The Hijrahku Journey

HIJRAHKU'S JOURNEY

In Worry

That morning I woke up from sleep with the memory of a dream that always shadowed me, in the dream there was a crowd of people in white clothes who ran around because of fear to see the whole world began to shake.

While I was trying to reach the prayer tool as my handle,but it was so hard for me to reach until a man gave it to me, but I did not know him, and not for long everything was silent looking up at the sky.

Seen in the sky a Qur'an that leaves onto the sheet emits a beautiful light, making everyone including me so amazed to see the Qur'an in the sky with a beautiful light soothe the heart.

"Maybe this is a sign for me of the dilemma I've been through all this time???", I'm afraid that later I die but still haven't hijab really sinned me." I thought in my heart.

That's how my days passed with anxiety and fear as well with much deliberation"I'm still young,still want to dress well in the current style if I wear a hijab I can't be like that anymore".In daydreams.

Until one day I decided to wear the hijab while still following the style, "Bismilbornohmanirohim, I hope I can always Istiqomah", My words in my heart.

But the dilemma still looms because I was still dating at the time,"It doesn't matter if you are still dating there are also many who are hijab but still the important courtship is a positive courtship towards a better direction", I think again.

After a few months of hijab, I broke up. The reason was in the match of his parents, At first I was disappointed but after a long break up I even thought, "Maybe God wants me to focus more on this hijrah". And I decided not to date, focus on college and then find a job."That's my plan going forward.

But a few months passed by accident I met my best friend again at the seven-teen-night event, the name is hariis.Kon looking back there is someone who accidentally looked at me and I saw him, too close.

"It turns out you were the one sitting here??? Sapa Haris's.

"Yes, how are you???, long time no see." Sapaku.

Six months passed we were communicating with each other,my best friend began to keep the distance like something was covered.when I asked him that he said there was nothing when I knew he changed because of the presence of his ex Arni who wanted to reverse,"Let's just let us also just be friends, if indeed they turn back I will not bother anymore".My inner.

Aware they turned back so I started to keep my distance, although it was not nice to stay away from people who were comfortable but let them be happy it was better.

Having succumbed the second time to the same person makes me a little disappointed but for the sake of happiness my best friend is not a problem, managing the feeling of let alone later will also disappear on his own.

Not long there is news and communication, suddenly Arni chat in facebook messenger,"You're basically ruining people's relationships."

"What does this mean???,"shocked there's a messenger coming in.

" You're ruining people's relationships" he replied.

"I'm sorry if there's nothing to do, you've partially reversed it."Trying to explain.

" Don't pretend not to understand, if I knew you were dating just as much as I was dating it wouldn't be like this."Reply again.

"It's up to you to tell me what else I have to do and there's nothing to do".Reply annoyed.

After the last reply, I don't care anymore he wants to say what.Bingung is also the same person as that, he who comes in people's relationships but he is also the angry.You don't believe but experience directly, he is,it's possible they're fighting like that again."Anyway I want to start a new life, don't want any more feelings for anyone, focus on improving myself and college." Self-advancing.

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