The Heart of Raisya

Must be patient

At 4 pm after the ashar prayer I heard the door of the house ring, it seemed like someone had come. Right I thought, my husband is home.

"Have you eaten?"

"It was at my mother's house."

"Em. yes already then my sister wants to go to grandma's house for a while."

"Yes" she answered briefly

I guess why it's still so awkward. What does it feel like to be a newlywed.Is this possible because we got married because of an arranged marriage? that's my inner voice.

After 5 minutes I played at my grandmother's house I saw 2 people come to the house, it looks like Agus my husband's cousin and another one I don't know him.

"Grandmother I went home first, it looks like my husband's guesthouse."

"Yes Rai, go there! If there's no drink just grab some tea in the kitchen take it to your house."

" There's still no grandma."I also went home.

"Oh sister-in-law, really new bride." Agus teased me.

I just responded with a smile.

"I'll get you a drink first, please continue." My pamit.

I took a bottle of coffee from the refrigerator and a chocolate wafer snack for them.Then I put it on the table where they were sitting.

"Thank you brother-in-law."

"Yes together, while being enjoyed. Sorry for that."

"It's enough brother-in-law, if there's too much beauty we don't go home haha." Agus beeucap jokingly.

Somehow I feel my husband is always avoiding me, I mean he does not want to linger alone with me.Suddenly I remember the name 'first wife'. That name always bothered my mind.

"God take away the suspicion in my heart." I do my duty in my heart.

"Assalamu'alaikum." I heard Fifi's voice say hello.

"wa'alaikum slam." Answer the three men at home.

"Sirman, does his Raisya exist?"

" There's Fi, just go in."

I appeared behind the door waving my hand without a sound.

"So I unloaded Rai's envelope?"

"The envelope has been dismantled only gift that has not been fi hehe."

"Well, when I wanted to borrow the envelope, haha." we laughed together.

"You've got to have a fi."

"Kidding Rai, let's get stressed. The new bride can't be stressed".

"What was last night?"

"What was last night?"

"He pretended he didn't know."

"Where's your hijab open, you got a red mark on your neck?" Fifi was about to reveal my hijab while laughing.

"Ish ngawur! gk there's fi, what the hell!" I try to be ordinary.

If there's any way I might

showing others my inner self in my heart.

"Why did Si Agus and his friend play here? just disturb you."

"Not knowing Fi, don't poo it."

"Already at 5 Rai, I said that the husband was just daunted. It'll be a long time, my husband's gonna miss."

"You can Fi, you've gone home, thank you for helping, oh yes this is a hijab for you."

"Never mind Rai, I'm glad I could help you and talk to you."

"No pa-pa fi, I really want to give you an additional collection so do not open the lid of the head."

"Nyindir here! okay okay thanks, I'm definitely wearing this. I go home first yeah, oh yeah my number's changed, if I send a message to your number."

"Ready boss!"

At night, my husband and I both stayed. When we finished praying my husband's HP rang. I saw him go out and pick up the phone. My heart is restless again, why just take a call he should avoid me. I'm his wife, not someone else.

The night was getting late, my husband went into the room, we sat on the bed silent to each other. Finally he opened his voice.

"You know we are married because we are betrothed, of course we are still not used to each other, I hope you will be patient," said Firman paused his speech.

"I work overseas just enough to finance my own life and help my mother, you know my father died a long time ago, my brother has a burden wife and 4 children, you know my own, while my brother he just graduated from college, I'm sorry if later I can not give you a living." brother Firman paused his words again. "breath born or inner."

jlep

My heart aches, how can a husband blatantly say this, But I must be strong. It is my destiny, God has given me the best.

"Okay, I'll be patient. Please guide me to be a good wife." That's my answer. Since becoming a wife, of course, I have to be behind my husband.

🍀Sometimes the good you think is not the best for God, and the bad you think is not the bad for God. 🍀

...~Raisya Azkiya~...

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