The Love of the Former

DCSM chapter 56

"Are you serious?" The Imam's face turned red after I told him what I had experienced on my first night.

His eyes looked at me with a stern look. Right now, we're making a vidio call. The priest urged me to tell him. He was never satisfied with my explanation saying he only wanted to know about Mas Pri.

"Why are you just telling me now, maybe even you'll keep it covered if I don't force you to tell a story. Arsita, I loved you a long time ago. You even know that!! I don't care how you and I end up. But, baby, it's still here." The priest pointed at his own chest.

The look of angry eyes made me shudder in horror. I chose to keep everything to myself because I thought everything was the result of my mistake. And consider it natural, with what Mas Pri said. Because in reality I made him suffer.

"I look after you with my heart, Ar. I've never touched you like I did with my other girlfriends. You're special to me, I don't want to hurt you by forcing what I want. But now you make me regret it. Regret the doubt to make you mine first."

The priest restored his coarse hair and scooped his face in frustration. I was confused by his behavior. Luckily, he is now in Jajag, home of his parents without a very wife. Faith that was visiting her sick mother had to be bothered with my business. He's the only one who's trying so hard to get Mas Pri's word from his other friends.

Mas Pri accidentally removes the tracks of his closest friends including Imam. Luckily, there was Rudi who was still willing to help the Imam.

Imam shakes. With deep breaths drawn, the eyes looked very angry but his gaze remained as shady as ever. I even missed her comfort when she calmed me down. But soon I got that perverted feeling. I realized, I was no longer Arsita who was free as well as Imam. Even for this one I couldn't bear to tell my own husband.

I was scared, very scared. Seeing the Imam's reaction just like this, what about Valdi. I couldn't see that disappointed look from her. I love him from when. Valdi who always tries to make me happy and always makes me the main one. He never even got angry or forbade me from making friends with my other best friend. Although he knew, most of them were men.

"Even if he forgives you, it won't change anything. Except, you did as he said back then. In a state of anger and his soul was injured, Pri vented all the emotions he had. His love is so big for you. But your destiny is complicated."

"In this case, I can't blame anyone. You are both shackled by the love that has been ingrained from your childhood to adulthood. It's only natural that the taste is so deep. But Pri's actions also can't be justified. He should never have uttered that curse for you."

The priest never gave his eyes to me. I have no power to contain all the feelings that are raging in my heart. There is regret, anger hate and also longing to be one. But it was the guilt of my husband that dominated so much at this time. I didn't even have the courage to hope for more. With everything I'm going through now.

Should I give up?