop.

"Papa thirst bang.. Buy a drink first bang.." ordered the chairman.

"Yes, my throat feels dry." Mama added.

"Yes also yes pa. later entered the toll can not buy a drink.." brother agreed to the chairman's order.

After finding the self-service, he stopped. Me and Khalif bang down to buy mineral water and some snacks for snacks.

"Let me pay." said bang Khalif.

"Okay.." answered me passionately.

After paying for all the groceries, the Khalif bang brought the plastic bag and handed me his wallet.

"Hold the wallet deck brother.. It's hard to get into the bag.."

I received her purse and directly stuffed it into the front pocket of my pants.

"Awas missing his wallet." grumbled the Khalif bang

"Brother..."

Bang Khalif gave up the grocery bags into the car.

"Bao.. Adek who drives yes." I asked softly.

Without thinking long bang Khalif handed the key to my hand. I got into the car and started the car with a heart. Put on a seat belt and start driving the car slowly. Mama, papa, and brother drank mineral water with a very thirsty person. We entered the toll and coincided the drizzle began to fall.

"Heart - heart drive yes deck. drizzle gini slippery road.." papa reminded.

"Father boss." I replied.

Mama looked at me affectionately and then smiled. I returned my mother's smile gently. The streets looked empty that afternoon. I've increased the speed of the car a bit and it's true that the road is very slippery.

Suddenly in front of me a truck stopped suddenly. And I tried to hit my car's brakes.

Sayup rang in my ears mama shouted.

"Snack..... Watch out....!!!!"

And my shoulder in the grip was very strong from behind and my brother also shouted loudly.

"Oh God...."

And....

Aka!!!!!

A violent clash hit my body.

****