The Hijrahku Journey

SECOND FROM THE BEGINNING

At exactly 09:00 in the morning I decided to come to Erik, but before that I told April to stay when I called so he could hear our conversation.

Tok.dok...

"Assalamualaikum."long knocked on the door but no answer, while waiting for me to call April and told her to shut up so she could listen to our conversation.

"Wa'alaikum greetings,"Erik's friend said as he opened the door.

"The matrix exists," I asked and then glanced at Erik who just woke up but I just stood in front of the door did not dare to enter and my phone was stored in my pocket so as not to be caught again the same phone April.

"What's coming so early ???" Erik asked as he sat on the chair carrying his pillow, still looking sleepy.

"Still asking what happened after you got caught now..." Still relaxed.

"It's not necessary to talk about it, it's still morning," calmly and without guilt.

"Oh. So this is the real you." My inner.

"So you're right dating the same April it's been almost 2 years." Nadaku started high.

"Yes I'm dating but you're the only one I've chosen, I don't have the same feelings for her and I'll decide April for you."He said casually without the slightest bit of guilt on his face casually.

Feeling unable to stand his attitude anymore, I immediately took the phone in my pocket.

"Hello April you heard what Erik said." I asked in April and was satisfied to have trapped Erik in his lie uncovered.

"I heard everything was cha and if Erik wanted to be with you I'd back off". April's speech that had begun to emotion heard Erik's words.

"So you called the same April from earlier, here's your phone." Without hesitation Erik hit me with a pillow and tried to reach for the phone I was holding.

"Let's go on April I'll talk to this guy first."Look at me sniffling at Erik.

"Yes cha, if I were there cha I might have brought a block let him know the taste." April is getting emotional.

"Yes, April, you can be patient when I speak first."I turned off the phone and then I looked at Erik calmly but with anger.

Erik who felt trapped did not accept if treated like that even turned angry,"Pain you call April like that, just like a child.You just go home aja I still want to sleep."Without feeling Erik chased away and hit using a pillow.

"No need to tell me I want to go home, some things are clear and I don't need any more explanation, everything is clear." I calmly stepped out of his boarding yard with a smile without tears,very disappointed but with his usual attitude it was very clear to me not want to trust him anymore.Make me no reason to trust Erik because once a liar will be forever like that.

Since all my business on campus was over, On the same day, I decided to return home with my cousin, wanting to stay away from Erik and also prepare my brother's proposal.

On the road erik kept calling me but I didn't care and I let him be with April, but April wanted to stay together and still accept Erik who even though his heart was divided.

"Maybe God wants me to be alone, maybe this is the answer to my concerns.So I can focus on getting closer to God." My inner being, my problem with Erik, made my mind open and understood that God wanted me to be better with my solitude.

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After the Isya prayer, I lay down my body on the mattress.Relieving tired after a long trip, not a long time.Including the call yelp from April.

Kringg.....

"Assalamualaik."Greetings first.

"Wa'alaikum greetings,Erik called you cha???" April asked the point.

"Yes, but I didn't pick up the phone."Answer's short.

"He called me too cha said he'd break you up for me."April's Story.

"No need to break up because from the beginning we were not dating,for me that attitude was enough for me to understand how he really is and from the beginning I warned that if he had a girlfriend I would not give him another chance because for me once lying would be forever like that." I relax.

"I'm also disappointed cha but he's trying to convince me." April is still influenced by Erik's seduction.

"If you still have the same feeling he's retained because I've also retreated, you two are left behind." I support them.

"But I don't feel good to be a bully among you, let's just say whatever you know first."Said April who felt guilty and did not want to be a bully.

"Yes I was the first one but he also approached you so it's the same, just keep it if you want." My advice.

"Honestly cha I still love but I'm still confused, we just saw the first attempt to survive and then I decided to continue or not." April was still confused.

"Yes from you alone, for sure I've retreated from the beginning." My reply.

"Thank you for the time." Pamite.

"Yes, you take a break so you can recover quickly and not drop-drop anymore just because of him." hung up the phone.

Since yesterday's incident, April so drop.Seems like a lot of thoughts and irregular eating so must be infused.So unfortunately on Erik, so,until willing to accept Erik back despite knowing Erik's feelings are divided for other women but April still wants to survive.

I salute the same April who was so sincere to Erik but unfortunately Erik did not see it at all, only concerned with his Ego alone.If Erik would open his heart to April completely,maybe they will be happy but unfortunately Erik still wants to maintain second when it is impossible.

I am a fool but not that stupid, beggar love for men who are uncertain.Better I improve myself and away from the name of a man, men,until the time comes, God will meet the right person.