The Love of the Former

DCSM chapter 66

Life is full of trials, full of trials and full of all things unexpected. Neither did I, ever, think about my complicated love story and my endless journey with cries and wounds.

I'd be lying if I'd never been shaken to know what happened. Whether it is true or not, there can never be smoke without fire. That saying is very accurate.

Whatever it is I have to be able to hold it. Not because I am strong, but rather my responsibility to maintain the integrity of my household. If I am wrong then my husband is the one who must remind me and take me back to the right path. And vice versa, and now it's my turn.

My husband's actions I didn't allow, but I won't turn it on either. As long as I'm with her a little bit I understand how she is. His attitude and actions I know. Although his personal life in the past I never knew.

Luckily, Andri was willing to help me find the evidence needed to save this household. I don't know where the belief is, obviously I really believe this time my husband is just in the trap.

Pessimistic for sure, because I know the evidence is very burdensome for my husband. But I never give up. It was enough that I gave up once with my love and now I will keep it.

Until the day before I decided to take him out of the hospital. I got a proof that I either had to be happy or had to cry for it. Even the explanation of the doctor at that time seemed to tear down my throat. But I don't want to be selfish.

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"Yank, can I tell you?" After I fed her dinner, Valdi invited me to sit in bed.

The movement is still limited, according to doctors at that time because more white blood cells to affect the performance of red blood. Even for the bathroom, my husband needs time because the limp in both his legs prevents him from walking hastily.

As usual, before going to bed we will tell a story for a while. But the activity stopped because of a disaster and he was sick.

"I know you will be disappointed in me. Maybe you'll be angry, but I can't cover all this up from you any longer yank."

I was still silent, feeling his increasingly irregular heartbeat. Even his arms felt tighter on my shoulders.

"Just tell me, I'll listen."

"Diyah is pregnant, her gestational age is already 2 months. You must have heard how he chased me long before we got married. I thought it would all be over after I married you and she stopped her madness. But I was wrong, he was still crazy. And the peak when you return to Java at that time. There was a meeting with a friend. I came too, and at that moment I didn't know why I forgot anything. When I woke up in the morning, I was in a hotel room with him. And her current pregnancy is my responsibility. But honestly, I didn't feel anything at that time."

I'm still silent, all these stories are exactly the same as Andri told me. Although I have heard from Andri, my heart still hurts.

"You did that with him?" My voice shakes, I cry without being able to prevent it.

"I'm not sure, my friend. I told you I forgot whatever happened. I just remember coming to tell each other stories and then we had a drink. Then Andri came with fried rice but then I forgot what happened. I woke up in a hotel room. According to Andri I was driven home by Gagas, because he came to bring a car. I tried calling Gagas' number but it didn't work. Until now I couldn't contact her."

"Don't cry yank. I'm sorry, I may be wrong but I'm sure I don't feel anything."

I was still crying, my husband's embrace was getting tighter. He repeatedly kissed the top of my head while saying an apology. All the stories I heard from Andri even I met Fendy without my husband's knowledge. With Andri I tried different ways to look for evidence.

Until I fell asleep in the same position. Clutching each other without letting go. I have strengthened my heart to keep what I have. I'm not going to let go because I'm sure things aren't as bad as other people see them.