THE HEART PILLAR 3 KNIGHTS
If My Heart Was Torn In Two (2)
Tell me something boy
Aren't you tired tryin' to fill that void?
Or do you need more?
Ain't it hard keeping it so hardcore?
I'm falling
In all the good times I find myself longin' for change
And in the bad times I fear myself
I'm off the deep end, watch as I dive in
I'll never meet the ground
Crash through the surface, where they can't hurt us
We're from the shallow now
In the shallow
(Shallow: Bradley Cooper and Lady Gaga)
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" Love ... but I'm gonna miss you so much. Don't you miss ? ".
Stupid!!!!, and Namu cursed to himself. So sweet and smooth that sentence escaped from the cupping of her lips. He hid his face between his knees. It was as if it could hide from the sudden embarrassment like stripping his heart.
" Weird ....".
Namu raised his face. He stared at the phone screen to make sure what he heard was not wrong.
" How could you miss saying goodbye if you've forgotten ".
" Heeeem.pardon me", Namu finally again begged with regret.
" It's ah, brother, sleepy ".
" Okay Love .. Good night, good night. I entrust the office and everything in it to you .... ".
" Could of course be in commensurate reward ".
" It must be .. whatever you want. I'll pack it for you ".
" Gombal !!! ".
" Just wait. Already yaaa ".
And he affirmed his heart, severing the call. Even after that, he felt a little empty.
A man who was alone in the middle of the night. Stepping back near the window, staring in the distance as if trying to penetrate the virtualpada. Trying to cut the distance and time, penetrate the dimensions to return to match a story about ..... Love's.
" Sister are you crying? .... does it hurt ?. Want me to blow your wound .. Let it not hurt anymore ".
Mature namu smiling amusedly. The memory of the little girl who had just experienced the date of the first milk tooth, came to a gloved boy who was shedding tears. Not because of the pain and pain of the wound down there, for the sake of a 'new form' and carrying out obligations, but there is a sore and stifling heart.
Meanwhile, the adorable little girl looked at little Namu with her innocent, sincere look. He offers help ... which makes little Namu blush.
" No. no need. It's okay ", hurry up and wipe her tears. " It will also heal. I've been taking medication ".
" Don't cry anymore, brother. Nih ... candy for you . Maniiiis. If it hurts again, eat it, it must be the pain ".
Neither the little Namu nor the grown-up Namu smiled. It was so sweet, then and now. The girl's smile, from small to mature who always sincerely showed the beauty on her jelly face.
" Who do they think they are ?. Brother. You hit him, or you insult him. How big is his father's company. If Om Mandala intervenes, it is also certain ".
" Heiii..... ", Namu teen nudged the tip of the nose of the sweet who nyerocos upset it. " You think papa's going to be complicated about this. There's just ah "
" But he insulted you.... ".
" What is insulting ? . It's true that I'm a collector's child, not Mr. Mandala's biological child ".
" Yes, but they shouldn't insult you like that ". The sweet face was pouting, the vexation in his heart was completely unstoppable anymore.
" My beautiful and kind mother like that angel always said. Respond in a classy, elegant and smart way. Silence them with your achievements they could never achieve. Be the real winner ".
" Yes.yeah.... Aunt Orlin is indeed the softest..... ".
" And the prettiest .. ", cut Namu as fast as lightning and make a pair of teenage Love eyes glare in disbelief .
" My mom is also pretty", the protest later n
" Yes, because your mother is beautiful, you are also beautiful ".
Namu smiled remembering the event. The girl was only fifteen years old, and that was the first time Namu saw the beauty of Love blushing in shame. Perhaps from that moment on his heart had been secretly storing up another memory of this girl. Not only as his sweet sister, but also as a girl who began to miss him secretly.
" Sister.I was accepted into Leiden, Political Science ".
" The Hague ? "
" he-emhs. What do you think ? ". That sweet face looks cheerful.
" Yaaa. He. he..he ... ".
" Sister !!!. I'm serious..How about, not leaving ? ".
" Why ?!!!. It has long been your dream. Why are there other options ? ".
" At least I need your support brother ".
The sweet face suddenly became clouded with mist. His eyes dimmed, he grieved.
" I've always supported you ".
Namu still stood staring at the night. It was cold out there like it had broken through a glass wall and started to enclose his soul. Recalling the past story, he made him feel sad again that had been ignored for years.
Four years of Cinta in the Netherlands, plus three years of her escape to England, was not enough to make her heart realize. That distance doesn't make Love stay away, the girl gets closer to him. Placing a Mighty Baskara Namu remains as the dearest sister of Aurora Cinta Hanjani.
What exactly does a Namu expect ?. Love is indeed his beautiful sister, although only limited to a bond on paper, there is no blood relation at all. But there are impenetrable limits, though transparent but very precluding. Can only see, as if feeling, but is unable to tear it to eliminate distance altogether.
Is just that enough for you, Namu ?.
It's no longer about a feeling from a man who wants more than to protect a woman. It was no longer as simple as a brother's affection for his sister. But this is the pure feeling of a man falling in love with Love.
Isn't silencing and keeping it more tightly in the deepest trough of the heart, the most appropriate at this time ?.
Then until when is Namu?, until when will you be able to deceive yourself.
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Tell me sometimein' girl
Are you happy in this modern world?
Or do you need more?
Is there something' else you're searchin' for?
I'm falling
In all the good times I find myself longin' for change
And in the bad times I fear myself
I'm off the deep end, watch as I dive in
I'll never meet the ground
Crash through the surface, where they can't hurt us
We're from the shallow now
In the shallow
(Shallow: Bradley Cooper and Lady Gaga)
Being a firstborn child and you are a woman, then it just so happens that your sister is a boy, and your age is only one year apart. Coincidentally also your family is a dynasty of famous businessmen. Then you'll be a little neglected kid. Because you're just a reserve in that hierarchy of power. It sucks, doesn't it ? .
But there is someone who always extends his hand to you. Leading you when you're in limp, comforting you when you're sad, accompanying you when you're a fisherman, supporting you when you're weakened. And that pair of soft eyes always makes you feel comfortable. If then you become dependent on it, is it wrong ?.
But he's your family too. There will come a time when you will have to let go. When another woman comes and occupies the queen's throne in her heart. Back then, didn't you have to let go of all the feelings you had. Saying happy congratulations sincerely, delivering it with a prayer of happiness.
That time ... will definitely come. Have you prepared your heart ?.
Love .... but I'm gonna miss you so much. Don't you miss
Doesn't he always say such sweet words ?. You don't have to put it in your heart. It will only make it harder for you to let go. Think clearly, he is just the greatest brother and dear brother. The man in his eyes is only you as his beloved little brother. Be at peace with the tempest of your taste.
On the other side of the world, he was still awake in the silence of the night. Looking at the silhouette of twigs and branches created by moonlight. The girl was pensively pensive with a rumble of logic debate in her heart.
He is Love who looks at the night. Taking a deep breath and exhaling it slowly, as if releasing all the burdens in his soul. But he was squeezed more and more by the sense that he did not understand.
" Nothing rests in your heart ?. Or is your heart filled with someone ?. How long are you going to wait for him, son ? ".
" Us ... How long did you wait for papa? fifteen years, right ?. I'm not waiting for ma. I just haven't found him yet ".
" Love.. sometimes, it is better that we be in the position of being loved. Loving is too painful. And not all love stories in a long wait can end beautifully like this love story of your mom and dad. Open your heart a little, son. You just need to feel it more deeply ".
" But ... doesn't mean I have to accept that matchmaking, does it ? ".
" Nobody forced you into an arranged marriage. I just want you to open your heart a little. Syailendra is a smart, handsome young man who also looks fun. You should meet him ".
" We've met. He was kind, polite and pleasant. But nothing shakes in my heart, Mah ".
" Maybe no son, you should meet more often ".
And Love was pensive again, rethinking everything that had been talked about with her Mama. While the night continues to roll increasingly late, languishing in desolation. Like dissolving an incomprehensible taste. Until finally presenting an unstoppable sleepiness. Then cradled a Love drowning in his dreams.
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This woman hugged warmly, shedding all yearnings. So also with Namu who replied full of haru. They are the ones still bound by blood relations. One of the families that still hold memories about the mother he never remembered. But the sincerity of love is undeniable, felt from the warmth of this embrace.
" *Tante is fine ".
" Of course, honey, your aunt is gonna keep trying to be okay. Let's see your Om. He's been looking forward to your presence* ".
And the woman who looked so young allowed three of her guests to follow her to a room. When the door was opened, a smiling man saw his face look a little pale, but the happy hue looked so real. And his smile widened as wide as his welcoming hand.
" Mandala.
The mandala is approaching faster than the others. Then welcome the two arms with a very warm embrace.
" My mighty Teddy".
" My bossmand. You're getting old ".
Then the laughter of the two men broke apart, even to the point of tears.
" Dear ".
Teddy then turned his eyes to the handsome young man. He smiled and greeted his nephew.
" Four years of not meeting you... Why are you so handsome ? ".
" Ah ... om Teddy, it's too grandiose of praise" Namu blushed.
" Bang Teddy", Orlin's greeting turned Teddy's gaze away. He smiled and shook the woman's hand.
" Orlin. I've been pretty sure since the first ".
" Thank you, thanks to your prayer ". Orlin stung warmly.
The meeting was so moving. Mandala then deliberately made video calls to her friends in Indonesia. Awakening happy memories from a young age. Arjuna who is also his brother-in-law, Ardanu who is still very loyal to work for him and also Bramastya who is believed to hold a subsidiary in the city of Semarang. Inside the room, there is now a sweet reunion of five friends.
Boo Na decided to invite Orlin and Namu to chat outside the room. In a warm family room, while enjoying a small meal that has been prepared. The truth is to give time to her husband so that he can let go of longing with his best friends. It is seen that sadness is controlling the soul of the woman.
'" My dear, he only wished for a little more time so that he could escort Hyoriin to her wedding altar ".
Boo Na said it full of simplicity, until her tears were shed one after another. With understanding Orlin immediately embraced this woman. Hope to share the burden and strengthen each other. While Namu who sat not far from the two could only remain silent in the same turmoil of sad feelings.
" Did Hyoriin already know about this Auntie ? ", ask Namu later.
" Well, he already knows and is trying to realize his father's wishes. But.... .. ".
" Why Auntie ? ", asked Namu impatiently.
" His girlfriend actually broke off their relationship after knowing this situation . Getting married young is common in this country. Twenty-five years old is the productive age to work, and getting married is considered a big obstacle ", Boo Na said full of sadness.
