The Hijrahku Journey

IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO HAVE BOTH

Looking at the phone screen, I lyrics there is a message coming in from Erik.

"Cha sorry for lying to you all this time but I promise I'll break up April for you, I love you too much."Woo Erik with the same words while seducing April.

"No need to worry I already know everything even what you said the same I was exactly the same one that sent April the same as me last night."I sent them photos of their conversations.

"So you're still communicating the same April ???, why the hell are you still communicating." Erik's upset.

"Yes even he told me everything so you don't need to be a fight anymore because it has no effect on me,instead of you tired of convincing me you better forget me because you will not be able to have it both ways.I back off and support you with April, April,he also needs you now because you too he dropped.Ne can't eat because he thinks of you,he still loves you when you've played him.You should be grateful April still gives you a chance even though you've hurt him so much." I started to get blood riding hearing Erik.

"But I still love you too." Basic man is heartless, casually saying that.

"Forget it because I am tired of you being that plain-plan, too,I know you want to have it second but I'm sorry I can't.Make what I stand with men who have shared their feelings for other women, men who are uncertain." I could no longer hold back my emotions so I overflowed all my anger, no matter how angry he was because of himself.

"I promise cha will break up in April so she can be with you." The exact same seduction at the time of the chat with April.

"No need, no need,from the beginning I believed in you and I seriously did not want to mess around anymore but it turns out you are not serious so why do I survive if you yourself are not sure.Sorry I already do not want to date even if there's a guy who likes me, it's the one who came to see my parents not you who's not clear."I return to anger me.

"Give me another chance, cha, just once."Still seducing but no longer influential for me.

"There's no more, you better focus on April who's sick because of you." My advice.

"That's too childish cha not like you're grown up, eat it like I'm time to break up April so we can be together again." Not desperate to seduce.

"No more chances, no more,he has accepted all your shortcomings by enduring even though he knows your heart is divided for others but he still accepts while you are otherwise,you should accept all the shortcomings of your partner do not you ugly right he like this.Regat Rik, the girl like April that deserves to be defended is not me." Although upset but still I give advice let his brain right a little.

"Udah yes rik, forget me and stick with April,she needs you and loves you very much.From April's story too I heard you were often jealous if she came out with her friend but if the same I you never got jealous in the least,it was obvious to me that you love April more than me." I took out everything I sniffed out.

"It's not that cha, I love you and if I'm not jealous it's because I believe you're loyal not the type of girl who likes to wander around, she said,unlike him who always lies when he meets other guys there." Still trying to convince me by blaming April.

"That's right.ugly again when he's wrong, he's wrong,already you are honest if more dear to April.Why is it so hard Rik to say Yes so that everything is finished anyway lies you have been exposed so want to cover let alone ???" I really can't stand Erik's attitude and I don't like lying men the most, but I've been found not even willing to confess.

"I love you cha but I can't explain it now, I can't just decide april.I need time but I'm sure we'll be together later after I finish everything,believe me the same I'm cha, I prefer you over April." Still trying to convince.

"We'll see, I'm tired you can keep lying."Just let him stop making up stories again.

Erik is the type of man who used to lie and double up, even he often told me that in the past when he was still in school.His girlfriend was always a lot but he started to change when he met me, he said,moreover, his feelings are the same I have been quiet for 2 years and my presence makes him change.

And right for the next few months, he was so kind and considerate.Not the slightest bit of his suspicious behavior, it looks like a very loyal man but it turns out that behind all that there is a lie that he covers.

His feelings are not true, sincere,I don't know what reason he was like that and still want to keep me but I know after my friend told me.It turns out that indeed Erik could not let go of the two of us because our presence complement each other what Erik wants,or it can be said that behind my shortcomings there are in April while April shortcomings can be obtained when with Me.

While I thought,if he is like that means it will be forever like that because it only attach importance to his own ego.Demanding perfect partner in accordance to his clear wants it is impossible because no human is perfect and if forced even there will be a gap to find the flaws.

Until at any time if Erik does not change that thought then forever he will never be able to survive on one woman, he said,as long as he is like that and does not change then forever he will not find sincerity even that there he will lose a sincere woman to him like Me and April but more sincerely April who still wants to stay.

Even though there will be one of them going, there can never be two loves in one heart.