THE HEART PILLAR 3 KNIGHTS

Unraveling Masai, Fulfilling Promises (5)

Teach me how to scrape the cuttings in the veil of my heart, for they are too wide to rip

Teach me to wash this wound, for it has purulent and always stings pain

Teach me not to hate anymore

Teach me how to forgive you

It's not all that easy as it seems

This Masai tangle is too strong to entangle me

Haunting my own kala

Torturing when I sleep

Fooled me with created fear

I ........

Don't ask how to survive

I live with my hateful breath on you

I grew up with a vengeance on you

You're........

The destroyer I miss

But with my revenge

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The bad dream came back, this time it was so clear. Cold sweat and the sting of breath like chasing want to embrace the fragile body in a raging feeling. Yulia sat on her bed. Slowly rubbed his tears that began to pool.

' I hate .. ', he sizzled.

And that flash of the past flows unstoppably, even though he tries to stop it by closing his eyes. But the story was drawn back very real and made Yulia drown in various flavors that had always been denied.

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" Yulia .. ", a handsome face popped out of the door and showed a line of smiles.

It was a happy hue that was drawn on a handsome face with a gray hue coiled around the chin and the edge of the jaw, marking this former man shaved. Wisya felt like she was getting a big gift. Unexpectedly unsurprisingly, this sweet girl who always made him half crazy now stood real.

" Login ... ", Wisya pulled Yulia's wrist to enter.

" No need", tepis Yulia quickly.

" You couldn't have come here just to stand at the door. Enter .... ".

In the end Yulia did not reject the invitation of this young man. He also according to be invited into the Wisya apartment. Very awkwardly the girl sat at the end of the sofa and looked very alert. While Wisya who was very happy and enthusiastic, seemed unable to remove a line of smiles from her face.

" Just relax, there's no shame. I live here alone. Oh yes... What would you like to drink ? ".

" Whatever.... ", Yulia answered nervously. He muttered. Living alone here, it means that currently there are only two of them.

" Juice alone yes.This happened to be Anelis here and bring two bottles of this juice ".

Anelis?, Yulia frowned. When I met her in the hospital corridor, the girl said she did not know where Wisya's address was. But apparently he's been lied to by Anelis, even the girl has been visiting from here.

Wisya opened a bottle of juice containing a liquid with a fresh yellow color, it looks like a mango taste. And sure enough when the young man poured the contents, smell the typical aroma of tropical fruit that is in season today. With a smile Wisya shifted the glass that had been filled towards Yulia, while she herself also then downed half of the glass.

" Please ... fresh and sweet", Wisya.

" I'm here to ask you one thing ", Julia doesn't budge.

" Drink first, the entrance to the neighborhood is quite far. Drink first .... ", Wisya is half pushy.

In the end Yulia complied with the young man's request and began to drink half of the glass in front of him. While Wisya has toilet spent all the contents of the glass. The young man shifted his seat slightly closer to Yulia, smiled warmly and stared fixedly at the girl next to him.

" I'm so flattered you bothered to come here when I thought you were busy with your research project with Haidar. I'm really envious of that young man, you know .. feeling lost to you ". Wisya nyerocos full of spirit with radiant face.

" Vishnu ... ".

" Yes ".

" Why are you lying to me ? ".

'Deg!!', for a moment the heart of Wisya seemed to stop beating. The single biggest lie to this girl is about who pays the semester money. And that is the thing that will also be revealed soon by Wisya. That he had never paid the fee at all, and all Yulia's allegations were misunderstandings of the girl that had not been cleared up by him.

" You made me feel entangled by a debt of gratitude .. which you never actually gave me. ", Yulia's voice began to tremble.

" Yulia... you already know ". Wisya looked at Yulia, her gaze filled with guilt.

" Yes, I know it all, because I've met the guy from the company who financed it. You... make me tormented with all the rumors that are circulating ... you ... ".

" I'm sorry Yulia, I never meant to. Really ... I really want to reveal everything to you. I waited for the right time .. because I was so afraid that you would leave me, stay away from me. when I knew the truth ".

Yulia was silent, but the corner of her lips made a screeching sound that sounded so cynical.

" I'm here to thank you, even if you lied to me. And I ... I'm also very helpful ".

" Yulia, it's not like that. I'm still really sorry for all the misunderstandings I ended up using .... ".

" That's .... ", Yulia grabbed that glass of fresh yellow juice and drank it. " I'm just asking you one more thing ... ".

" You forgive me. ", Wisya's face turned into a sumringah. He approached Yulia who was sitting next to him. " What do you ask for help.I will definitely work for you ".

Contrary to Vishya who was so excited, Yulia let out a long sigh. There is sadness that slowly blends into the face that is already pias it. His clear eyes then look sad.

" I ask ... stay away from me. We go back to the initial attitude first. Just know, but do not know each other. We just happen to be at the same time and place... ".

" Yulia ..".", Wisya was unable to cover her shock.

The young man held both shoulders of the girl who now looked down. Then touch his fingers on the face of the ayu. Lifting the tip of his chin and forcing the girl to return his gaze. It was like scanning Yulia's soul from the iris of an eye that started to clutter uneasily. Seeking a hunk of truth from the strands of words that just present a fretful question in the heart of Wisya.

" Why Yulia ? ", the question is firm even though it sounds subtle.

" We are like space and mayapada. And you.... also ......... ".

" You ... because of our closeness.it all went wrong. You know??.... everyone ... demeaning me ".

" Fuck them!!! I'll teach them all a lesson.... ".

" Vice!!!!.... ", Yulia jerked strongly. The girl stood up. " You don't think ... how I've messed things up .. Even your family's good name is threatened ".

" You .... how can you think like that?.... How can you ? ".

Wisya also rose to his feet, he again held Yulia's shoulder. Perhaps because of the emotions that were playing with their feelings, Wisya felt that a pair of Yulia's eyes were cluttered with anxiety. It was as if a fog had infiltrated and started to mislead.

" The son of a politician ... exploits the weakness of a girl of his class..in order to get the best value.it will be written by your father's enemies .... and it all starts with .. our closeness ... ".

" You think I care ? ", Wisya stared intently at the girl before her. " Yulia.... ".

And one quick move, a Vishya with the right tempo immediately pulled Yulia and caught the girl in his arms. Imposing with both arms, so that the girl remains attached and cannot turn away from her sharp gaze.

Yulia who felt for some reason just a moment her heart started pounding erratically, now she was increasingly unable to control it. It was like something was flowing warm and started to turn hotter and more twisted. Makes him unable to think clearly, even when he feels Wisya's lips hot down his cheek.

" I don't care ... for the first time ... I found my life purpose, and it's you ".

The whisper was still hot, even though Yulia's ears were covered in the hijab she was wearing. The leaflet on his chest was like a poison that paralyzed common sense and invaded his motor nerves. Julia did not feel unable to control her control.

As Wisya began to rub her lips that were getting hotter to touch Yulia's nose, the girl's heart shrieked in rejection. But somehow the two hands that were supposed to push hard, actually coiled around Wisya's neck. Making the young man translate as an acceptance.

A warm, deep and long first kiss finally came off as the two gasped for breath because they were unable to meet the air capacity for their lungs. Without letting go of the close proximity in one connection of the arms that encircled Yulia's waist, Wisya again wanted to sink her face into the tenderness of the girl's lips. But a jolt that was quite loud, made the young man slightly pushed.

" He. stop ... ". Yulia's voice sounded hoarse and stammered, because in fact she felt dizzy and the unsettling heat continued to flow in her body. Even his eyes began to faint slightly, and there were parts of his body twitching with a strange gnashing feeling. It's very uncomfortable.

Wisya is very aware of it, the change in the look of this ayu face is so obvious. And now, slowly he felt a stream of heat that began to awaken his male side. Shit!! .. he cursed and cursed himself. This is no longer just a response from a man who touches the woman he loves, he wants more. This is like the effects arising from the aphrophysiac compounds being deliberately added. Trigger a storm of dopamine and pheromones, which then create uncontrollable cravings.

" You...you ... what do you want ? ". Yulia's voice sounded like a groan, escaped from the exhale that sounded excited, as well as the uncontrollable body movements.

" I'll take care of you. Let's go into my room ". Without waiting for the girl's approval, Wisya leaned on Yulia's body which was still moving wildly.

Wisya again curses, he really is over the horns. While the temptation of Yulia's two hands moving wildly and always accidentally touching some sensitive part of her body, was really like a time bomb trigger.

" Lay down .. I'll get you some ice water ".

" Don't go .... ". A powerful pull held back Wisya who had just finished laying down Yulia's body.

The pull forced the man to fall on the woman's body.

" Shit. You make it difficult for me, Yulia. I don't know until when I can control myself .... "

Then Yulia's gaze clouded, but she could feel the touches that made her float it. Until the moment he landed again with his senses.he was like a grain of sand that crashed from the top of the mega. Small, meaningless.

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Yulia looked at her face in the mirror, as if the fresh water she had just washed was nothing. He saw the shadow of a woman without a crown, who had been left untouched. And that's him from five years ago.

He who woke up in a big bed with poranda, not whole anymore. Crying for a moment while enveloping himself, hoping to hide from reality. Then limped down and immediately put back all his clothes scattered on the floor.

Staring hatefully at the silhouette of the man who was busy cleaning himself in the bathroom. Then leave the cursed place with a hatred that began to bloom abundantly. The girl who passed by with a wide gaping wound.

And now, where he has started to reorganize his life. All the nightmares are back. Yulia was unable to dodge, there were only two she could do. Satisfying or not paying attention.

And this morning, the thorn of the past, the cause of the nightmare sat before him. Reviewing a smile that made him hold back with all his might the urgent nausea. However, he must be professional and show his capacity and position in this place.

" Doctor Wisya, this isn't a hospital. There are two main programs, Public Health and Individual Health. For individual health, of course, you already understand it very well. For public health .... You have to learn a lot. And you should be able to follow ".

Yulia took off the glasses she was wearing, neatly placed them next to her stationery. Then he looked back at the man before him who did not even relax a smile.

" Good ma'am .. Please guide her ".

" You can learn a lot from Haidar's doctor ".

" Ready!!.. Doctor Haidar a little much already story and also. But I still expect a lot from mom ".

" Of course.as long as you are serious ".

" Thank you ma'am .... ". And Wisya nodded excitedly and then rose from her seat. " Is there no handshake????......at least welcome join ? ".

" Happy joining" Yulia said quickly.

Wisya also welcomed him with a helping hand. Waiting for a while until then Yulia reluctantly accepted the helping hand. Wisya quickly snatched and shook tightly, making Yulia unnerved. The tight grip of Wisya's hand made her unable to resist anymore.

" Thank you for all this kindness .... first ... until now, you haven't changed Yulia ... ".

Suddenly the rigidity on the basis of the formality that had surrounded the two slowly began to collapse. When Wisya called out her name only to Yulia, when the handshake never came off, and when Yulia found the same tenderness in the eyes of this man. The same tenderness as when the two had just known each other first.

" Work...... ", Yulia slowly pulled her hand apart from Wisya's handshake.

" Well ... Excuse me ".

Yulia nodded and let Wisya step towards the door. But the man stopped his steps and turned to look at Yulia. Without a smile and the look of the face showed seriousness.

" I'm .... going to your house tonight, with Haidar. There's something important .. you both should know ".

Yulia was silent unmoved, she did not move and her pair of eyes stared intently at Wisya.

" If it's about the past .... forget it!!. I buried it deeply ... ", said Yulia firmly.

" You .... Haidar .. must know the truth ....... ", Wisya took a deep breath and returned Yulia's gaze. The man's eye-light implied a wound and sadness.

" Because I can't stop loving you "

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